Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 101: Lovin You...

Flashback.....
"Jackie make sure every menu is laminated and we have enough sweetheart" I said in my office. I had a busy week and didn't want anything to go unnoticed.
"Yes Ms. H" she said as I heard the front door bell go off. That meant it was someone outside waiting to get in. I didn't have anything scheduled but it wasn't usual for people to walk in just for a consultation. Jackie went to tend to the door as I went back to work.
"Ms. H. Someone is here to see you" she said as I looked up. Jason was standing behind her with a dozen roses. Even though were dating I still wasn't use to his attention and sweet gestures.
"Thanks Jackie." I said not realizing that I had a huge smile on my face. She shut the door as he walked over to me.
"You look happy to see me" he said kissing my cheek handing me my flowers.
"I guess and thanks for the flowers J" I said smelling them blushing. No man as ever brought me flowers or took time of their day just to see me. I was definitely on another level with Jason and honestly it scared me.
"What you mean you-" he was interrupted by his phone as he answered it. He walked to the corner as I heard a female voice. I know I should've been minding my business but I couldn't think of the what ifs. My mind automatically jumped to the negative as he hung up. Even though it sounded friendly I kinda felt uncomfortable for some reason.
"My bad beautiful" he said as I pretended that I didn't hear his conversation. My mood was slowly going down in a negative direction. I couldn't help but think who she was even though I should trust him.
"Nope. It's okay" I scooted my flowers over trying to get those random thoughts out my mind. I was so use to bad things happening to me that one tiny thing could make me rethink everything.
"You aight" he said picking up on my mood change.
"Yeah just have a lot of work to do." I said trying to look busier than I was. I looked at my flowers adding something up in my head and started to get mad. Did he think I was stupid.
"Why did you bring me flowers in the middle of the day?" I said tapping my fingers on my desk. I knew it. He must've been talking to someone else like the girl on the phone and brought flowers out of guilt. That had to be it. I was no fool.
"I brought them cause I missed you and wanted to see you. I ain't know it was crime to do that" he said catching a whiff of my vibe. When my mind spoke to me I had to listen.
"Nobody just brings flowers for no reason. What did you do" I said wanting him to come clean. He didn't have to buy me anything out of pity.
"Hue what the hell are you taking about? I ain't do shit" he said getting upset. I looked him in the eyes as he never lost eye contact.
"Who was on the phone?" I said getting insecure. He chuckled shaking his head sitting in the chair in front of me.
"So that's why you mad" he said taking me for a joke.
"That's don't answer my damn question" I said getting defensive leaning on my desk in front of him. I had terrible trust issues and even when I wanted to feel loved and special it was this tiny voice in the back of my head that whispered it was never gonna happen.
"Hue come on man. That was one of my clients. Her and her wife wanted to thank me for helping them find their new house." He said as I looked down.
"Oh" I said feeling so stupid. I jump to conclusion and nearly insulted him for being nice. I had to get myself together.
"That's all you got to say is oh" he said pulling on my legs as I got quiet. I was embarrassed.
"I'm sorry Jason." I said softly. He grabbed me making me sit on his lap as I covered my face.
"Nah what I tell you about hiding your face from me" he said moving my hands. "Talk to me beautiful" he said looking me in my eyes. I had so many thoughts going thru my head at once but I knew exactly what he was referring to.
"Jason I'm scared" I said truthfully.
"I know that but why?" He said reading my mind. Even though being in a relationship was a foreign experience for us both it effected us in 2 different ways. Jason never gave all his time and attention to one woman because he felt like he never met one who was worth his time and who could give him everything he wanted without the extra drama. And me on the other had was hurt so many times that I lost faith in real love. This was a big deal for us both.
"Of you. Us J." I said playing with his shirt.
"Hue I can't change the way you think but haven't I told you that I want you and only you. I mean that shit. I ain't never meet a woman who does for me like you. I'm serious about you and I'll walk away from this before I play you" he said as I sighed. I felt like I heard it all before but he was different.
