Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 67: Secrets (part 1)

"Ma ma" was all I heard waking me out my sleep. I was now 5 months pregnant and definitely felt it. My appointments were pretty good and our little angel or should I say prince was growing just fine. That's right. We was having a boy and Jason ecstatic. Our first boy was coming and I couldn't be more excited. My pregnancy was so far so good and I made sure to be extra careful. My baby was my number one priority now. 
"Yes pretty girl. Mommy's up now" I picked her up placing her next me in bed.
"Eat ma ma" she said with her chubby self. She was so cute and precious. It melted my heart every time I looked at her.
"Okay baby. Give mommy a kiss and I'll make you anything you want" I said smiling at her playing with her soft and curly hair.
"Tiss" she said standing up on the bed wrapping her arms around me.
"I love you Haley" I said to her. It was no way possible for me to remember how many times I said I love you to anyone in this house. I couldn't get enough of saying it them.
"Me lobe ma ma" I beamed with pride hearing her say that. It melted my heart every single time.
"Muah" I kissed her over and over as Jason came thru the door.
"Princess did you wake mommy up? I told you to let mommy sleep" he said coming with Harley.
"Jason it's okay. She hungry and I was gonna start dinner anyway" I said getting up slowly out the bed.
"Nah I got dinner baby. I don't want you on your feet" he said taking my pants out my hands. He was had me on strict bed rest. I did things here and there but Jason has to approve over everything! I spent my whole pregnancy so far in bed. At times it was frustrating but I completely understood where he was coming from.
"Princess say good night to mommy. She has to rest" he said to the girls as they got under the covers with me. I loved cuddling with my angels.
"Me wanna kiss baby" Harley said laying close to me. They were obsessed with my stomach.
"Okay angel. Be gentle okay" I said lifting my shirt up so they can see.
"Baby me your sister" she said kissing it over and over. We told her she was gonna be a big sister and she was so happy. She thought babies were a toy. He started kicking as Haley and Harley rubbed my growing belly.
"Uh oh he's up babies" I said as they were so amazed. I couldn't help but laugh at their reactions everytime they felt him kick. They kissed and rubbed on my stomach as I yawned. That was the wrong move in front of Mr. Thomas.
"Alright let's go so mommy can sleep. She tired" Jason said ending our fun time.
"Baby I'm not tired. They can stay" I said to him
"Hue you was yawning. You know how important it is for you to get your rest. We not goin have this argument again" he said a I felt myself getting annoyed. I felt like I couldn't do anything. Not even spend the time I wanted with my own children. I was being carefully for this long and I didn't get a break at all.
"Jason I been in this bed for weeks and I'm fine. I should be able to get up and do something" I said with an attitude.
"Like I said. You goin stay in that bed and rest. It's no back and forth on this one" he said sternly. He was making me feel like I was in prison. I wanted my baby to healthy no question but I was doing the best I could. I wasn't the type of person to just sit down forever. He knew that.
"Jason don't tell me what I'm going to do." I said kissing the girls
"Whatever. I just did" he said waving me off. This was not the time to test my patience and he was definitely doing just that. Plus he knew whatever made me so mad.
"Mommy's angel go play in your room so mommy and daddy can talk okay. We won't be long" I said kissing them as they helped each other off the bed.
"I love you" I said as they walked out. I made it a habit to never argue in front of them. Whatever issue me and Jason had it should stay between us. They should never see or hear it. We were mature enough to handle whatever issues we had in an appropriate manner.
"Jason" I said folding my arms over my chest. He was on my back heavy lately and I didn't like it one bit. He ignored me as he picked up his phone looking thru it. I hated when he ignored me. This was strike 2.
"Okay so now your ignoring me" I said in his direction
"Nah I just don't wanna hear that shit" he said as I laughed.
"Shit? Excuse me Jason but when since my feelings become shit" I said growing angry.
"See you tryin to start an argument. I ain't wit that Hue" I don't know what his problem was be he was one today. Definitely.
"Jason what the fuck is your problem. All I said was that I wasn't tired. That's it. Why you getting mad with me" he was all in his phone. It was like I was talking to myself
"Whatever" he said as I calmed myself down. He must have lost his mind was the only excuse I had to not smack the shit out of him. I was the pregnant one and he had more of an attitude than me. What the hell was his problem.
