Not for a Single Second - [Elizabeth Olsen]

Chapter 59: Fallout at the End of the Night

When you're talking to your girls, do you talk about me?
Do you tell them I'm your lover, that I'm all that you need?
Do you tell them white lies, do you tell them the truth?
Do you tell them that you love me, the way that I've been loving you?

Girls Talk Boys - 5 Seconds of Summer

Lizzie's POV

"I'm divorcing Robbie"

"You're what?!", everyone asks me in unison, while looking at me confused, lost, and surprised.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have said it like that. What I meant was, I'm thinking on divorcing Robbie", I clarify the decision I came up with this week, but it seemed my words didn't quite clarify anything because the girls were still looking at me confused, and they stayed silent after my revelation.

"What made you decide or think about divorce? Are things bad with Robbie?", Scar asks me softly, making me sigh before I slouch on my chair and drop my head back in frustration.

"I hate to admit it but we haven't been in the best of terms for a long time"

"What happened between you two?", Emily asks carefully as I take a deep breath to kind of explain everything that's been going on lately.

"Well, during the pandemic, our marriage was at its peak because we were together all the time, but once I got back to work, our marriage started to tumble. Everything got worse when I met Y/N. While I was with her, I wasn't fighting with Robbie or crying because of what we said during our fights; I was actually very happy. I felt appreciated, protected, admired, but most importantly, I felt loved. That's when my marriage started to hang from a thread. Robbie clearly didn't want me to be away from him so much, and he could see that I was happier without him somewhere else, or should I say, with someone else"

"Did he do something to you?", Julie asks me, sounding pretty confident of the question she just asked. I know Y/N hasn't told anyone about us, except from Becky and her family of course, but only Becky and my mom know about Robbie cheating on me. However, Julie has always been really good at figuring out stuff, so I hope she doesn't inquire anything about Robbie cheating on me, which is true but, I don't want anyone to know.

"No, he didn't. He just stayed with me and made sure to reassure me that he loves me, but then he would leave the house and wouldn't come back to sleep, he would say work was more important than going out on a date with me, or that I was being selfish for only wanting him to support me on my projects or when I'm working. I was starting to get really annoyed by it, and when I least expected it, Y/N told me she was in love with me"

"I knew it!", Julie, Brie, April and Scar all say in unison, leaving Chloe and Emily a bit confused, and me, well...I wasn't surprised. Our sexual tension is really evident, and we used to flirt with each other all the time.

"That's what happened the day of her graduation?", Julie asks me directly, and I nod ashamed.

"What did you do after she told you she was in love with you?", April asks further as the rest of the girls wait for me to answer.

"I pushed her away. After that, we didn't see each other for a long time, but once we reunited, it felt like after feeling myself drowning for so long, I swam to the surface and finally caught a breath of fresh air. The chemistry between us is just so strong, everyone can see it, and I feel it every day. Y/N and I...we had a talk where I told her I couldn't be with her, that I was going to try and fix things with Robbie. That's why we cut ties completely with each other for the past year. But now that we've talked out our unfinished business, and I'm not longer scared to say that I'm in love with a woman, that I'm in love with her, she has moved on and is very happy, making the possibility of us getting together, impossible. I...I've thought about my future a lot, especially if that future doesn't involve her, and I've thought long and hard about how things would be if I stayed with Robbie. We went to couples therapy a lot and that helped heal some aspects of our relationship, but I feel like...we've both fallen out of love", I reveal to my girlfriends, and they all stay silent, processing the information I just shared.