Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 65: Express Yourself

"Angel you goin get that in mommy's eye" I said to Harley as she, Haley and me where in the huge bath tub taking a bubble bath. They had their own bathroom but I wanted to spend more time with my babies so instead Of taking a relaxing bath myself I brought my angels in with me.
"Hair ma ma" Harley said to me as I held Haley on my chest. She loved getting her hair wet and playing in the water. Haley on the other hand took advantage of any time she had to curl up on me and rest.
"Yes baby. It's so pretty. You have hair like mommy." I compliment her on her shiny black hair. It was so curly and fine. Both my babies took after me with their hair. She blushed as she scooped water in her little palms barley getting any in her hair.
"I wash it. Me do you ma ma" she said making her way over to me. She loved playing in my hair all day. She took her bucket that I let her play with in the tub filling it up over and over wetting my hair. Now I knew I loved my angel so much cause I just got my hair done the day before but I could never stop her fun.
"You gotta wash it good angel." I said laying back some rubbing Haley's little back. The warm water calmed both her and me. Harley massaged my scalp with her little hands getting water everywhere. She was so into it.
"Thank you so much angel. Can't nobody do mommy hair like you. How many kisses do I owe you?" I said with my eyes close taking in the moment. Being with them was so special to me. They understand me so much and my joy came from being in their presence.
"Ummm 3 kisses" she said making me laugh. I was always loving on them constantly.
"Give mommy her kisses" I turned my head to her as she kissed me softly. I lived for my babies.
"3 ma ma" she said counting her kisses rubbing her tiny hands thru my hair.
"Mommy need one more. I'm sad" I pretended to cry as she gave in.
"Kiss kiss" she placed her little lips on mines as she kissed me again. Her kisses meant the world.
"Haley where mommy kiss at. I see you staring at me" Haley's little eyes stared me down as I spoke to her sister. Every time I was talking to anyone in person or on the phone she was always all in my mouth.
"Ma ma ma ma" she said smiling at me. She knew when I said her name who I was talking to.
"Yes I'm mommy baby." I looked into her eyes seeing her father so much. It was crazy how much they reminded me of him just by their eyes. Jason was written all over them. "Haley I love you so much. Mommy is in love with you pretty girl" I kissed her over and over as she laughed. Both her and Harley loved attention. We sat in the tub for a couple more minutes until the bathroom door came open.
"There go daddy's girls" Jason said coming in smiling. I was so excited to see him but not nearly as excited as his daughters.
"Da da!!! Da da!!!" They both said so eager to get his attention. Haley just started saying his name and he was in heaven. 2 little girls saying daddy was a dream for him.
"Daddy missed his princesses." He kissed both of them as they went crazy. He went to walk away until I cleared my throat.
"I'm invisible now Jason." I said smiling at him. I was still his baby.
"Nah my bad beautiful." He said coming back over to us.
"Nope it's okay. You don't wanna kiss me anymore" I said as he laughed. I missed him all day. Even though we texted the whole time he was working it was nothing better than laying my eyes on him.
"Shhhhh" he said covering my lips with his. He kissed my lips softy as I reached up and grabbed his face. "I always want your kisses beautiful" he said in my mouth. I deepen the kiss as our tongues made out. We were so caught up making out we didn't even realize the girls were watching us.
"Mommy and daddy are sorry" I said wiping his lips off as he sat on the sink watching us. We didn't find anything wrong with kissing in front of our daughters cause we were their parents and we loved each other. That's nothing we wanted to hide from them. They saw it on a normal basis and I was happy my daughters had a functional loving positive environment.
"How was your day though baby" I said  running my fingers thru the bubbles as Harley and Haley entertained themselves playing together.
"It was straight. I'm tired though. It was meeting after meeting" he said yawning. He worked so hard every day.
"You need to go to bed babe. I'm glad you taking tomorrow off. I want you to sleep in and relax tomorrow" I said keeping a close eye on the girls.
"I can't sleep until you in bed. I'll just be tossing and turning" he said as I blushed. It's was hard for us to sleep without each other. Jason was such a baby and always slept on my chest as I held him. As safe and secure as I felt in his arms he felt so much love and passion in mines. I loved having that effect on him.
