Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 102: Let Go....

Flashback....
"All done" I said throwing my dish towel on the stove. I left my office early and came home to pamper myself with a lavish dinner. Grilled shrimp pasta tossed with herb crusted chicken and roasted asparagus mixed in. I poured my glass of white wine and headed to my bedroom. I turned the lights off as I walked upstairs. My night was set. The Vow was recorded on my DVR and Rachel Mcadams was my favorite actress so I never missed an opportunity to get in my feelings over her romance movies. I hit the play button as I dug into my bowl of pasta.
An hour later my bowl was wiped clean I was on my 3rd glass of wine and my eyes were watery from watching this movie. It got me every time. I sat up reaching for my phone checking the time. As I held my phone I couldn't help but think about a certain someone. Romantic movies naturally put me in the loving mood but technically I had no one to reciprocate that emotion to. Jason and I were really good friends and I secretly liked him. A lot. A mean ALOT!  The crazy part about it was that I was starting to dream about him. Not a innocent one honey, I mean full on naked love making fantasy type of dream. I would wake up hot and bothered. It was that bad. I was about to lay my phone back down when it vibrated over and over.
"Speak of the devil" I said smiling as I hit the accept button.
"Hello" I said clearing my throat.
"You can't call nobody huh" he said instantly making me blush. Just hearing his voice made me feel like a little girl.
"Well first of all a hello would be nice. And second of all I texted you earlier and told you good morning and you ain't reply so I'm not the one with the issue" I said smiling hard.
"I did reply to you." He said confidently
"Check your phone Mr. Thomas" I said sure of this. I heard him put me on speaker as he checked.
"Aww shit. I ain't hit the send button" he said getting back on the phone as I laughed.
"See check yourself first boo" I said as he laughed.
"Aight aight....I'm sorry beautiful. I was wrong. That's better?" He said making me beam. His voice. His words his Ora was so what I needed.
"I guess that's better. But how was your day J" I asked turning my TV off.
"It was chaotic but I'm good. Yours?" He asked
"I left my office early and made myself a nice dinner. Had me some wine and watched one of my favorite movies." 
"That sound nice. But what I can't understand is how we been friends for a minute and you ain't never make a nigga shit. No breakfast no dinner no nothing" he said as I raised my eyebrow.
"Ummm I don't like you like that to be cooking for you" I said lying thru my teeth. I would spend all day in the kitchen if his fine ass asked me.
"Yeah keep fakin like you don't want me." He said as I laughed.
"Jason Imma need you to get over yourself. Quick" I said giggling
"Nah but seriously when you goin cook me something. Im tired of eating out every day" he said as I thought about it.
"What you doing Friday night" I said with an idea.
"Shit. What's up?" He said back
"Friday I'm free all day so I'll go to the store and make you a special dinner and dessert. Fair?" I said twirling my hair
"Hmmm dessert....I get a kiss is what you saying right." He said as I gasped giggling hard.
"Friends don't kiss Jason. I was thinking more like cake. What's your favorite flavor" I asked
"Besides Hue...red velvet" he said making me blush hard. I couldn't keep my smile down.
"I told you about flirting with me but red velvet it is" I said as he chuckled
"Aight. I'll see you Friday night beautiful"
"I'll see you Friday boo" I said hanging up. I was so excited.

Friday....
"Ma'am your total is 206.87" the cashier said as I pulled my wallet out.
"Here you go sweetheart" I said handing her cash. My cart was packed well as I wheeled it to my car. I looked for my keys as I felt a car pulling up beside me. I heard a born blow as I sucked my teeth.
"Ughhh people are so damn annoying" I said hearing a door shut. I looked up and saw Jason walking towards me surprising me.
"Why you look so angry" he said taking my cart.
"Cause I thought someone was blowing me. I hate when people do that" I said opening my trunk
"What you doing here anyway" I said reaching for a bag.
"My office right up the street and when I drove past I thought that was you" he said taking the bag out my hand. "I got these." He packed my car as I watched him. I wasn't use to having someone do things for me.
"Thank you" I said as he shut the trunk.
