Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 95: So Special

I laid in bed laughing to myself as I listened to Jason get the kids in bed. I heard little feet moving up and down while Jason said no and stop a thousand times. I always got a kick of out them running him ragged.
"Your sisters are something else" I said looking down at Jae. I just nursed him and he was always knocked out on my chest.
"Awww mommy's baby" I kissed his forehead as I heard Jason come back in the room.
"Hand him to me beautiful" Jason said ready to take Jae to bed. He was on daddy duty tonight. I gently slid Jae off my chest as he woke up crying. He wasn't a fan of being disturbed when he was sleep. Especially when he was comfortable and cuddles up with me.
"Aye stop all that crying lil man. Daddy goin take you to your own room" Jason said rocking him as his cries got louder and louder. He was not in the mood tonight.
"He can sleep with us tonight babe. Let me see him" I said reaching up for him. I never liked hearing none of babies cry. I always caved in. Jason laid him in my arms as I returned him back to my favorite spot on my chest. He calmed down as I held him close kissing his face.
"Shhhh baby. Mommy's right here. It's okay big boy" I whispered to him as he slowly closed his eyes. That all he ever need. Me.
"You spoil him beautiful. He don't even like sleeping in his crib anymore" Jason said smiling getting in bed with us. I know he wasn't talking. He had some nerve telling me that.
"J you one to talk. Who was laying between us last night and the night before that?" I said caressing Jae's soft hair referring to Harley. He couldn't even argue with me about this one.
"Yeah that's what I thought" I said laughing. He pulled the covers over me and Jae making sure we were comfortable. I was in bed with my favorite boys and I wouldn't have it any other way.
"What time your doctors appointment tomorrow?" Jason asked me as I sighed. I had been in a lot of pain in my abdominal area and I started lightly bleeding. I couldn't even make any of my work appointments because I was in so much pain. The best thing for me to do was stay in bed until I could see Dr. Adams.
"9. Your mom is going with me so you can stay with the kids tomorrow" I said as he played with beard.
"You sure you don't want me to go." He asked stroking my hair with his other hand.
"No baby. I'll be okay. I don't want you to get worried. Just stay here with my babies okay" I was nervous to say the least about tomorrow but if I panicked Jason would do the same if he saw me worrying. I had so many problems with my body and I wouldn't be surprised if it was something about my ovaries. My pain was consistent and I knew after Jae I would have minor issues but not to this magnitude. But I was gonna think positive.
"What if you need me?" He asked looking me in my eyes. Jason was my rock and when I needed him he was always there. I use to have the weight in the world on my shoulders and dealt with everything by myself but with Jason I had nothing to stress over cause he always took all my pains and problems onto his shoulders. It was nothing that I had to do that he didn't help me with.
"Then I'll call you baby. I promise" I said truthfully. If it was bad news I would have no choice but to tell him even if I didn't want to. After a lot of things that occurred in our past we promised no more secrets so everything was out in the open.
"I just hate that you always in pain. I wish it was me instead of you." He said melting my heart.
"Awww don't say that J. I wouldn't be able to see you in pain. I can handle it though J." I had a high tolerance for pain and I never complained but what I was feeling over the last couple of days really pushed my limits.
"That's cause you strong beautiful. I love that about you" he said pulling me and Jae closer to him.
"Thank you baby." I said looking up at him. He was amazing.
"Come on and sleep. I don't want you tired for tomorrow" he turned the lights off as I laid on his chest. He put his hands around both of us as I listened to his heartbeat. Just like every night it beat in sync with mines. I found it so relaxing laying on his chest just listening to his heartbeat back and forth. I could spend all day here.
"I love you so much" he said kissing my forehead. I knew he was scared about whatever was going on with me but I would be just fine. Nothing was gonna stop me from being his wife and the mother to 3 beautiful angels. Whatever was going on I was gonna fix it and move on. I didn't have time for the devil to try and mess with my life. It was all in Gods hands.
"I love you more baby" I said inhaling his scent as I started dosing off. It was no better place in the world to be.
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I arrived at my appointment with Jason's mother and signed in just waiting to be called. I was nervous but I was in good hands with Dr. Adams. She was the best and I knew she had my best interest at heart.
"How was yall vacation Hue?" His mother asked as we sat in the waiting area.
"It was so much fun. Your granddaughters are so damn funny. They begged us to get them to the beach. I mean ma they was dressed and ready to go. Soon as we get there they freaked out when they felt that sand on their feet. Ma me and your son was dying laughing" I said laughing just thinking about it. I had the time of my life with my family.