"I understand that Jason but my biggest fear is getting my heart broken again. It's so frustrating because I can't even accept the nice things you do for me because I always fear it's out of guilt or shame. I really do love you but I'm so scared that you'll hurt me just like everyone else has in my past" I said falling apart. It was true love for me but nothing good ever just happened to me. I was use to sweet beginnings but it always turnt bitter in a blink of an eye. The only thing I got security and peace from was my business that I built from the ground up. That was totally on my shoulders. 
"Stop crying beautiful." He said kissing my forehead holding me tight. "I can't help it. Jason do you understand that when your not around me I miss you so much. Or that at night I read our messages to each other just to feel close to you. Or how about I still dream about your kisses and the way you make love to me. I have never been so happy with a man in my life. Baby I love the ground you walk on and even though all that sounds good I can't even enjoy it because I'm secretly waiting for it all to crumble. That's my reality Jason. I can't shake it" I said pouring my heart out to him.
"Say you love me again" he said kissing my lips.
"Jason stop" I said weakly. I wanted him to hear me loud and clear.
"Say it" he said kissing on me as I fought him off weakly. Being this vulnerable and open with him made it so much harder to think straight.
"I love you baby" I said wrapping my arms around his neck out of reflect. He grabbed my chin as we kissed passionately. The feeling I got whenever we made our was incredible.
"I love you too but you have to believe that. I know that nigga did you dirty and if I could I would beat his ass but look at me. I'm not him Hue. I don't waste my time with things that I know ain't good for me. I'm in this relationship because I want you. I love you. I need you. Yeah I know I never been serious wit no female but you man. You changed all that for me. I do shit I ain't never think I would be doing." He said making me blush.
"Like what" I said straddling him
"That's between me and God beautiful" he said laughing kissing my cheek
"Tell me baby. I wanna know" I begged rubbing the back of his neck slowly.
"See I wasn't goin tell you this but since you pressin a nigga I guess I can't you in on my secrets. Every time you fall asleep next to me I stare at you the entire time. I can't look away to save my life. You that beautiful to me and I feel ummm...." He said clearing his throat looking away
"Just say it J. It's okay" I said easing his mind.
"I feel like if I look away that Imma wake up from this dream of being with you." My eyes started watering as I looked down. He had me speechless.
"I can't sleep when you not wit me Hue. I think about you all day it drives me crazy. I use to wanna fight it but I can't. This real and I wanna be the man who take all your pain away. The only man who make you happy. I know I sound corny as shit right now" he said laughing it off but I knew his heart was in the right place.
"No you don't J. I love knowing stuff like that and I promise not to tell anybody about your soft side" I said making us laugh.
"Nah it's cool. You ain't no secret" he said causing me to turn red.
"I love you so much. I'll work on my insecurities baby. I don't ever wanna lose you" I said meaning every word.
"I love you and you won't" he said kissing me as I got off his lap.
"How much longer you goin be in here" he said standing up
"I got a little more work to do baby. What you need" I said wrapping my arms around his waist.
"I want you to make me dinner and then" he said getting close to my ear whispering "I wanna thank you all night long" he said rubbing on my ass.
"Can I get that" he said with his deep voice in my ear.
"Jackie!" I said going over to my desk.
"Yes Ms H" she said coming in.
"I think we can call it a day. Take the rest of the day" I looked at Jason and saw a pretty large imprint on his pants getting warm. "Matter fact take the whole weekend to yourself Jackie." I gathered all my stuff as quickly as possible.
"Are you sure Ms. H. I know how much you wanna get everything done" she said to me as I had only Jason on my mind. The office was fine and we did everything we had to do.
"I'm positive sweetheart. Go home" I said rushing her out. I had needs and bad.
"Ms. H I like your boyfriend. Every time he comes around I get to go home earlier or I get paid vacations. Keep him" she whispered to me as I busted out laughing.
