Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 64: Just Listen....

Flashback.......
"Ughhhh why can't I get this" I said frustrated at my desk trying to type up my menu for my new event. It would be over 500 people there and the person throwing the event requested me to cater it.
"Jackie" I called out to my assistant. I was irritated and stressed not to mention I was 5 months pregnant with my second daughter who was wearing me down and I had no energy.
"Yes Mrs. H" she said coming in sitting down in front of me.
"Jackie what's wrong with this computer. It's shutting off every damn minute and it's frustrating the hell out of me. Plus I left my lunch at home and my back is killing me like I need a break!" I said ranting as she smiled at me.
"Mrs. H go home. I'll do the menus for you and send it to your email later on tonight but you need to relax. I don't want you to make that little girl angry" she said rubbing my growing stomach
"Are you sure" I said considering it. I was super picky about my work but today was not my day.
"Yes. I can handle it. Just go. Put your feet up and rest" she said as I gave in. I gathered my items and got up from my desk.
"Thank you so much Jackie. I really appreciate you. I'll call you later and take tomorrow off. Go shopping or sleep in sweetheart" I said walking out. I didn't have a big team but Jackie was my right hand man. She read my mind and always knew when I needed to just get away. I was so grateful for her and made it a habit of letting her know that as often as I could. I drove off heading home. I was in a bad mood all day and my attitude still wasn't changing. I drove home and parked as I saw Jason's car in the driveway. I just wanted to sleep. That's all.
"Hey beautiful" Jason said as I walked thru the door. He had Harley in his hand as she slept.
"Hey J" I said walking to the kitchen. The kicked my shoes off throwing my purse to the floor and letting my hair free all at one time.
"I can't get no kiss" he said laying Harley down walking over to me. He grabbed me from behind rubbing my stomach.
"J please I'm tired. Don't start" I said as he attempted to kiss my neck. I was in no mood to be touched.
"Don't start what. I can't touch you" he said as I moved out his embrace.
"Jason all I wanna do is get in bed. Just let me do that okay" I said as he sucked his teeth. Being pregnant and working was stressing me out for some reason today. I usually handled both very well but today I was a time bomb.
"Whatever" he said irritating me more. I hated when he said what or whatever. It made me so mad cause it felt like he was dismissive or trying to shut me up.
"Don't whatever me Jason like I'm getting on your nerves" I said making myself some tea.
"Hue you the one with the attitude not me. So don't try and start no argument" he said sitting on the couch. We rarely argued over anything.
"Start an argument? Jason I don't have an attitude and I'm not going to argue with you about something petty. All I said was don't whatever me. So chill" I said getting my mug heading up the stairs.
"Aight you got it" he said nonchalantly as I rolled my eyes. I kissed Harley as she slept on the couch ignoring Jason. I walked upstairs and undressed completely. I threw one of Jason's shirts over my naked body as I got in my huge plush bed. Soon as I hit the bed I felt better.
"Just what I needed" I said sitting up against my pillows drinking my tea. I turned my speakers on as I exhaled. My baby started to kick as I moved around finding a comfortable spot.
"Okay baby mommy is calm now. Relax okay my angel. I love you" I said rubbing my firm stomach. I laid there thinking about the event and how much I had to do. My mind was racing and I was getting doubtful of my own abilities. Stress was never good for me.
"You up?" Was all I heard as the door opened. Jason came in sitting on the bed as I looked at him. I was so stressed that I took my emotions out on the one person who always had my back. It was so much easier to fight and argue with someone who is truly in your corner cause you think they can take everything you dish out cause they love you. But I had to think about his feelings too. Jason was my rock and instead of getting mad at him I was supposed to confide my issues with him. Not against him.
"Yes baby" I said as he sat me up. He sat behind me moving my hair to the side as he slowly massaged my shoulders. This man knew me so well.
"I'm sorry for making you upset beautiful. I didn't mean to do that" he said as I closed my eyes enjoying his strong hands.
"No baby it's my fault. I came home with an attitude and I shouldn't have took it out on you. So I apologize J" I said genuinely. I knew better than to treat him like he was my enemy rather than my husband. He loved me no matter what. 
"It's all good. But tell me what's on your mind. You been on edge lately. Talk to me baby" he said concerned
"Baby I'm stressed. This event is wrecking my brain and I can't seem to get a grip on anything" I explained as he moved his hands to my back rubbing up and down.
"Beautiful you the most determine woman I know and you're talented at what you do. Don't doubt that baby. I know it's not easy but who can do what you do. Nobody so stop trippin" he said making me smile. He always put my mind to ease when I felt like everything was fallen apart.
"I know J but I'm just tired. I'm balancing work and home while I'm pregnant and it takes a toll on me every now and then babe. How can I fix that?" I said holding his hands laying back into him. He gave me peace like no other.
"Just let me do whatever you feel you can't. That's why I'm here. If you need me to make dinner so you can rest I'll do it. Anything you need just say the word. Don't let how you feelin fuck wit us beautiful. I'm your husband so all that stress and shit put that on my back so I can fix it okay" he said back to me making me blush. I was so grateful to be blessed with a man who was so thoughtful and caring. I respected him so much for doing all he did for me and his family.
"Okay baby. Thank you" I said relieved. Haley started kicking so hard as I squeezed his hand tight. "Baby rub right here. She's kicking me so hard" I said breathing in and out placing his hands on the lower region of my stomach. He caressed my stomach in a circular motion as I felt some relief.