"Okay baby. Let me put them to bed and I'm all yours. We can cuddle tonight" I said as he bit his lip. His eyes was suggesting way more. I just rolled my eyes laughing.
"Why you rollin your eyes?" He said grinning at me.
"Cause you funny. All we doing is cuddling that's it. Your sleepy baby and I'm exhausted" I said standing up out the water. "J hand me my towel please" I said as he grabbed my towel but not giving it to me. He wasn't fooling me.
"You look sexy as shit" he was giving me the eye and I was getting weaker by the minute.
"Baby their in here. Stopppp" I whined blushing at him. If we were alone I would definitely make him join me and put his ass to sleep the right way.
"You lucky my daughters here." He stepped closer to me getting close to my ear. "I would have you screaming my name by now" he said as I covered my face blushing. Jason was such a turn on and he always expressed his feelings to me no matter what.
"Gimme my damn towel J" I said as he held it out for me in his hands.
"Come on. I got you sexy" I stepped out as he wrapped my towel around me. Soon as I got out he started feeling on me kissing my neck.
"Jason stopppp. I have to get them out." I wanted him to keep going. His lips did things to me that I couldn't even explain.
"Aight aight. Imma chill." He backed up as I turned around to get my girls out the tub. I definitely enjoyed our time.
"Okay my angels time for bed. Mommy goin take you out and dry you off" I bent over grabbing Haley first as Jason smacked my ass.
"I'll get Harley beautiful" he got Harley as we took them both to our bedroom
"Da da me so ma ma hair" Harley said to Jason as I lotioned them both.
"I was just about to ask mommy who did her hair. It looks so pretty princess" he said laying out their pajamas.  Harley just beamed with pride.
"Thank you angel. Mommy loves it" I said kissing her. Haley was crawling all over the bed as I put her diaper on.
"Hey hey hey pretty girl. Sit steal for mommy" I said as she moved around.
"Princess behave for mommy okay" Jason said to her as she sat still. Even though Jason was soft hearted when it came to them he still had them understand respect and discipline. They knew daddy played no games. Even though he was too soft to spank them his voice did the job. They both were dressed and I brushed and braided their hair in one braid. They were all set for bed.
"Let's go to your room Angels" I said standing up.
"Airplane da da airplane" Harley said as I laughed. Jason took both of them in his arms.
"Yall ready" he said as they nodded. "Okay 1...2....3!" He said running off to their room spinning them around like a airplane. It didn't matter if Jason was dead tired he would still do that for his babies. They loved it every time he did it. They were giggling so much and holding him for dear life as he spun them all over. I loved watching them.
"Airplane is landing" he said laying them both in bed. We tucked them in as we sat next to them.
"Pray time" Harley said to us
"That's right baby. You want mommy to pray or you wanna try" I said holding her little hand and Haley's.
"Me try!" She voiced eagerly.
"Go head princess" Jason held their other hand has we closed our eyes.
"Thank you for ma ma and da da and baby amen" she said putting her words together so good.
"That was so good angel. Mommy and daddy are so proud of you" I said getting up. We kissed them goodnight telling them we loved them as we hit the lamp closing the door. I loved putting the to bed with Jason. They enjoyed it just as much as me.
I went to the bathroom to empty the tub an ms straighten up. I came back in the room as Jason was stretched out across the bed in his boxers.
"Why you on my side" I said applying lotion to my skin in my bra and panties.
"Cause I can be" he sat up staring at me. He licked his lips as I bit mines out of reflex looking at him.
"Come here" he said to me as I shook my head no grinning. "Come here sexy" he said licking his lips again making me so wet.
"Why" I said not moving but looking him in the eye.
"I want a kiss that's it" he said showing his dimples. He was so sexy. I walked over to him as he held my waist.
"One kiss then we going to bed J" I caressed his face as I stood in front of him.
"One kiss" he said pulling me on the bed. He laid me in my back as he started to pull off my panties.
"J those stay on" I said as he ignored me. He kissed my lips sliding his tongue in my mouth. We kissed passionately as I ran my hands up and down his back. I ran my hand across his boxers as he moaned.
"You want me to take them off" he said kissing my neck. He was so hard to resist.
