Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 32: My Strength

I woke up from my nap and felt this wave of depression. Yesterday I had a doctors appointment and Dr. Adams told me that something might be wrong with Haley and that she saw some abnormalities in my ultrasound. They weren't sure so they ran more test and would call me soon as they figured out something. I was beyond nervous and me being me I feared the worst. I never wanted my babies to suffer and if something was wrong it was cause of me. I was carrying her and it was my job to make sure she was safe. This was weighing heavy on me.
"Ma ma" I heard as Harley ran in my room jumping on the bed with only a diaper. Her hair was everywhere
"What you up too angel." I said as she laid on my chest facing me. This little girl was my world and whatever problems I had going on when she came around they all disappeared. I looked at her as she smiled at me. She was my heart.
"Harley mommy sad today. Can I have a kiss baby" I said stroking her little cheek as she placed he little lips on mines.
"Muahhhh......Another one" I said as she gave me kiss after kiss making me smile. "You love your mommy" I said as she rubbed my stomach laying with me. I loved cuddling with her. It always relaxed my nerves
"Yessss" she said dragging her answer out. She was so loving.
"How much angel" I said as she spread her tiny arms apart as far as they could go. "That's a lot. But I love you more. You know that baby" I said as she nodded her head yes. I pulled her closer as I took the blanket covering us.
"I love you so much Harley. Your mommy's blessing. Don't ever forget that okay. You are so special to me and daddy" I said kissing her forehead as she slowly closed her eyes. She was the other love of my life. Harley was my angel sent from God and I was so thankful for her.
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"Yeah that's cool. I'm wit it man" I heard Jason speak on the phone as I walked into his office. I didn't tell him I was coming but I needed to talk to him. I was so nervous about Haley and stressed. I knew he would know just what to say. I needed him.
"So how long that's goin take" he said as he eyed me as I took a seat in front of him. I didn't want to disturb him. I still had my shades on cause I cried on my way here and didn't want him to see me like that. He told me to be strong and have faith but that was easier said than done.
"Aight man. Imma hit you later tho. Send me the details" he said ending his call. I checked my email on my phone as he wrapped up.
"What you doing here beautiful" he said looking at me. His stare always did something to me. I couldn't even answer him. I was heart broken at the thought of my baby being hurt. I lowered my head fumbling with my phone. Removing my shades.
"Come here baby" he said sensing my vibe. I got up and made my way over to him. I sat on his lap as I laid my head on his chest. I just broke down.
" I'm right here baby" he said rubbing my back kissing my forehead. When I needed to vulnerable or cry Jason was the person I ran too. He saw every side of me.
"What I tell you Hue. She goin be okay. Whatever problem that come we still goin love her period." He said as buried my face in his shirt.
"But I don't want her to suffer J. What did I do wrong" I sobbed feeling terrible.
"Stop saying that Hue. You didn't do anything that you weren't suppose to do. Shit happens baby" he said as I tired to calm myself down. I always took his advice to heart.
"J idk what to do" I said wiping my eyes
"Stop stressing aight. I got you baby. That's what I'm here for. Haley goin straight okay" he said rubbing my cheek. I never had to worry about anything when he was around. Jason was so peaceful and always had a handle on things even when they were unexpected. He never stressed a thing.
"You promise baby" I said as I looked up at him.
"I promise beautiful. Stop crying okay" he said as he pecked my lips. He always knew just what to say. Whatever the problem was I knew we would get thru it. He was my rock and I never had to face anything alone.
"I love you J" I said as I laid my head back on his chest.
"I love you more. Let me answer these messages and wrap of these contracts and we can go home beautiful" he said to me as I was about to get up
"Nah stay right here. You good baby" he said pulling back into him. I held on to him as he finished working. Jason always made sure I was okay no matter where we were. I appreciated him so much.
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It was 8pm and I was now waiting for the call. It was way past the time Dr. Adams said she was gonna call but we heard nothing. Harley spent the night with Jen so I could have a break.
