Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 88: Reality Check

"Jackie" I said out in my office. I had the worst headache and on top of the ridiculous night I had I didn't even tell Jason. I had an early morning and I had to be out the house by 7. Jason was still sleeping when I left and he had the girls in bed with him and I didn't wanna wake him up and tell him.
"Yes Mrs. H" she said peeking in my office door
"Can you get me some green tea with honey please sweetheart" I asked as she nodded her head. My head was booming.
"Yes ma'am. I'll go get you some from the coffee shop" she said walking out. I was so tired and I couldn't even sleep last night. I was convinced that this headache was brought on by not telling my husband about last night. I grabbed my phone ready to call but got no answer. I called 3 times and still no answer. 
"Answer your damn phone" I said sending him a text. I desperately wanted to talk to him. I heard someone knock on my door as I finished my text.
"I'll be with you in one minute" I said not looking up. Suddenly I heard the door shut as I looked up. I was the only one who shut my office door.
"Damn you look better than you did last night boo" Quincy said as I jumped.
"Quincy open my damn door and get out" I said as he sat down in my chair. I was not in the mood for his schemes.
"Hue why you fighting me boo. What am I not doing" he said as I grabbed my sweater covering my cleavage. I wanted nothing for him to look at.
"Quincy your not my husband that's what. I don't want you I never wanted you and I never will. I'm dead ass serious" I said seriously. He started to walk towards me as my door opened. I looked up and saw Jason with a dozen roses in his hands.
"Oh my bad beautiful I ain't know you had a meeting. I'll wait outside till you done" he said shutting the door as I jumped up.
"No! Babe come here." I said as Quincy rolled his eyes. I saw the opportunity to tell him right than and there but I didn't want Jason to loose his mind and kill Quincy.
"I aint wanna disturb you" he said kissing me as I held his hand. "How you doing man" he said nodding at Quincy as he nodded back.
"I'm cool." He said with an attitude. He was on thin ice with me and getting Jason an attitude was definitely the wrong move. My baby was never the type to let things slide or pretend that things didn't happen.
"Aye you a problem man. All I said was what's up" he said laying my roses down looking at him.
"Hue get your man aight." He said ignoring him. He was bat shit crazy now. Jason walked around my desk as I grabbed his hand.
"Let me say this. I don't know you and don't ever disrespect me aight. This my wife's office and I won't let anybody come in here with no problems. I hope we clear" he said to me as Quincy rubbed his chin.
"You got so much confidence but how you let your wife go out with me last night. What kind of man are you" he said as Jason laughed.
"Man fuck is your issue. What you want my wife or something. Cause you seem bothered by me" I couldn't even talk. I just watched it all unfold.
"Oh what she ain't tell you. I told her that I wanted to be wit her last night. Guess yall not as close as you thought " he said as Jason darted his eyes at me. I wanted to just faint.
"Baby I- " I said as he shut me down.
"Hue we goin talk later." He said not looking at me but stepping to Quincy. Out of nowhere he grabbed him by his shirt collar throwing him against the wall hard.
"I better not ever see you near my wife." He said damn near choking him. I couldn't even stop him. Quincy was pinned against the wall as he struggled to breath. Jason showed him no mercy as I grabbed his hand to stop him. Even though I wanted Quincy to just disappear I didn't want Jason to kill him.
"J let him go please" I screamed as he snatched away from me. He threw him on the floor as Quincy got up. He didn't even defend himself.
"Man I'm gone. Stay with your crazy ass husband" he said leaving with the quickness. Jason stood there facing the wall as I slowly walked behind him.
"Baby can we talk" I said as he chuckled
"What you wanna tell me huh. Oh ole boy tried to holler at you last night and you came home and said nothing." He said pissed.
"J I'm sorry baby but I didn't wanna wake you." He turned his back to me  as I teared up.
"You better have a better excuse than not waking me up cause I ain't buying it." He said pacing. "Or you must want him cause he never hide shit from me so what's up" he said as I cried.
"Jason I don't want him baby. I swear I don't. You know I love you. Just you" I said with tears coming from my eyes. He knew that. He got quiet as I went to hug him.
"Hue get off me" he said back in up as I didn't let go.
"Jason please. Please baby. Stop" I said as he looked down at me.