"Yes take them off" I said helping him pull them down. I was feeling all over him. He was sucking on my neck as I moaned. He was hitting the right spot.
"Get up and get on your hands and knees" he whispered as I did what he said. He got behind me as I arched my back. He ran and shut the door as I waited for him.
"Daddy hurry up. I need you" I said looking back at him licking my lips.
"Shit you so fucking sexy" he said squeezing my ass hard. Jason was so satisfied with me and I loved that I was the only woman for him. I never worried or thought about him cheating. His behavior never changed with me. His wishes was my command. He entered me from behind gripping my hips going in and out.
"Mmmmm just what I waited for all day" I said enjoying what he was doing. He went in and out of me hard but slow.
"You missed daddy" he said pulling me into his chest as he kept his rhythm.
"So much" I got out. He felt so good. He reached around feeling all over my chest thru my bra.
"Take that shit off" he whispered to me as I quickly took my bra off. I put his hands over mines massaging my breast with him as he pushed inside me. I closed my eyes in heaven.
"Don't stop baby. I need you" I cried out as he went faster. I was screaming uncontrollably. He gave me his fingers as I kissed them all over. I was so in love and attracted to Jason. As I kissed and licked over his fingers I looked at his wedding ring. He wore it everyday and never took it off. I kissed his ring finger over and over.
"I love you Jason" I said as he wrapped his arms around me tight giving me deep strokes. I damn near lost my mind.
"Tell me again" he said grabbing my hair with one hand still having a tight grip on my waist. He was feeling so good I couldn't even talk. "Tell me" he said going deeper. I threw my head back on his shoulders feeling my climax approaching.
"I love you I love you I love you" I cried out as I came so hard. My body was so weak. He still went faster and harder as I whined waiting for him. My body was so sensitive.
"You want it baby" he said in my ear. He threw me down with my hands pinned down never letting up. I couldn't take it.
"Omg J stop mmmm baby" I said trying to push him off me. The pleasure was too much. I could feel my second orgasm so strong.
"You tryin fight me huh" he said pulling out flipping me on my back. He spread my legs rubbing his tip on my dripping center. I was going crazy.
"Jason please. Please stop" I whispered softly. He hovered over me kissing my lips gently. 
"Stop what" he said kissing me still teasing me. I couldn't even talk.
"I can't stop if you don't speak up" he said looking in my eyes. The pleasure was out this world. I moaned the whole time. "You goin let me finish beautiful. Say yes daddy. That's all I wanna hear" he said to me stopping everything he was doing. I relaxed as he stroked my hair.
"Yes daddy" I said as he wasted no time entering me. He was going so fast I held on to him so tight. I knew he was close.
"Ahhh shit" he said in my ear as he grunted over and over. I rubbed his back as he released himself deep inside me. I couldn't even move. The room was silent all that could be heard was us catching our breath.
"Wanna cuddle now" he spoke up making me laugh
"That's what we should've been doing babe" I said caressing his head.
"I'm sorry. I couldn't help myself" he said with his head on my chest. The time we spent alone was so precious to me. Not a day went by that our connection didn't grow deeper and deeper. I knew it was impossible for us to ever fall out of love.
"I bet. Good night baby. I love you" I said yawning.
"Good night beautiful I love you more" we held on to each other as we fell asleep peacefully.
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I got to my office early this morning. I had some paper work to threw and wanted to get started early so I could be home faster.
"Excuse me, I'm sorry to bother you. Do you have a restroom I can use" I looked up and saw a pregnant woman standing in my doorway.
"Yes ma'am. The door to your left." I said as she walked off. I had a weak spot for pregnant women. Jackie had the day off so it was just me in the office.
"Thank you so much. This baby has a mind of her own and always dancing on my bladder" she said rubbing her huge stomach. Pregnancy was so beautiful to me.
"I believe you." I said laughing with her.
"You have kids" she asked as I offered her a chair to rest her feet.
"2 little girls. 2 and 8 months" I said with pride
"That's so sweet. I have 4. All boys. This will be our first girl. Her name is Essie." She looked so happy.
"That's a pretty name. I bet your boys are excited"
"Oh yes but my husband is ecstatic. He wants baby after baby so I'm granting his wishes." I smiled but felt a little sad at the same time. Jason wanted baby after baby but I couldn't give him that.
