Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 55: You Live And You Learn

"I'm coming mommy's baby I'm coming" I said hearing Haley cry over the baby monitor. It was 10:15pm and it was her feeding time.
"Shhhh Pretty girl" I said picking her up from her carrying her back to my bed. I laid back in bed nursing her as I watched her eat.
"You lookin just like your daddy Haley" I said smiling at her. I missed Jason all day but looking at the my girls reminded me of him so much. She sucked her milk like it was the last meal. I relaxed looking her in her beautiful brown eyes.
"Beautiful" I heard Jason say coming in the door. He was gone all day and was busy in meetings his entire time at work.
"Hey sexy" I said as he walked into the room smiling at Haley. His world lit up for those girls.
"Haley" he said as he took her from my arms. She made noises grabbing at his face. She definitely knew who me and Jason were. "Daddy missed you" he kissed her as I covered myself up.
"J don't move her too much she just ate" I said laying down. I was tired but I wanted to talk to Jason. We haven't talked all day and I couldn't sleep without having that time with him.
"You greedy princess" he said sitting next to me
"Leave my baby alone. Gimme her" I said taking her back. I kissed her over and over. "How was your day tho J" I rocked Haley on my chest as Jason changed his clothes.
"It was good beautiful but I don't wanna talk about that" he said lickin his lips at me. I knew he was up to no good. "Let me take her to her room" he said reaching out for her.
"Why can't she sleep with us" I said looking him up and down. I already knew the answer to my own question.
"Cause I wanna talk to you" he said smiling rubbing his beard. He knew damn well he was lying.
"We can talk just like this Jason Vince." I said smiling back. We was both playing this game together.
"Nah I wanna talk another way" he said making me laugh.
"Don't wake my baby up" I handed him Haley as he went to lay her down And check on Harley. I laid on my side waiting for him to come back as I went thru my phone. I heard him come back and close the door but my head was still in my phone. All I felt was him smack my ass hard behind me.
"Jason that hurt" I said powering off my phone. When Jason got home and we were alone we spent that time without any distractions. He always had my full attention as I did his.
"No it didn't" he said laughing getting in bed with me. He laid on his back as I laid closely near him on my side.
"Aight let me smack your ass" I said as he sucked his teeth
"Hue I told you bout that shit" I laughed at how serious he got every time I attempted to do that to him just so he could see how it feel. Either way it wasn't goin change a thing. He was still gonna do what he wanted.
"See now it's a problem when I do it. Not even fair J" I said to him
"I can do what I want. It don't gotta be fair" he said reaching behind me smacking my ass over and over as I just laughed. He was such a man.
"Jason" I said looking at him. I missed him so much. I know we've been together for a while and had kids and all but I still felt the same when he left as I did when we first started dating. I always asked myself when would this strong feeling or want would go away. I was starting to think it never was and I was totally okay with that.
"What's up beautiful" he said staring at my chest. I had on a tank top with no bra cause it was too much to take off early in the mornings to nurse so I slept without plus it was comfortable for me.
"My eyes are up here J" I said to me smiling. He was still so attracted to me.
"I know" he said pulling at the middle of my tank top trying to pull it down.
"Can you not think about sex for one minute Jason" I said laughing he was on a mission of his own.
"Who said I'm thinking about sex. I just wanna see a lil somethin" he was lying through his teeth
"Okay so if I show you something we don't have to have sexy tonight right" I said pulling my straps down as he bit his lip
"Depends"
"On what" I said taking off my shirt but covering my chest from him
"On you" he said moving my hands. He bit his lip hard with his eyes glued to me. He loved my body so much. "You be looking so good I can't even resist you sexy" he said massaging my breast with his hands. I closed my eyes as he pulled me on his waist to straddle him.
"I don't blame you. I'am irresistible" I said as we both laughed.
"You are beautiful. You are" he was ready to do some damage but I wanted to just slow it down for just a minute
"Jason can I have a kiss" I said trailing my finger across his toned chest.
"You can have anything you want beautiful" he pulled me close as I wrapped my arms around him. We were face to face.
"I love you" I said giving his soft lips sweet kisses.
"I love you more" he said returning each kiss. "You like being this close to me huh" he said making me laugh. He was so right. Before Jason I wouldn't let anyone near my personal space but Jason made me rethink everything. He invaded my personal space on a daily and I loved it. It didn't feel right when he was next to me and I wasn't kissing or touching him. I loved that feeling. We were so affectionate and it was natural for the both of us. Our love was everything.
