Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 43: Baby..Baby...Baby..

Flashback......
"Jason hurry up. Your taking forever" I yelled from my bedroom at him downstairs. I was anxious and excited today. For the last couple days my body was acting different and I was even late on my period. I knew I had to be pregnant. Me and Jason had talks before at having a baby so I know both of us would be excited and happy.
"Okay I'm coming baby" he said coming inside my room with a bag full of pregnancy test
"Jason it's like 20 test in here. How many did you think Imma need" I said emptying the whole bag on the bed.
"Idk. I ain't never do this before. I just grabbed everything they had and left." He was so nervous. It was written all over his face.
"Thank you baby" I said giving him a quick kiss. I was nervous myself but I appreciated him doing this for me. For us.
"So what we do first" he said following me into the bathroom.
"I just pee on the long part of the stick and we wait about 10 minutes to find out if I'm pregnant or not" I said reading the box. I pulled down my pants and sat on the toilet Jason's eyes were glued to me. "Ummm Jason do you mind" I said as he jumped.
"Oh my bad beautiful do your thing" he said turning his head as I proceed with the test. I laid it on the sink and hoped for the best.

10mins Later.........
"You read it. I'm too scared" I said to him as I sat in his lap on the edge of the tub.
"Aight" he picked it up and examining it.
"One line means negative and two means positive babe" I instructed him as he looked at it. My heart was pounding.
"Beautiful it's just one line. I'm sorry baby" he said as my heart sank. He sounded so disappointed which really made me feel worse. This had to be wrong.
"Get me another one. Maybe this one is wrong" I said not taking no for an answer. Test after test said the same exact thing. My heart broke after every negative that came out his mouth. This was devastating.
"It's okay beautiful. We can still keep trying" he said trying to comfort me. I tapped out. All I ever wanted to be was a mother and finally I had a good man to make one with and I couldn't. I wanted a baby desperately and knew I had complications in the past with conceiving but it has been years. What was wrong with me?!
"Baby you hear me" Jason said as I zoned back in. I didn't wanna talk or do anything. I wanted to be left alone.
"Jason I think you should go home. I wanna go to sleep" I said trying hard not to cry. I felt lifeless.
"Home? No Imma stay here with you. Hue don't shut me out" he said knowing me all too well.
"Jason just leave. I don't want to see you right now" I said out of hurt. I know it wasn't his fault but looking at how sad he was made me feel useless.
"I'm not leaving. I know you upset and disappointed baby but let me be there for you. You not going thru this alone" he said coming closer to me
"Yes I am. I'm the one who has to cry myself to sleep after this not you" I yelled. I was in so much emotional pain. Not being able to have a baby with the man you love made me feel less of a woman.
"You think I'm happy about this. It hurts me too Hue. I want this baby just as much as you do. So don't act like its all in you" he said to me
"Jason do you know how humiliating it is to tell you that I might be having your baby and time after time I have to look at you in the eye and say nope. No baby. That hurts me. I know I'm a disappointment to you and it makes me feel like shit. I can't even get pregnant. I'm a woman for God sakes Jason! That's suppose to be my job. I'm embarrassed Jason. I'm embarrassed!!!" I was crying hysterically letting my feelings out. This was so hard for me to accept. He grabbed me close hiking me tight as I cried on his shoulder. "Your gonna leave me aren't you" I sobbed
"Leave you? Why would I ever leave you beautiful" he asked looking at me like I was crazy.
"Jason I'm not stupid. It's all a matter of time before you get tired of my emotional night time calls about my nightmare and having to come over and comfort me. And me not being able to have your baby makes it no better. I have deep issues with my parents and can't even get pass them at times. I'm more of a burden to you than anything else. I see that and I know you do too. So don't play dumb with me." I was so drained. I alway ms felt like he was the one who had to clean up my issues. He exhausted himself over my problems and it kilt me to see that I didn't have nothing to give him in return.
"Hue are you trying to break up with me?" He said confused
"Look Jason I love you. I really do but what we have it not going to work. You need someone who is not broken and damaged. I can only give you but so much. I adore you Jason but it's too hard to look at you knowing that I need so much from you than you do me. Your such a amazing man and I'm not the one to give you everything you need and want out of life. So let's just make this easier on us both and go our separate ways" even though it was hard to stay I had to let him free. It wasn't fun being the helpless emotional no baby having girlfriend. Jason meant so much to me but I felt like I was holding him back. I loved myself enough to let the only type of real love I ever had in my whole entire life go. It wasn't fair to him.