"I bet he is very happy" I said playing with my pen.
"Do you plan on having anymore. It's an amazing experience and each time gets better" she said so happy.
"I do and my husband does too but it's been hard." I said giving her a short answer. I made the decision to not have any more babies. I wasn't strong enough to handle anymore losses so I was a against it. But it did bother me every now and then. I knew Jason wanted more kids but he respected my choice.
"Oh I'm sorry for asking you such personal questions. My husband says I need to stop being so forward" she said getting up.
"Oh no your fine. Nice meeting you though" I said getting up opening the door for her. She was a stranger but she made me think hard about a lot. I sat back in my office as my cell phone rang. The name "my baby" flashed on my screen. Just who I wanted to talk to.
"Hey baby" I said answering the phone
"Aye beautiful what's that place you took me to the other day. One of my clients wanna go" he said referring to our date night last week. I took him to a  pottery class.
"It's called build and mold babe" I said back
"Yeah that's right. Good lookin beautiful" he said ready to hung up
"Jason" I said quickly.
"What's up" he said as I sighed. His background sounded busy so I thought against having a conversation at this moment.
"Never mind babe. Go head back to work. I love you" I said trying to play it off.
"Nah something on your mind baby. Tell me what's up" he said
"It's nothing J. Go back to your client. I'm okay" I said tapping my fingers on my desk.
"Give me like 10 minutes" I heard him say to someone. His background got quiet as I heard a door open and shut on his end. "Beautiful you know come before anything in my world. Tell daddy what's wrong okay" he always knew just what to say. I calmed my nerves as I spoke honestly.
"Baby it's about the baby situation" I said to him
"And what about it baby" he said back
"I just....its just hard for me. I know you want another baby and I want to make you happy. I can't give you more babies right now Jason. It makes me sad knowing your just tolerating my decision just cause you wanna make me feel better. That's unfair to you" I wanted him to know that I considered his feeling in every move I made.
"Beautiful I'm not tolerating it. I'm okay with your choice. Seeing you go thru that shit made me crazy. I can't take it when your like that. You lost yourself and I ain't even know who you was when you miscarried. It was a fucked up time for you and I will never make you go thru that again. Never" he said as I cried.
"But J what if you change your mind" I said wiping my tears.
"Hue how many times do I have to tell you that I'm never changing my mind when it comes to you. I'm happy regardless cause I'm with you baby. You are my happiness. We have 2 girls and I'm beyond satisfied. I'm never gonna wake up and change my mind cause all I want and need at the end of  the day is Hue Lyn Thomas." I was blushing so hard. I needed to hear that.
"You promise J" I said feeling better
"I promise you Beautiful. Stop crying okay. You always goin be my baby" he said as I smiled wide.
"I love you so much Jason" I told him
"Mmmm how about you get your ass over to my office and show me how much." I couldn't help but laugh
"Don't you have a client J" I said shaking my head.
"Who bout to leave soon. My next meeting not for another 3 hours. So I wanna see you" he said as I gathered my belongings and purse.
"Okay. I'm on my way. We can't take long though. I gotta pick the girls up in an hour from your mother." I was already in the car as I threw my stuff down driving off.
"That's enough time for you to give me want I want." I knew just what he wanted.
"I'm always the one doing all the work" I said putting him on speaker as I drove.
"You just talented. Look at it that way" he said cracking me up.
"You stupid. Babe I'll be there in 10 minutes." I said turning my radio on
"Aight. Let me clear my office. I love you beautiful. Don't forget that" he said causing me to smile.
"Never baby. Remember that I love you just as much" I replied. He was the best husband I could ever ask for.
"Now hurry up" he said laughing
"Boy don't rush me. Member I'm the one about to do you a favor.  You better be nice" I said grinning
"Aight you got it. Call me when you outside" he said
"I will." I hung up feeling so much better. It was nothing he didn't help me get through or understand. Our communication was so important and both of us understood that. Keeping things in only made things worse and I had to learn that it was okay to express my emotions to him no matter how silly or small it seemed to me. Jason saw anything that involved me as important. I was grateful for him till no end.