"I do Babe. You know you like me all in your face" I said biting his lip. I never thought I could be this way with a man ever.
"Nah not really" he said grinning with his deep dimples showing. He had his hands planted on my hips as we sat in bed.
"Tell another lie Jason" I laughed looking into his eyes. I loved nights like this.
"You miss me today?" He asked as I smiled at him. That was never a question.
"So much baby. I thought about you all day" I never hid my emotions with him.  Having a man Jason who loved me and understood me till no end it was never an option to lie or hide your feelings. I always poured my heart into his. Having him made my life so much better.
"I thought about you too beautiful. I know work sometimes be havin me caught up but just know if I don't call or text you I'm still thinking about you. Nothing can stop that. You hear me Hue?" He said as I nodded my head. He always reminded me of things he felt I concerned about.
"Jason you don't have to explain that. I know you do what you gotta do" I said as he shook his head.
"Your my wife. I will always tell you what's up." He was so thoughtful and his heart was so pure.
"Okay baby" I said kissing him slowly. I had this sudden urge for something sweet as we kissed. "Mmm J hold on. Didn't you bring some cake home baby" I said grabbing my shirt
"Yeah why you want some beautiful" he said reading my mind.
"Yes baby" I said laughing. He laughed rubbing my stomach.
"I got another baby in there" he said kissing my stomach.
"Jason get the hell off me" I said pushing him off him heading downstairs. He wanted yet ANOTHER baby and wouldn't let up on me about it. Haley and miss Harley was more than enough for me right now.
"Oh you mad" he said as I got my cake eating on the kitchen counter. I ignored him rolling my eyes. We was not going there. He took my plate hiding it behide his back.
"Give me my damn cake Jason" I said standing there as he laughed.
"Not till you answer my question" he said as I blew my breath.
"And not with all the attitude either beautiful" he said kissing my forehead
"Okay one your not my daddy. Two I'm not pregnant and were not having any more kids for a while and three put my shit down" I said with my hands on my hips. He had his famous smile on his face like he was unbothered by what I just said.
"See that's where you wrong. You goin be pregnant real soon cause Iam daddy" he said as I tired hard not to blush. He was so good with his words
"And you can have your cake but it's goin come with a cost" he said to me
"What's the cost J" I said shaking my head.
"Me" he started kissing my neck licking me up placing me on the counter. I held on to him as his tongue explored my neck. His touch felt so good. I didn't even want that damn cake any more.
"You are daddy" I said taking off his shirt and pulling at his boxers. He knew just how to get me to the point where I wanted him desperately. I rubbed my hands up and down his chest as he took my shirt off.
"Oh I know Iam. You just better not forget it" he said in my ear. He was such a turn.
"I won't daddy" he laid me down as he got ready to show me who was really the boss tonight. I had no problem with that.
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"Man is he goin even show up" a nervous Jason said as we sat at coffee shop by his office. Today was the day he was gonna have a talk with his father and just like he asked I was here supporting him.
"Baby relax. He will come. Have patience" I said fixing my ponytail. I saw his father a couple times after that big blow up at the grocery store and gave him information about today. He said he wasn't miss his chance to reconnect with his son but I hoped he meant that for Jason's sake.
"How you know that Hue. He ain't never show any other time. Why should I even trust him coming now" I could tell he was getting frustrated but I wanted him to calm down
"Jason just give a chance" I said as I held his hand. 20 more minutes passed and his father still wasn't there.
"Man fuck this I'm gone. I feel stupid for even coming" he said getting up. I knew his father was coming. I just knew it. He couldn't do to this to Jason.
After all he has put him through in the past.
"Sit down J please. Let's give it 10 more minutes then we can go. Okay" I said as he looked at me. He sighed taking his seat. He was angry but I knew it was just hurt he was feeling. He didn't like being put back in this situation. He thought he was way pass this stage in his life. I rubbed his back as we sat there. I was not going to give up. Soon as we were about to leave his father came rushing thru the door. My heart slowed down from relief.
"Bout fucking time" Jason said as his father approached us. I shook my head.