"So what you makin me" he said opening my door.
"Just some lamb chops with yogurt sauce saffron rice and baked zucchini" I said causally
"Well damn. That sound good. It better be good" he said as I started my car
"Or what" I said looking him up and down.
"You'll find out later" he said kissing my cheek. I wanted to melt "Imma run home to get out these clothes and Imma be over."
"Ok.." I said still high off my kiss. He got in his car as I shook out my daze. I got home and changed my clothes into some fitted sweatpants and a comfortable tank top. My hair was pinned up as I got in my element. Everything was cooking and I straightened up just waiting as the door bell rang. I opened the door as Jason picked me up squeezing me. I loved his hugs.
"It smells good" he said as I took his jacket.
"Thank you. It's not finish yet" I said as we walked to the couch.
"I ain't rushing you. I wanna spend all the time I got here" he said as I blushed.
"You something to drink" I asked getting a little nervous. It was just me and him and the vibe felt so intimate.
"Nah. What you nervous?" He said licking his lips as I rolled my eyes.
"Why would I be nervous" I said playing it off.
"Idk. I might make you nervous" he said moving my loose hair out my eyes.
"Well you don't make me nervous. I think it's just that I haven't been around a man like this in a while. It's new for me" I said honestly. Usually when I had a man around in my past it was just sex or something that wasn't important to me. I was scared of getting close to a man and them disappoint me.
"You my friend beautiful. Relax. I'm not here for nothing but your company and food"  he said as I smiled. He was so forward and gave me the most respect I ever gotten from any man.
"I appreciate that" I said loosening up
"Now I could use a kiss but I'm not goin force you" he said making me laugh. I grabbed his chin as I kissed his cheek sweetly.
"There. Now stop asking" I said I saw his dimples come out strong. I went to the kitchen and made our plates.
We ate and talked having so much fun.
"Now where my cake out" he said out as I cut him and me a slice.
"I got you." I brought his plate first handing it to him. "Here" I said walking back to get mines.
"You can share wit me beautiful" he said grabbing my hand as I swallowed hard. I thought I was dreaming.
"You sure" I said sitting next to him.
"Chill out" he said laughing seeing my nerves. I sat next to him as he took a spoon tasting it. I watched him wanting to know what he thought.
"Beautiful.....you a beast" he said taking spoon after spoon. I blushed loving his compliments.
"J we pose to be sharing and you eating all of it" I said with my spoon in my hands.
"I ain't forget you" he scooped a piece on his spoon putting it to my mouth. Was he feeding me? I looked at it as he laughed.
"Don't tell me you don't like being fed" he said as I looked down.
"Jason I'm sorry. It's me....." I said getting up. I was so damaged because of my past that I couldn't even accept his sweet and honest behavior. I wanted to just break down.
"Aye come here man" he said turning his head looking for me. I was headed upstairs but stopped when he called me. I slowly walked over to him as he pulled me in his lap. He cradled me in his arms as I laid my head on his chest. When my head touched his body I felt like nothing else mattered. Even though I was in his lap and people usually take that as sexual behavior he never crossed that line.
"Jason I-" he stroked my hair slowly
"Shhh cause I know the only thing that's coming out your mouth is something negative about yourself up. I keep tellin you about being hard on yourself" He was so right. I had to leave my past just where it was. In the past where it belonged. "I told you I'm here for you. Stop being scared of me." He said as I nodded my head. "I ain't going hurt you aight" I was at total peace. He rocked me in his arms as I held on to him. Before I knew it I was sleep in his arms.  I loved how this felt
End of flashback.......
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"Jasonnnnnn" I whined walking in the house to our room. I left my office after having the worst headache in my entire life.
"Im right here" he said in bed watching TV. It was his day to relax and I wanted him to rest. He worked like a crazy man the last couple of weeks so he earned this day to himself.
"Baby I don't feel good. My head hurts so bad" I said slowly taking my shoes off.
"Come lay down. You probably just tired beautiful" he said opening his arms for me. I climbed in bed with my clothes on as I laid on his chest. I was so tired.