"You know I don't like when you keep shit from me. I always tell you that." I could tell he was more hurt than anything. Our trust was everything.
"And I apologize for that Jason I do. I didn't mean for that to happen. I promise I didn't."'I said pleading with him. He sighed kissing my forehead. "I ain't mad at you. Finish working. Il see you at home" he said as I felt the distance already start to grow. He could say he wasn't mad all day but I felt it.
"Jason I'm sorry okay" I said as he walking out.
"It's all good aight" he didn't even give me eye contact. I messed up big time and he seemed like he didn't even care anymore. I hope this didn't make him fall out of love with me. I prayed it didn't. Jason was always fighting my battles and defending me when people disrespected me. Maybe this time was the last time and he had enough. Damn. I should've just woke him up and told him. Time was so important and I felt like I fucked my marriage up. I was heartbroken.
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"You want the light on or off" He said to me walking out the bathroom. Things were tense since I got home and we barely talked outside of the kids. This was just what I feared. I saw it as him being fed up.
"I don't need it on." I said nervously. I wanted him to say anything to me.
"Aight" he got in bed laying on his side as I sat there against the head board. I hated the awkward silence between us and this was not how we were.
"Umm do you want me to rub your back tonight J" I asked facing him.
"Nah I'm good. Thanks" he said back. For the first time ever I couldn't read him. This was so unusual. I always knew what he was thinking b
"Oh...okay. Wanna watch a movie or something baby. Your favorite movie on" I asked as he turned the lights off.
"Imma go to sleep. Go head and watch it if you want" he said softly. He always cuddled with me at night and watched movies with me when I wanted to. I wanted to cry so bad. I played with my hands not touching the remote as he laid on his side. I laid on my side of the bed feeling weird. We never went to sleep like this. He wasn't touching me and I wasn't touching him. It was odd. I couldn't take this. I cut the lights back on sitting up
"I thought you said you weren't mad Jason"'I said as he sighed
"We talking bout this right now" he said adjusting his eyes to the light.
"When should we talk about this cause I can't go another minute like this Jason. Look at us" I said done with this.
"I said its cool. I'm not mad so we good" I was so thrown off.
"Than why are acting like this" I wanted the real truth
"Hue not tonight. Let's just go to sleep" he said hiding something. I knew it was more than just this whole Quincy thing.
"Jason be honest" I said as he looked at me for a minute.
"Honestly. I just don't feel important to you anymore. For a couple months now I feel like you don't see me the same way you did before. One minute we could be all over each sexually but the next it's like everything else has your attention. Work, the kids, your friends, even your clients but I wait my turn. I remember when I use to be your baby. You never let go minute go pass without checking on me." I held back my tears and I was not expecting this. "Every time I'm at my office I watch my phone for a text from you. Just saying I'm thinking bout you or I love you or I miss you but I get nothing. I tell myself that you busy with the kids and all but I can't help but think I'm not what you want anymore. Last night when I saw you leave it was like I wanted you to do that for me not just for business and then for another man to tell me something dealing with you that I don't even know is just foul. I feel like you only want me some of the time. It's hurts me cause I love the ground you walk on but I get it." I was so torn up inside. For the man I love so deeply to confess this all to me made me sick. Last night he said something close to this but he said it wasn't a big deal and now I see exactly what he wanted to say. How could I be so blind to all this. I worked so hard for the moment to have a family and good career and it was blowing up in my face. The worst part about was that he was right. I use to text him all the time while he was working but I got so consumed after Jae that I stopped all together. I didn't even pick up my phone unless it was work. I use to make him breakfast every morning before work but I stayed up so late cleaning up and doing laundry that I slept in the next day unless the kids needed me. I didn't realize I was doing none of this until right now.
"J....Jason I don't know to say but sorry" I said below a whisper. I was embarrassed and didn't know how to fix it at this moment.
"That's what you always tell me and it's okay. Your a great mother and I can't fault you for wanting the best for them so keep doing you. I'm straight" he said as I held my head down. "Good night beautiful." He kissed my cheek laying his head back down as I sat there. This whole Quincy thing was a wake up call beyond what happened last night that I didn't wanna answer right now. I was speechless to say the least and needed to make us right again.