"Hue" he said softly in my ear
"Jason don't make this harder than it needs to be" I said wanting to just get it over with. It was killing me softly.
"Hue look at me baby. Please just look at me" he said forcing me to look at him. I couldn't take it. Looking at him hurt. I loved him so much it tore me up inside. When I look at him it made me think of how much I couldn't live without him. He was the best thing I ever across. "Say you love me beautiful" he whispered to me.
"No Jason just go. I can't do this"
I cried as he kissed my tears. He wasn't letting me go.
"Tell me you love me right now" I tired to fight him but he was too strong. He held me tighter saying I love you over and over in my ear.
"Baby" I cried weakly holding on to him.
"Hue I love you so much. I'm never going to let you go" he said kissing me over and over.
"But what if..." I said in a low voice before he cut me off.
"But nothing. My love for you is forever. I don't give a fuck about nothing else but you. Baby or baby Imma still love you same. When I met you I knew you was the one for me and you still are. Whenever you call me crying I feel so wanted. You trust me with your life and Iam going to take care of you for the rest of your life. Nothing can break us up. So all that bullshit you just said get it out your mind. I'm in love with you and never going anyway. Your going to be my wife one day and the mother of my children if we have to adopt then so be it but it's goin happen. I need you to understand me" he said staring me deep in the eye
"I understand J" I said feeling a little better.
"Don't ever say your a burden to me. You my best friend and being there for you thru anything is what I do. That's what I'm here for. So get use to it." He placed sweet kisses on my forehead melting my heart.
"I love you Jason. Always" I said as he laid me down in bed pulling the covers over me.
"I love you too. Now gets some sleep. Imma go make you something to eat" he said as I caressed his face.
"Can you lay with me. Just for a minute." I said needing him more than ever
"Anything for you beautiful" he said getting in laying me on his chest. He rubbed my back gently as I drifted off to sleep. This man was going to change my life. For the better and I knew it. Falling in love with him was going to be the best thing ever. 
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We stayed in New York for another day cause I wanted to show Jason around. Last night we went a to a broadway show , Madison square garden, shopping and ate at the best restaurants. We had so much fun and I was finally relieved of my past. This couldn't have been a better trip and I was so glad he was there next to me the whole time.
"Beautiful wake up" I was out cold when I felt Jason's strong hands feeling all over me. I was exhausted from last night and wanted to just sleep.
"Mmmm baby I'm still sleepy" I said with my eyes closed. This bed was like a cloud.
"But I need something from you" he said laying on top me.
"What is it J" I said not wanting to get up. It better had been important.
"I want some head" I froze thinking this man must've lost his mind.
"Jason you woke me out my sleep so I could suck your dick. You got 5 seconds to get off of me" I wasn't even mad though cause that was him. Random and freaky.
"Come on baby. I'm horny" he said feeling on my ass.
"And I'm sleepy so we both got needs that needs to be handled right about now" I said pushing him off me turning on my side. "Give me an hour and I'll take care of you baby. Ok I promise" all I needed was an hour to rest. That's it.
"What I'm pose to do for an hour Hue" Jason was so persistent when it came to getting his needs met. It was my fault cause I spoiled him never saying no and always giving in.
"Jason you got 2 hands. Make it work boo" I said throwing the covers over my head.
"Hell nah. That's why I married you" he said as I sat up giving him the evil eye
"You wanna say that again Mr. Thomas" I said folding my arms. He definitely woke me up.
"Beautiful you heard me wrong. You know I meant that I married you cause you the most beautiful woman in the world that I can't live without" he said kissing my cheek
"Oh that's what I thought you said" I said as he laughed.
"You goin stop bullying me too. I'm not scared of you" he said as I smiled
"Oh you not" I said as I pushed him back on the bed. I got between his legs stroking his erect penis.
"Nope. Not even a lil bit" he said as I put my head in his lap kissing around his thigh
"See that's too bad. I was goin say sorry if you was but oh well" I said pretending to get up.
"On second thought I'm terrified of you sexy. I want an apology" he said cracking me up.
"Oh how fast we change our mind" I took his rock hard penis in my mouth doing my job going nice and slow
"Ahh that's it baby" he said running his hands thru my hair. My job was never done and pleasing him was never a issue.
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"How was your trip girl" Jen said feeding Haley for me as I folded laundry.
"It went" I said putting my feet up on the couch
"Uh oh what that mean girl" she said curious. We had just gotten back yesterday and she wanted details
"Jen it was hard to see her like that. Honestly I thought I would be angry and wanna smack her but seeing her made me realize that she was hurt worse than me" I said truthfully
"What you mean by that" she said burping Haley.