"Did the kids have lunch" I said with heavy eyes yawning
"I took care of them baby. Go to sleep" he said kissing my forehead.
"As bad as I wanna sleep my head won't let me" I said rubbing my temples. This headache came with a vengeance.
"Let me kiss it" he said making me laugh. He leaned down kissing my head over and over. Being cared for by someone other than myself was all I ever needed. Don't get it mistaken. I have always been an independent woman but just having that someone who lets you cry or laugh or kiss at anytime of the day is something I can't do for myself.
"Thank you baby." I caressed his chest.
"You comfortable?" He asked as I moved around trying to find a comfortable spot. My body was exhausted. All I wanted was him. I snatched off my dress throwing it to the floor only left in my bra and panties.
"I wanna sleep right here" I climbed on top of him positioning my body right on his. I wrapped my arms around his neck resting my head on my shoulder. Now I was comfortable. The room was at a perfect temperature and sleeping this way right on Jason was the best place to be. It was no other man like him.
"I love you beautiful" he said over and over in my ear as he kissed the side of my face repeatedly.
"I love you more" I said with my face buried in the crease of his neck. I shut my eyes taking his scent in and not long after I eventually fell into a deep sleep with his hands rubbing up and down my body. It was the simple things that I loved about us. Whenever I needed a break from the world I knew when I got in his arms everything would be okay................
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"No start over from one" was all I heard as I woke up. I was tucked under the sheets tight as I sat up looking at the clock. I got home at 12 and it was already 6:30. I had a nice little nap. I grabbed a shirt and opened our bedroom door. I heard noise downstairs as I looked for my babies. Soon as I hit the last step Jae saw me out the side of his eye and went crazy. He made loud noises as I smiled.
"You know who your mommy is huh baby?" I said picking him up kissing all over him. No matter how long I was away from them I missed each one of my kids terribly every day. They ran through my mind constantly.
"Ma ma!" Haley said running over to me. I took a seat on the couch picking her up with my other hand.
"I missed you so much pretty girl" I said as she laughed.
"Noooooo me miss you" she said with her little palms on my cheeks.
"Let's kiss on it" I said smiling at her. She planted her lips on mines as I have her kiss after kiss. She laid on my chest as I cradled her and Jae.
"Ma ma me count" Harley said with Jason on the floor. It was blocks every where.
"Let mommy hear you" I said so proud. My baby was a genius to me.
"1....2......3.......4......5........6.......7......8..." My eyes were literally watering listening to my baby. She was getting so big.
"10!" She said as I clapped and cheered.
"Omg!!! Mommy is so happy angel. Your so smart" I said as she ran over to me. She was so happy.
"Da da help me" she said as I looked at Jason. He was the best father any little girl could have.
"Oh did he. Daddy must be very smart." I said as I saw him smile.
"Me smart" she said wanting all the attention
"You're so smart baby. Mommy has the smartest prettiest little angel ever. And guess what? Mommy's gonna get you your own books and pencils to write in. It's gonna be just for you" I said as she got happy.
"No for Haley" she said as I nodded my head.
"Not for your sister baby. It's just for mommy's big girl. Your special" I said looking at her. She was ecstatic.
"Soon enough she goin be in school." Jason said as I nearly had a heart attack.
"J can't we homeschool her?" I said never wanting her to be out my sight. I didn't think I could take her being in a new place without me.
"Nah she need to be around kids her age and get adjusted to school" he said in the kitchen. I instantly got anxiety whenever the topic about her and school came up. Yes she was getting old enough to go and I wanted her to learn as much as possible but idk how I could handle her being away from me.
"Jason idk" I said as her and her sister ran off to play.
"Beautiful you can't keep her at home forever" he said laughing. I was dead serious.
"Jason do it look like I'm joking. She's so young and what if she's scared" I said being over protective.
"Baby she has to learn outside of us. She already know her shapes and colors and numbers. Getting her in school now ain't a bad idea" he said as I thought about it. Maybe he was right. I didn't want to hold her back and how bad could it be.
"I'll take your word for it J" I said keeping a calm head about it. I had to get over my fear of letting them go. I was gonna be cool calm and collected about it..........