"Jason you got one more time to whatever me. You know that pisses me off." I said and again he was all into that damn phone. I was over talking to my damn self.
"You know what since I'm invisible imma shut up cause clearly whatever in your phone is more important" just as I said that his phone rang. He didn't even answer it. It rang as he got up and went outside the room to talk. That was new for me. He answered everything in front of me. Even though I didn't clock him or check up on him he never left the room just to talk. My mind was starting to wonder.
"I'll be back" he said coming in the room grabbing his keys.
"Jason it's 8 0 clock. Where are you going?" I asked rubbing my belly.
"Something came up. I'll be back in like an hour" he seemed like he was in a rush. Before I went off I wouldn't to see one more thing. Hopefully this would ease my mind.
"Okay but I'm sorry for whatever this was a few minutes ago. How about we make up when you come back" I said grabbing his hand. I could never stay mad at him and I knew he couldn't do the same.
"That's not a good idea. Get some rest" he said as I was taken aback. Jason Vince Thomas never said no to sex. Never. Now I was staring to get worried.
"Alright" I said hurt. My feelings were crushed. Was it my body and weight I gained? Was it my moody attitude? Was he not attracted to me anymore? Or worse was he cheating? It broke my heart to put those thoughts in my mind but hey what was I to think when he started to switch out of nowhere.
"Love you" he said quickly as he left out the room. I was so confused. What was really going on.
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Jen came over to keep me company so I wouldn't feel so alone on this bed rest foolishness. She had her precious little baby with her and I fell so in love with him.
"Jen he gets cuter every time I see him" I said holding him close to me. Jen dressed him so cute and everything coordinated to a T.
"Say auntie I look like my daddy" she said as he smiled at her. I was so happy for her and Frank.
"He's such a good baby." I said rocking him. Every time he came over he was super laid back and never made a sound. Los was the ideal baby. Jen named him and it fit him so well.
"That's momma's baby. Hue I'm so in love with him. I can't stop staring at him. Even when he sleeps I'm always in his face. Frank be telling me to let him breathe but he ain't no better than me" I laughed knowing the feeling all to well
"Los your mommy and daddy be all in your space. Huh baby. Auntie knows" I kissed his forehead as he dosed off.
"I can't believe your having a boy now. I know Jason is jumping off the walls" she said as I rolled my eyes. "Uh oh what that mean" she asked as I sighed
"Jen, he was on 10 the other night. We got into this petty ass argument and the next thing I know his phone rings and he leaves the room to answer it. Then he comes back like oh I gotta leave I'll be back in an hour. Jen it was like 8 at night but bitch guess what. He ain't come home till midnight" I explained to her as she got wide eyed
"Oh has he lost his damn mind. When he start doing shit like that" she said as I shook my head.
"Jen I can't even tell you. But right before he left I asked him if he wanted to have make up sex and he was like nah you need to get your rest. Like seriously" I was still in my feelings over that and he was still acting funny ever since than.
"Bitch he definitely lost his mind. What the fuck is he doing. Your pregnant with yall 3rd baby and he decides to act like a idiot right now. Hue that ain't cool" she said getting upset. The more I thought about it the worse I felt.
"Jen I ummm I...." I broke down out of nowhere. My mind was racing with all types of things.
"Hue don't cry. You and me both know he loves you." She said rubbing my back.
"Jen he cheating on me." I cried feeling so bad.
"Hue don't say that. He never gave you a reason to say that" she said trying to ease my mind. But I was convinced
"What do you call coming home late and talking in private Jen. He doesn't even wanna have sex lately. It's like he not even attracted to me anymore." I got so emotional even letting my mind tell me that. I was feeling so unwanted it hurt. I didn't do anything out the normal so maybe it was someone else who caught his eye.
"Talk to him and ask him Straight out. This not healthy for you and the baby. Whatever he says just think about your kids but I doubt it's anything bad. I know it boo" she said to me. I cried harder thinking the worse. But she was right. I had to ask and stop making up things in my head. If he was cheating I would have to still be strong for my babies. They came before anything.
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Jason's mother came and got the girls so me and him could talk. Whatever he had to say I didn't want them to hear. I waited up patiently as once again he was late coming home. No text. No call no nothing. I was upset but I was gonna play it cool. I heard the bedroom door open as he walked in.
"Hey" he said sitting on the bed taking his clothes off.
"How was your day" I asked casually
"It's was aight. You?" He said getting his towel.