"When we were talking she acted unbothered and that my words weren't reaching her but I saw how hurt she was. Her mother hated her and she took it out on me cause of it. I couldn't hold all that pain and hurt in when she didn't know any better" I spoke as Harley come downstairs from her nap.
"Ma ma....ma ma" she whined out for me. Every time she woke up she wanted me or Jason to be there next to her.
"Yes angel. Mommy's right here" I picked her up kissing her face as she rested on my chest  
"Did you sleep good angel" I asked playing with her curly soft hair
"Yes.....I hungry" she said as Jen and I laughed. 
"Okay mommy will make you whatever you angel. Go get your sisters blanket for mommy" I said putting Haley in her bouncer turning my attention back to Jen starting dinner.
"But have you ever had a relationship with your grandmother Hue" she asked an easy question
"Girl that woman only saw me a handful of times she barely even remember my name. She payed me no mind because she never wanted my mom so I went with the package. It is what it is" I said seasoning some chicken.
"That's crazy. Idk how you dealt with all that. But your an amazing mother. Your kids love you and know they have both parents who care and adore them so you changed their life for the best. You have a beautiful family and your husband still looks at you like your a goddess. So I'm happy for you" she said as the front door opened and close.
"Speaking of my husband. Here his crazy ass come" I said as he came in the kitchen grinning at me. I missed him all day.
"Hey Jason" Jen said giving him a hug
"What's up Jen. What trouble yall gettin in to" he said giving me kiss.
"None of your business" I said laughing
"Don't be mean to him Hue" Jen said smiling at us.
"Nah its okay sis. Your friend just missed me that's all that is" he said making me blush
"Whatever Jason. Ain't nobody miss you" I said lying smiling at him.
"Well Imma head home. Hue we still on for manicures tomorrow" she said gathering her stuff
"Yes ma'am. Your brother has the day off and will have the girls. So I'll pick you up at 12" I said hugging and kissing her as she left. I finished cooking and we had dinner and dessert. Jason brought home cupcakes for Harley. I laid in bed as he put Harley sleep.
"Haley you need to be sleeping. You wanna keep mommy up" she just smiled at me trying to talk
"She still up" Jason said coming in bed with us.
"Yes just looking at me" I said as he took her out my hand. As soon he did that she broke out in tears. Crying her little eyes out.
"Awwww give me my baby. Mommy's right here Haley. Stop crying" I said laying her on my chest as she calmed down. This little girl couldn't get enough of me.
"Haley why you acting like that with daddy. I buy you whatever you want" he said kissing her little.
"She's a mommy girl. Ain't that right baby" I said kissing her as she showed her pretty dimples
"Nah we goin have to change that" he said as I laughed. I looked up and there was Harley waking to our bed.
"Angel what you doing out of bed." I said as she climbed in laying on Jason's chest.
"I want da da" she said as I shook my head. Her on the other hand was glued to her father.
"See my princess love me. Don't you" he said rubbing her back.
"Yessssss" she said giggling as he tickled her.
"You wanna sleep in here with mommy an me" he said as she got comfortable on top of him. She nodded her head yes.
"I guess we got company" I said to him laughing.
"Yeah but all good. Come here" he said as I moved closer to him with Haley in my arms.
"I love you beautiful" he said kissing my lips.
"I love you more Daddy. Look at what you gave me. I'm so thankful" I said looking at Haley and Harley who were now sleeping. 
"No need to thank me. We did this together. I want you to know that I'm proud of you for getting up everyday and taking of them and me. You never complain. You're perfect baby. I'm lucky to have you" he said as I blushed. He always reminded me that I was a great mother and wife. It felt good to know that I was doing my job and he appreciated me. I love my family and would anything to keep them happy. I learned how to love them from never having it myself. Seeing my babies faces made me wanna love them unconditionally. They were so innocent and needed me which I loved. I will always be there for them no matter what.
"Thank you J. I couldn't do none of it without you" he took Haley and laid her on in the middle of his chest next to Harley.
"Any room for me" I said to him seeing his hands full with them.
"Always beautiful" he pulled me with his free hand laying me in his arms. He was holding All 3 of his spoiled girls. I was so lucky that my daughters had a father like Jason and nothing like the one I had. He loved them till no end and would do anything for them. He spoiled them rotten and I was no exception. I was ad that I made a better life for me and my girls. They would never fell the hurt I had to feel as a child. That's all I prayed for.