"You why she kicking you like that" he said as I held on to arms.
"Why J" I said as he kissed my cheek continuing to rub my belly.
"She saying calm your ass down and relax" he said as we both laughed
"Is that right" I said yawning
"Yeah. She know her mother crazy already" he said covering us with the covers.
"Shut up Jason" I said smiling as I felt myself dosing off. "I love you baby" I said to him.
"I love you more. Get some sleep" he said getting out the bed as I grabbed him.
"Babyyyy where you going. I need you J" I whined as he bit his lip at me. Jason loved being needed and wanted by me.
"I'm letting you sleep. Imma go watch TV sexy" he said stroking my hair.
"Nooooo come to bed with me. Please baby" I said as he stood there.
"I like when you beg daddy" he said as I shook my head. He was always on some freaky shit.
"Baby stop I'm serious" I said pulling his shirt.
"Aight aight aight. I'm coming" he took his shirt off as he got back under the covers with me. I held on to him tight as he wrapped his arms over me. He kissed my shoulder as I dosed off. I was so blessed to have a man who put me first and took my feelings seriously. I wanted a man who would see past my flaws and not hold everything I said out of anger over my head. Jason was the epitome of a real man and I was gonna always be grateful for him. He was one thing I never took for granted.
End of flashback.........
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"Grammy cake cake" an excited Harley said as Jason mother was cooking in the kitchen.
"Say please angel" I said at the table nursing Haley. She woke up still not wanting anything but milk so I gave in to her and nursed her. She was still kind of fussy but slept majority of the day.
"Oh leave my baby alone. Grammy goin fix you a chocolate cake with strawberries and ice cream" Jason's mother said as Harley nearly fainted. She was in heaven every time her Grammy was around. She was always up under her.
"Oh gosh. Ma you goin have her bouncing off the walls tonight. She goin go home with you" I said laughing placing Haley over my shoulder. I rubbed her little back as she wrapped her small arms around me.
"That's fine with me. Harley you and Grammy goin have a sleepover" she said as Harley hung on to her leg the whole time.
"Ma you want me to help you clean up" I said getting up coming into the kitchen.
"Oh no. You go relax baby. I'm fine. Me and my sweets goin take care of this. Go upstairs with your husband" she said as I nodded my head.
"Okay. Call me if you need me" I said kissing Harley and her as I walked upstairs with Haley.
"Let's go see what daddy's doing baby" I said kissing her cheek as we walked into the room. Jason was in bed watching TV with just his sweatpants on. He looked so good as his chest filled with tattoos just glistened.
"What you watching babe" I said getting in bed with Haley in my arms.
"Ain't shit on" he said grabbing Haley out my arms. "Daddy's princess" he said to her as she curled on his chest. My baby was still feeling sick.
"She sleepy" I leaned down kissing her over and over as her little eyes got heavy. "My poor baby. Go to sleep. Mommy loves you okay baby" I said rubbing her back as Jason held her.
"Beautiful I been wanting to talk to you about something" he said turning the TV off.
"Like what J" I said playing with Haley's curly hair.
"Just wanna see how you feel. You know after the whole baby situation" he asked as I sighed.
"I'm okay J" I said looking down at Haley. I was okay with what had happened but it still hurt me at times.
"You don't have to lie to me baby. I know it still bother you. The other night I heard you crying when you thought I was sleep" he said surprising me. I thought he was sleeping hard. I didn't want him to hear me.
"J I'm really okay. I was having a bad night. That's all baby" I said wanting to just forget about it. I was over it yes, but I still wondered what if. What if I was still pregnant or what if they would've survived. How would I balance it all. Those along with thousands of other questions ran they my mind while I was sleeping.
"Come here beautiful so I can kiss you" he said as I moved my head meeting his lips. He kissed me so soft and gentle. His lips felt so good. He pecked my lips over and over. "You know I love you baby. You don't ever have to hide anything from me okay" he said kissing me more as I held his face caressing his skin.
"Yes I know baby" I said lookin in his eyes.
"Whenever you wanna talk about it I'm right here where I always been. Remember that beautiful. I don't care what time it is. If I'm sleep wake me up or if I'm at work call me and I'll sped home to you baby. Nothing is more important to me than you and your heart" he said as our foreheads rested on each other. He never made me do or say things I wasn't ready to. He eased my mind and allowed my guard to come down every single time. "My wife and daughters are my life and nothing will stop me from making yall happy. So whatever I have to do Imma do for you baby. Just tell me okay" he said to me
"I will baby. I promise J" I answered kissing him back.
"Lay right here" he said as I out my head in his chest next to Haley. Jason was my protector. My best friend. My baby. My husband. My diary. My heart. Everything.
"I love you so much beautiful. Always" he said making me smile
"I love you too. Always Jason" I said back. Even though I didn't talk about the miscarriage often to him. He still saw my pain. I was human and just cause I carried on with my life don't mean I just forgot about my babies. I had a special place in my heart for them and prayed about it every night. Without God and Jason who knows where I would be. When I was weak or sad or upset or stressed or even ft defeated I called on them. Life was constantly throwing curve balls my way but I had a strong support system and I wasn't going to allow the devil to drag me down. I was too blessed for that.