"Nothing much. Slept and saw Jen and Los that's it" I wanted to mad but my heart wouldn't even allow me. I loved him so much that I hated thinking anything negative about us.
"That's good" he got up and headed to the bathroom as I stopped him
"Baby make love to me" I blurred out to him. My heart wanted whatever issue it was to just disappear and we go back to us.
"I'm tired Hue" he said as I got up wrapping my arms around him. I wanted his love so bad
"Baby please. We haven't made love in days. Come on daddy" I whispered trying to wear him down. I went to pull his towel off as he moved my hand.
"We can do this tomorrow night. I promise" he said as I stepped back. I was damn near begging him to have sex with me and he turned me down completely. I was at a lost for words
"You really don't want me anymore" I said near tears. I couldn't believe this.
"Hue don't start this" he said as I looked him up and down something wasn't right.
"You gave my name away too I see" I never heard Jason call me by my first name so much. I wasn't beautiful anymore I was just Hue. I was crushed.
"What are you talking about" he said missing all of this. I was trying my best to not cry.
"Don't play stupid. So who is she" I said with my hand on my hip. He needed to just come clean.
"Aye what the fuck are you talking about?" He was really trying to play dumb
"Is it the weight?! Did you change your mind about the baby?! What Jason! What!" I yelled at him. I was so hurt.
"Calm down. You think I would cheat on you" he said like I was in the wrong
"I went through with this pregnancy for you! You Jason and you treat me like I'm not good enough anymore. My feelings are hurt. I never had to beg my husband to touch me. I feel like shit" the tears came as my baby boy kicked repeatedly. I sat down taking deep breaths as Jason ran to my side. Rubbing my back
"Are you okay?" He asked as I laughed lightly.
"Get off of me. You didn't wanna touch me prior to this so I'm good" I said in anger. This made me feel so bad.
"Let me help you" he said as I exhaled slowly rubbing my stomach. I didn't want him to touch me at this point. 
"Jason go back to whatever bitch you just fucking" I said snatching away from him. I was done being nice.
"Don't ever say no shit like that. I'm dead ass serious Hue." He said getting upset.
"Fuck you Jason." I spat at him. I don't care what I was saying at this point. He had nothing to be mad at.
"Hue I..." He was cut off by his phone ringing as I burned a whole in his face
"Go head. Answer it" I said as he just let it ring. He just stood there. "Fine I'll do it" I said grabbing his phone as he tired to get it.
"Who is this" I said into the phone as he rubbed his hands over his face.
"Jasmine? I'm sorry I was looking for Jason" she said as my skin crawled. I was livid.
"Oh no boo you got the right number" I said throwing his phone at him. How could he do this to me. Me!
"You ungrateful bastard" I screamed at him as I went to the closet.
"Hue it's not what you think" he said trying to explain. I didn't want to hear another word.
"After I loved you and took care of you every day." I threw his clothes at him one by one "I'm a good wife and mother and you do this. I hate you!!! I hate you!!" I said so hurt. Everything was moving so fast.
"Baby stop I promise. I'm not cheating" he said trying to stop me. I saw red.
"You said I was special. I was the one who gave you your daughters. I was the one who you promised to never leave. I'm giving you your first son" I said through my tears. He broke my heart.  He grabbed me trying to kiss me as I fought him.
"Beautiful you are special. I love you and only you. I didn't do anything. Look at me" he was trying to calm me down but the more I looked at him the more hurt I got.
"Jason was I not enough. What didn't I do for you. I gave you everything I had and you hurt me like this. You know how everyone in my past treated me and you goin just do me like this" I couldn't even breath. I was beyond hurt. Jason was the love of my life. My best friend. He was all I had.
"You got to calm down. You know I would never hurt you." He said looking in my eyes
"Then who is Jasmine" I said giving him one more chance to be honest
"Baby I can't tell you right now" he said shaking his head. I had enough.
"Well until you can tell me, Get out my house" I said gathering His stuff.
"You don't mean that" he said with pledging eyes.
"I'm so serious. Get out" I screamed as he saw how serious I was. I went into the bathroom locking the door as I heard footsteps going downstairs and the front door shut. I cried hysterically on the floor as I felt horrible. What was I gonna tell my babies. What did this mean for our marriage and most importantly what were we going to do about this new baby. I was a mess and my heart was in so much pain. Why me.? Why me.......