"No yall didn't laugh at my babies. Just wrong" she said shaking her head. She loved her grandkids to death and would hurt anyone who hurt them or made them cry. Including me and Jason. No one was exempt. She gave them the world.
"I know ma. But you would've laughed if you saw their face. But they got over and built a sandcastle with Jason while me and Jae went on the water. He loved getting wet. It was so much fun and I had a good time" I said getting happy remembering our weekend.
"I'm glad. You deserve it baby. I hope you and Jason got some alone time?" She said as I blushed hard. We had a lot of time alone and took advantage of every minute.
"We did. Ma we took walks on the beach at night. We had a romantic dinner, we talked about us and we connected like we use to do. I'm so in love with that man" I said with a big smile on my face. Jason was my baby.
"And he loves you just the same. He called me this morning telling me to watch over his baby. He's a trip" she said as I smiled. He was so caring.
"Your son thinks I'm 5. But I know he's just worried." I said as my phone vibrated. It was a text message from who else but Jason.
"Speaking of Jason" I said waving my phone as she laughed.
My baby: What happened so far?
I didn't even get seen yet and he was asking for answers. He was so dramatic.
Me: Babe I haven't even seen her yet. I just got here. Didn't I tell you to relax.
My Baby: I'm trying beautiful I swear. I was just thinking bout you.
My husband kept a smile on my face. No matter if it was a good time or bad time Jason knew what to say and do to keep me happy.
Me: I like that you thinking about me baby. I'm thinking about you too 👅
My baby: oh yeah...😉
Me: Yes daddy. When I get home we can show each other what we thinking. Deal 👍🏾???
My baby: 👍🏾. I love you
Me: I love you too.
"Mrs. Thomas" the nurse said as I looked up.
"Right here" I said locking my phone
"Dr. Adams will see you now sweetheart" she said directing me and Ms. Heather to the back. We got settled in the room as Dr. Adams walked in.
"Hue how do you look more beautiful every time I see you" she said making me laugh as I got up to hug her.
"It's a secret Dr. A." I said as she took a seat.
"Where's that handsome husband of yours" she said as we laughed.
"He's at home with the kids. I brought my mother in law instead" I said introducing them as they shook hands.
"I heard so many good things about you from my son and daughter" Ms. Heather said to Dr. Adams.
"Awww well I love them both. It's good to finally meet you though. And if I may say you did an amazing job with your son. He's such a delight and I adore how he treats this one over here. He's always there during all 3 pregnancies and I think he's only missed one appointment with all 3 so God bless you for raising such an amazing black man. We more like him" Dr. Adams said as Ms. Heather just beamed with pride.
"That's mamma's pride and joy. He all I ever had so I'm glad to hear that I raised such a good man. He got a beautiful family and I couldn't dream of a better woman to be with him than my baby girl Hue. So I'm blessed" she said making me tear up. I finally had a family who loved and supported me. That feeling was priceless to me.
"Okay let me get out your personal life and figure out what's going on with you Hue. Lay back and we'll get down to the bottom of this honey" she said as the long process started. I said a quick prayer before she got going. I had to take a deep breath and let God work his magic. It was out my hands.
"Okay Dr. A" I said closing my eyes. This was gonna be interesting......
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I got home after 4 hours with Dr. Adams and honestly all I wanted to do was curl up under Jason. I was drained. She gave me a lot to think about and I was not looking forward to having this conversation with Jason.
"Ma ma ma ma" the girls said seeing me walk thru the door. I instantly put a smile on my face seeing them run in my direction.
"Hey mommy's angels. I missed you girls" I said sitting on the couch with them. They climbed next to me as they planted little kisses all over my face. This is just what I needed.
"Me miss you ma ma." Harley said as I kissed them back.
"Where's daddy" I asked taking my shoes off. I wanted Jason so bad.
"Baby eat" Haley said pointing to the stairs.
"Ohhh. Sit here while mommy go finds daddy. I'll put a movie on for you" I turned the TV on and left them with snacks as I ran upstairs. I saw Jason in Jae's nursery burping him. My heart stopped every time I saw them together. This was all that he wanted. His son was his everything. He gave me my wish with my girls and I granted his with his son. We completed each other.
"Hey babe" I said walking into the room. He lit up hearing my voice as he turned his head looking at me.
"I ain't know you was here." He stood up giving me a kiss as I ran my hands up under his shirt. I needed to be close to him.