"Baby what you want to eat" Jason said walking into our bedroom. I laid in bed with my phone close by me.
"Im not hungry" I said back quickly. I didn't have much of an appetite.
"Baby you gotta eat. I ain't see you eat nothing all day" he said siting next to me. His words were going in one ear and out the other. I still had hope that someone would call and tell me something.
"Hue are you listening to me" I didn't hear nothing at this point. My mind was fixated on that phone.
Jason came in the room sitting be hide me on the bed as he started to massage my shoulders. Boy did I need that.
"Thank you baby" I said softly closing my eyes. I knew me stressing was not going to change the out that was already in Gods plan for us.
"I told you about thanking me. This my job" he said applying more pressure on my shoulders moving to my sides. His hands felt amazing.
"Mmmm baby that feels good" I spoke with my head down relaxed. His touch was the death of me. "Lower J" I said as he reached my waist.
"Right here" he said working his hands slowly massaging and rubbed on me. He knew just where to touch. I was so relaxed. I exhaled as he laid me back against the pillows.
"Baby I'm not in the mood to have sex" I said as he just laughed. Usually when he got me in this position he only had one thing on his mind.
"Chill I'm not trying to beautiful. I wanna relax you ok" he said hovering over me. "You goin let me" he said
As he kissed my lips. I nodded as he took a hold of my leg rubbing it up and down. I couldn't help but moan softly.
"That good sexy" he said as he smiled. He knew just what his hands did to me.
"Just keep going J" I said grinning rolling my eyes. He moved from one leg to another rubbing up and down my thigh slow and sensually.
"I want you to stop worry ok" he whispered to me. I took a deep breath and sighed.
"It's hard Jason" I said looking in his eyes. I admired go strong he was. He kept me going whenever I wanted to give up.
"Come lay on my chest baby" he said as he laid back allowing me to place my head on his muscular chest. He wrapped his arms around me tight. I felt so safe. "Baby it's ok to be scared but we have to be strong for both our girls. Harley and Haley are my world and I thank God for you for giving me them. They will always be perfect in my eyes. Just like you" he said as I smiled.
"I couldn't do this without you Jason. Your so strong and I would just crumble if you weren't here" I said as he grabbed my hand kissing my knuckles.
"Hue who you think give me the strength to be how Iam" he said to me
"Idk" I said honestly shrugging my shoulders. Jason always appeared strong to me. It seemed natural.
"You" he said to me as I looked up at him. "Baby the way you love me and take care of me makes me feel like I can anything" I almost cried.
"J all I do is love you just the same way you do me" he just smiled at me leaning into me. We kissed slowly as I held on to his face. I loved kissing him.
"All you gotta do is stay beautiful and give me even more beautiful babies. That's it. I'll do the rest" he said breaking our kiss. He made me so happy.
"And what's your job" I said running my thumb over his bottom lip
"To keep getting you pregnant" he said as we both laughed.
"Liesssss!" I said smiling. He was crazy if he thought we was goin to have baby baby after baby after baby.
"We'll see. Right after Haley I want another one" I rolled my eyes shaking my head laying back in his chest. He was too funny.
"Good night Mr. Thomas. You've clearly lost your mind" I said closing my eyes cuddling closer to him
"I ain't loose nothing but I know what I want Mrs. Thomas" he said smacking my ass and caressing it.
"Stoppppp I'm sleepy Jason" I whined at him. He put his hands up my shirt rubbing up and down my back.
"Ok I'm not stopping you. Go to sleep" he stared kissing on my neck as he let his hands wonder down my body. He was up to no good.
"Jason" I said as he put his hands in my panties rubbing on my ass
"You pose to be sleep right" he said paying me no mind. He always had sex on his mind and tonight was no different. I knew it was a battle I would surely loose. 
"You better make it quick" I said as he turned me on my back ready to get in some trouble. I had to laugh and let him do his thing. I could use some time alone with him just to get my mind off Haley. Whatever the outcome was I knew we would still be a family and love her no matter what. I couldn't wait to see her beautiful face and get it over with.