lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 130

Seungmin's pov
" I am sorry" I looked behind me to see mina standing there...I was sitting in the living room watching TV...not really...it was just playing while I was lost deep inside my thoughts...chan and minho hyung are out with felix to look for leads about those two assassins they are visiting the place they were last seen in before we lost them, changbin hyung is in his room as usual trying to find something new...while me...I was sitting here alone doing nothing but overthink.
"About what princess?" I asked the girl walked close to stand in front of me.
"For being rude...I am sorry " she answered making me frown.

"Then I am sorry as well for not being a good father figure to you" I told mina who shook her head, let's be for real all I have done the past three years is ignore the kids...mingi always had his way to me while mina just acted like I am not there...I cared for them of course....but I just...I don't know...I was not real present with them...or minho hyung at that matter. I tried to approach the girl the past few months but she didn't seem to care.
"You were sick and hurting...it was okay...I shouldn't have acted like that as well" she said looking down the floor.
"You know that you are too smart for you age right" I said making her look at me.
"That's what everyone tells me...but sometimes I wish I wasn't...I wish I was just a normal kid...with normal memory... I wish I could forget what happened to me...to forget seeing my mom die...but it is impossible...it won't go away no matter what " mina said taking me off guard....seeing a six...almost seven years old girl talk like this is sad and scary at the same time...I am a twenty seven grown up man yet I couldn't deal or accept the death of my beloved...who could blame this girl for acting like this when she is stuck with dark memories?

"Unfortunately dear, I can't tell you that you will forget with time...you were cursed by this memory...but your intelligence could be of use to you someday....you will go to a good college, achieve all of your dreams" I said smiling at her " we could never replace your mom but you got your dad back...you have your brother...you have me and your other dads...I know you don't see us like that but we will never stop trying" I said chuckling, I saw how fast chan hyung got attached to her...it is very had to miss " just know you are really not alone" I added, it is funny how I am trying to convince her of something I should be doing but I am failing miserably....well she doesn't need to know that.
"If we have each other then could you stop being sad and depressed most of the time" my mouth fell open hearing what she said...I totally forgot with who I am talking to.
"That's harsh" I said shaking my head but I laughed nevertheless.

"We lost the people we love...but we are still alive...i don't think they would have wanted to see us suffer like this...don't you agree?" Mina said tilting her head to the side.
" I do agree, both of us apparently knows that but we are still struggling" I said nodding my head.
"Then let's make a deal, let's try to be happy again...I promise you won't treat mingi badly anymore...I will accept the little dwarf" mina said making me burst into laughs...I swear I didn't laught like this in years.
"That's harsh again, he will grew and maybe he will become taller than you" I said shaking my head.
"I doubt that...but do we have a deal?" She said offering her little hand to me to shake.
"Yes princess we do" I answered accepting the shake...she is really something.
"I am too old to be called princess you know " she said scrunching her nose.
"You will never too old for that princess " I said teasing her " now could I have a hug?" I added opening my arms for her..

"You know I hate hugs right" she said but accept my hugs anyways.
"I hate them too...I only hug people who I love little girl" I replied chuckling " how are we so much alike? Like father like daughter" I added.
"We are not related to each other biological, how could we be alike?" She said pulling away only for me to laugh more.
"But you are finally okay with me being your dad" I said making her sighed but nod.
"We will see...I have to go, I have someone homework to do" she said before she ran out of the room leaving me with a wide smile on my face...she is so precise I swear.