"I just got home. Your mother dropped me off." I said as he laid Jae down. I kissed Jae as we left him alone to take his nap. We got to our bedroom as Jason sat on the bed. I sat on his lap as I laid my head on his shoulder.
"So what she say was wrong beautiful" he asked laying his head on top of mines.
"Well J...." I sighed heavy as I played with his hands. "I have a tumor growing on one of my ovaries. She took a ultrasound and said it has to be removed before it causes me anymore issues." I said as he blew his breath. I knew this wasn't what he wanted to hear.
"Tumor? And remove it how" he asked as I got quiet for a second before talking.
"Surgery J" he let go of my hand as he got up.
"Is that the only option" he said turning his back looking out the window. I could tell he was hurt.
"Yes baby. I have no other choice. It will help my pain." I said trying to show him the bright side. I heard him sniff as I saw him wipe his eyes. I got up wrapping my arms around him as he held his head down.
"Jason" I whispered in his ear as he just cried. I don't know what triggered him but I never saw him like this.
"Baby talk to me please" I said turning him to face me. The tears just came out his eyes. He couldn't even talk. I didn't wanna pressure him so I just cradled his head in my chest comforting him. Jason wasn't like this at all.
"I love you J. You know I do"I said in his ear. As I stood there rubbing his head it clicked on my head why he was so emotional. Jason never like anything that dealt with surgery. His grandfather who he was close to went into to surgery for something minor a couple years back and never came out. He died in the hospital and Jason had the biggest fear of anyone he loved going into to surgery. He thought he was gonna loose me like he lost his grandfather.
"Jason baby your not going to loose me" I said In his ear softly "baby I promise you won't." I had to let him know.
"I can't loose you Hue. I'll die" he said breaking my heart.
"Noooo. J look at me." I lifted his chin making him look me dead in the eye. "I'm not going anywhere. I promise I'll never leave you baby. Nothing can keep me from you. You won't ever have to live without me J. You hear me" I wanted to soothe all his fears. I was going to love him forever. Jason was going to have me for the rest of his life. God wouldn't take me from him or my babies. No way possible.
"Your my everything. Why is this happening to you. Your always going thru shit. Always! Fuck!" He was so frustrated and hurt and sad all at the same time. He was having a nervous breakdown. I never saw this side of him. He always kept it together always.
"Baby I know I know. But your always right there with me. Your my strength okay" I wanted to break down and cry so bad but I couldn't. I had to be strong for me and him. When he was weak I had to be strong. I couldn't fold or bend when he needed my love and encouragement. Even though I thought I needed him he needed me just as much. I just held him as he let out all his pain. It was okay for him to put all that on me. I would go thru hell just to be next to him and nothing would stop my love for him. I laid him down in bed covering him up under the covers. I sat on top of the covers next to him caressing his head. I kissed him over and over telling him it was gonna be okay. Sometimes as woman we forget men have feelings too and we get so wrapped with the stereotype that real men don't cry but that was so wrong. A real man who carried his family on his back and who loved you so much that he'll give his life for you could cry in your arms without feeling guilty. Jason was the strongest man I knew and he just needed to let this out. I saw him no different for doing so. I adored the man I saw in front of me. If I didn't know how much I meant to him I knew now how important I was to him.
"Hue I love you so much baby. I mean it" he said composing himself some.
"Jason I know you do baby. I feel it every day." I stroked his cheek as he stared at me. I was firm believer that you treat and love the important people in your life like gold every chance you get. The worst thing you could do was realize how important they were when it was too late. Cherish the good in life before its gone.
"Your my wife man. I'm scared" he admitted to me. I knew that he was.
"And it's okay to be scared Jason. Hell im scared too but babe we have faith in God. He won't let anything happen to me. He knows I love you more than I love myself. He gave me you Jason. That was for a reason." I said wiping his eyes.
"You right beautiful" we couldn't say we had faith and we didn't believe that God was gonna work it all out for us. I believed it.
"It's always goin be me and you Jason" I said getting face to face with him. He rubbed his nose against mines as I smiled at him. He owned my heart.
"Always..." He said as I nodded my head.
"Always baby" I held his face as we kissed. Our lips touched and it was like fireworks going off. He got on top of me kissing me passionately as I wrapped my hands around him tight. He said I love you over and over in my mouth as I said it back. This kiss was so special and it was funny cause after 3 kids and all we been through I constantly got reminded why I walked down that aisle that day. It was made no mistake when we fell in love. Hard times. Good times. Ups. Downs. Our love always came out on top. This time was gonna be no different. We had this.......