lost me (Minho×ot8)

chapter 106

Seungmin's pov ( present day)
I slowly opened eyes looking around the room, I glanced to my right to see mingi sleeping next to me...he fell asleep when we were watching a movie last night and I just followed after, surprisingly I didn't have a nightmare yesterday...or I guess I didn't....I just don't remember waking up
I smiled caressing the little boy's hair...he is so dear.
Suddenly the door was slowly opened revealing minho hyung " should i get used to mingi sleeping between us?" He asked smiling widely as he came closer.
"Did i...wake up..."

"No" he said sitting next to me." When I came to check on you yesterday I found you asleep hugging each other...I didn't want to move or wake him" he added.
"Yeah" I answered staring at the sleeping boy.
"Are you hungry? Breakfast is ready " minho hyung said, I glanced back at the older who was watching me with hopeful eyes...a part of me wanted to refuse but seeing him...and after what happened with mingi...I don't want to take a step backward,but I have used to living like that I don't want how I am going to change.
"Is mina awake?" I asked trying to get out of the bed.
"Yes, she is...let me help you please " minho hyung said but he didn't touch me.

He knew I would snap at him if he did, I stared into his eyes before I nodded....the older smiled before she scopped me in his arms and carried me to my wheelchair, I was looking at his side profile as he did...he looked happy after I agreed...why did someone like him stayed with me after everyone left me?
"Baby" minho hyung said putting me down " I need to tell you something "he added pushing me out of the room.
"Is changbin hyung okay?" I asked looking back at him as we went down the hall, I know that I refused to see him but it doesn't mean that I am not worried about him.
"He is fine...it is just..."

"I am back" my head immediately snapped back to look in front of me to see felix standing near the kitchen door...my whole world froze when I locked eyes with him...I didn't see him in three years...he said he went to look for hyunjin and jeongin and never came back...he tried to talk to me over the phone but I refused...I scanned him up and down...he didn't change one bit...his hair is a little longer but that's it...
"Hey" he added approaching me as i found myself unable to talk...am I angry at felix? I honestly don't know...he didn't attend jisung's funeral neither did I....he left us but so did I...I might have been with minho hyung physically but emotionally I gave him hell...at least the other went to look for our missing boyfriends.

Seeing that he came back alone means that he failed, and he gave up on finding them...I don't want to think about it but what if hyunjin and jeongin are no longer in this world...minho hyung did his research even from here...felix looked everywhere for them but failed....minho hyung told me when I acted like I didn't hear him...I can't accept this...I can't accept their death as well...I won't survive it...I won't survive another loss.
"Baby" felix said crouching down in front of me " I missed you" he added taking my hands into his...again I don't know how I feel about him right now....I didn't expect to see him after all this time.

"Seungmin " minho hyung said pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Love say something please, yell...scream....hit....I know that i have failed you...I know that I have left you and i am sorry for that but please don't do this to me" felix said as tears slipped down his eyes " I couldn't find them, jisung is gone...god changbin hyung is..." he said shaking his head " I can't lose you too" he added.
Without thinking I pulled the younger toward me hugging him tight, I don't know what came over me as I started to cry as well...I miss him...I miss him so much...

Chan's pov
"Agent Bang you were the one who refused to know anything about your past team" captain han said, I came back to south Korea after felix left and the first thing I did was contact the captain who agreed to meet me....I can say he changed...he looks broken....he lost some weight as well....jisung's death was hard on him just like us...I have heard that he is leading the council now during hyunjin's absence.
"I did, but not when two of my boyfriends are missing and the other is in coma." I argued.
"You chose to leave..."
"My husband died in front of me....I failed to protect him...I failed my team...how could I stay after everything " i yelled cutting him off.