"Oh I will" I said grabbing his hand as we all walked out. I was gonna push all the negative thoughts of my mind one day at a time. Jason was nothing like the men I was use to so I had to stop reacting as if he was out to get me. I should be enjoying very moment we spent together instead of waiting on a downfall that possibility could never happen. Love was in my life now and it was up to me to accept it or deny it. I was gonna take a chance.
End of Flashback....
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"Ahhhh baby stop" I said pushing Jason from on top of me. It was like he never got enough of making love.
"Aye what I tell you" he said spreading my legs wider as he made his way back on top.
"But I'm hungry baby. I want some breakfast" I said rubbing his back.
"I'm hungry too" he said kissing my neck as I shut my eyes.
"Nooooo babe you already had your breakfast. Twice" I said smiling as he laughed.
"Don't fake like you ain't like it cause I know you did" he said biting his lip.
"Oh aren't we confident this morning" I said back.
"All that screaming and shaking you was doing I got all right to be sweetheart" he said getting up out the bed. I threw my pillow at him as he laughed.
"I faked it" I said dying laughing as he nodded his head.
"Oh word?!....I got you"He said rubbing his chin grinning.
"I'm joking. I'm joking baby. Come here" I said reaching out for him.
"Nah you don't need me no more" he said showing his sexy dimples. He was still the most attractive man I ever laid my eyes on.
"I do need you. I always need you baby. Come here. Pleaseeeeee" I begged needing him. He walked over to me as I pulled him back in bed.
"You sorry" he said as I pushed him on his back.
"I'm sorry daddy" I said taking my nails trailing up and down his body.
"Mmmmm make it up to me" he said palming my ass. I redid my loose ponytail making it higher as he laid against the pillows. He knew what was up. I kissed his forehead "I'm sorry" I said moving to his nose. Than his lips and down saying sorry after each kiss. I made my way to his stomach as he grew harder and harder. He was so anxious.
"Don't leave my mans waiting too long sexy" he said reaching down rubbing my neck.
"I won't baby" I kissed his hard erection running my tongue up and down gently as he hissed out grabbing my hair. All of sudden we heard knocks at the door.
"Da da Haley no be nice to me" Harley said to the door.
"Princess be nice to your sister" Jason said with his eyes fixated on me. I was about to pick up where I left off when another knock hit the door.
"Da da me be nice to Harley. She want my doll" they argued back and forth as Jason sat up. 
"Hey daddy goin buy yall new dolls if yall play nice okay. Let daddy and mommy have quiet time first" he said as they ran off. All they needed to hear was buy and new dolls and they were back to being the best of friends. I had to laugh cause when Jason wanted us to do anything sexual he would promise the girls the moons the stars and the hills just to get them to behave until we were done. I couldn't blame him one bit. Without our private time with 3 kids would would definitely go insane.
"Get back down there" he said smacking my ass as I laid in my side waiting for him to get the girls together.
"Who you think you talkin too" I took my hands rubbing his thigh as he bit his lip.
"I'm talkin to my sexy ass wife" he said kissing my free hand.
"Mmmmhmmm who bout to smack you" I said finding my way back in his lap.
"Shit. You can do whatever you want to me as long as I get what I want" he said making me laugh. He was terrible.
"I got what you want" I said taking him in my mouth. I took my time pleasuring my husband as he sat back enjoying every little detail.
"Got damn. Don't ever stop baby" he said with his eyes closed playing with my hair. His face was priceless. I took extreme pride in satisfying Jason because he was the last man who I would ever have to honor in making love to. My sole purpose as his wife was to take just as good care of him as he did me. We were each other's backbone and their was no other woman who could do what Hue Lyn Thomas could do for Jason Vince Thomas. Not just during sex but period. We were made for each other and take was something no one could take from us.
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I was nursing Jae on the couch as Jason made breakfast. Even though he didn't cook I loved his breakfast whenever he decided to cook just that.
"Ma ma me help you" Harley said watching me unlatch her brother. She was so eager to help with everything.