"Hey Mr. Lewis." I said reaching out to hug him. The times I saw his father I helped him clean himself up and get himself together. I even asked Mr. Glen to give him a job. I wanted him to be stable. Apart of me wanted to help him cause I wanted my girls to have a grandfather in their life. I couldn't help my own father so I took Jason's father extremely serious. Maybe it was big heart or my void for my own father but either way I wanted something good to come from this. I prayed for it.
"How are you sweetheart" he said hugging me back.
"I'm good. I'm glad you made it. We was starting to think you wasn't coming" I said sitting down. I wanted to ease the conversation on for Jason. I knew he was nervous.
"I would never miss the chance to talk something's out with my son. I been waiting for this for years." He said looking at Jason. I smiled at him. I could tell his heart was in the right place.
"I mean we here so talk since you been waiting forever" Jason said as I cut my eyes at him. He was not making this easy.
"Son I understand your anger towards me and how you feel" Mr. Lewis said speaking up
"How the hell you know I feel. You don't know shit about me. So don't like you do" Jason as I just sat back. I didn't want him to be upset but he had to get out whatever emotions he had stored inside. He had the right to.
"Jason I'm sorry okay. I had a terrible addiction that I couldn't shake" he said to him
"And what it was more important than your own son. Your only fucking child and you just left. My mother had to struggle cause you had a ducking addiction to alcohol and drugs. You ain't give a damn about me" Jason said getting upset.
"Jason I know it was hard for you. And I never wanted that. I thought about you and your mother every day. It was just as hard for me" he said back
"Hard for you man please. While you was gettin drunk and high my mother had to take care of me. I cried at night for you and you never showed up. I was a lil ass boy with no father who thought I was the problem. I thought I wasn't good enough for you" he said as I had his hand. I knew how he felt.
"Son you was perfect it was me who wasn't good enough for you. You deserved better in your life. I wanted you to be better than me. A good man"
"You see this woman right here" Jason said pointing to me. "When you say deserve better in life that's what I got. My wife makes me feel like I'm the best man in the world. She loves me no matter what. Besides my mother she the only person who really know I feel about you. I know I'm a good man cause of her. She gave me 2 daughters who I couldn't see myself without. No money no addiction no job no time no distance can keep me from being a father to my girls. Nothing. I would die with out them" Jason said getting emotional. He was hard in the outside but in the inside he had pain.
"I'm glad you a better man than me. You have your mothers strength and I'm proud that your my son. I know I was a terrible father and did you wrong but I want you to forgive me. Forgive me for breaking my promises to you. Forgive me for allowing my addiction to over shadow the love I should've had for you. Forgive me for not being a man and accepting my responsibilities. Jason I never meant to hurt you and I love you from the bottom of my heart" his father said sincerely. It was up to Jason to accept it or not. Jason got quiet looking down as he sighed. I moved closer to him not wanting him to feel like he was handling this alone.
"Baby say whatever your heart says to say. I'm right here for you like I always been. So take your time J" I whispered to him as he nodded his head to me. No matter what I had Jason's back and he never had to go through anything alone cause he had me.
"I always thought when I saw you again how angry I would be and how much I wanted to hate you. But I can't. Having 2 girls made me see a lot of shit different. Even though I can't see my world without them on the other side if I was your situation I wouldn't want my babies to see their father like that so I get that. But you still could've called or something. I missed you for years. I don't wanna live in the past and a beautiful woman once told me to be patient and let God handle everything" I blushed cause I told him that all the time. "I forgive you man. Life too short to hold grudges and I'm in a good place in my life. I don't wanna see you out in the streets like that." Jason said as I smiled at him. I was so proud of him for being such a big person and forgiving his father. I knew that wasn't easy at all.
"That's all I want Jason. Nothing will make me happier than to know that you forgive me." His father said standing up reaching out for a hug. Jason thought on it before actually getting up embracing him. They hugged for a while just letting each other break down. Jason needed this. He longed for this. I cried because seeing this reminded me of what I couldn't have but was happy it was happening for Jason. He had both his parents now and I was glad for his sake and my girls sake. I don't know what the future held for them but I was sure that it would be positive. Forgiveness wasn't always easy but it makes life easier when your aren't harboring all these emotions and anger towards people. It took a big person to see someone do them dirty but still turn around and say it's all good all is forgiven. Jason was such a strong man and I loved him for being mature enough to handle his problems like a man. This was his father and he turned out pretty damn good if you ask me. I was so proud of him.