"You can burp him angel. Sit right here" I said patting the space on the couch. I made sure she was all the way back before I handed Jae to her. She lit up smiling hard.
"Okay angel. Be careful. Just do what mommy does and pat him on his back gently" I said positioning him over her shoulders placing the burp cloth under him.
"Like dis ma ma" she said patting his back softly making me smile.
"That's exactly how you do it my angel. Mommy's so proud of her big girl. You're so helpful baby" I said giving her all her praise. Jae burped twice as he dosed off.
"Do you want mommy to put your baby in his bouncer or do you want to hold him" I said rubbing Jae's little back.
"Me hold my baby" she said kissing his head full of hair imitating me. She payed attention to every single thing I did and wanted to be just like me. I let her lay down on the couch and placed him on her chest. She held onto him tight watching her cartoons.
"Alright. Muaaaah" I kissed her lips as I got up to see what Jason and Haley was up to.
"Mommy be back angel. Sweet dreams big boy" I gave him a kiss as I made my way to the kitchen. Haley was sitting on the counter eating every piece of bacon Jason made.
"Pretty girl how many pieces of bacon did you eat already" I said holding her chubby face in my hands.
"5" she said showing me 5 fingers.
"5! Where did they go" I said acting shocked. She loved bacon!
"In my belly ma ma" she said as I lift her shirt.
"Oh I see them" I said kissing her stomach over and over. She giggled loving my attention.
"And didn't even save my none" I said pretending to be sad.
"Da da got more" she said hugging me.
"Daddy always got some for mommy. That's daddy's biggest princess" he said making me blush.
"Noooo ma ma no princess. Me da da princess" she said laying down the law. They swore Jason was all theirs. It was hilarious.
"Daddy is mommy's too. We can share him right pretty girl" I said as she frowned up her face.
"Da da mines" she said as he picked her up. She kissed his cheek over and over.
"Daddy yours" he said kissing her back. I loved that Jason was man enough to not only make them with me but he made sure he had a good relationship with them since day one. He was so happy to be a father to 3 amazing kids.
"Who do I belong to then" I said as Jason interlocked our fingers.
"Me" he said putting Haley down.
"I'm all yours" I said as he held me close.
"Always beautiful" he said looking down at me.
"Always handsome" I said as we wasted no time kissing. We had this burning desire for one another that never ever disappeared.
"I love you baby" I said breaking our kiss. I couldn't get enough of saying those 3 words to him.
"I love you too. Go sit down. I'm almost done" he said squeezing my ass
"Babe stop. Haley can see you" I said softly to him as he ignored me. He kissed my neck as I wrapped my arms around his neck. We couldn't keep our hands off each other.
"She ain't paying us no mind" he said reaching inside my shorts.
"Jason you better quit" I said smiling. I loved how affectionate be was with me. It was like that outside and inside the house. Jason didn't care who saw us loving on each other. For us to never have this type of love and to be fortunate enough to find each other meant the world to us and neither one of us cared who was watching us. Real love was meant to be shown every minute of the day. I couldn't tell my heart to not touch it kiss or eye him. And the same went for him. If you're in a relationship and you or your spouse are ashamed or scared to show affection in public nine times out of ten it's not the right choice. We never cared.
"Let's make a deal" he said in my ear.
"Go on I'm listening" I said rubbing his back.
"If I get them to the table and get their plates together can you wait for me in the laundry room" he said making me blush
"Jason you can't possibly be horny again" I said as he gave the look.
"So I can't want you as much as I do no more huh" he said in my ear.
"I didn't say that now" I broke from his embrace strutting off to the laundry room. Jason always got what he wanted.
"And don't come in there empty handed either. I want bacon" I said winking at him.
"I got you" I use to be so scared that we would never last. True we had up and downs but thru it all we never turned our back on our love. The love between us was so strong that it was nearly impossible to break us up. I cherished Jason enough to trust him with my life and he respected me enough to love me and only me. My past insecurities were completely long gone.