Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 52: Explain It

"Jason's what" I said in shock. His father left him when he was little and be hated talking about him.
"I been out his life for a long time and I wanted to reconnect with him but I didn't know how" he started to talk but all I was thinking was Jason was gonna be livid. "Every Sunday I see you guys walk in here and he walks right past me. The only one who looks at me Is that beautiful little girl" he said as I started to understand
"That's our daughter. She is so scared she has nightmares of you. She calls you a monster" I said as he looked down. He was scary lookin don't get me wrong but it looked like life got the best of him. His teeth were brown and his skin was dirty. He looked nothing like Jason.
"I never meant to scare her. I swear. I smile and wave at her but my intentions weren't bad" he said feeling bad. I still didn't know what to even think.
"Why didn't you come up to your son if you wanted to reconnect with him?" I asked staring him up and down
"I been on the streets for the last 10 years. I left Jason when he was 8 years old. Drugs and alcohol got a hold of me and I couldn't shake the habit. His mother wanted nothing to do with me and I was no good to him like that. So I left. He doesn't wanna see me" he said unsure of Jason's acceptance of him.
"Beautiful where are you" I heard Jason yell as I jumped. I had no idea what was gonna happen.
"Baby I'm right here. Where are the girls" I said as he walked to me alone.
"They with Mr. Glenn in the back." He eyed his father hard. He had no idea who he was put seeing the look on his face he figured this was the man who scared Harley. "So you the mother fucker scaring my daughter" he said moving me to the side
"Jason baby wait" I said as he waved me off.
"I didn't mean to sca...." Was all he said before Jason's fist met his jaw knocking him to the floor.
"J!!!" I yelled as he continued to beat the life out him. I grabbed him trying to calm him down as he looked at me.
"Who the hell are you anyway. My daughter is innocent and I won't let no nigga scare her. That's mines. You hear me" he said forcefully as I rubbed his hand trying to calm him down as best as I could. The man got up stumbling as he got his balance.
"Jason it's me" he said out wiping his busted lip
"Hue why the hell you tell him my name" he said still not turning his head
"She didn't. I'm your father" he said as Jason stepped back.
"Man fuck outta here with that" he was not believing it.
"Jason Vince Thomas. You was named after me and your mother is Heather Rose Thomas. You was born on July 7th at St. Andrews hospital. You was 2 months early" he said throwing out information only him and his mother would know.
"Like I said fuck outta here. My father left me along time ago and he dead to me" at this point I knew Jason knew it was really him.
"Son I'm sorry I left. I had a lot going on" he said explaining himself
"Hue let's go" he said grabbing my arm
"Jason don't you wanna hear him out" I said trying to help the situation. I know he was mad but he should at least let him explain. He looked like he been thru enough.
"Hue I'm going to get my daughters and I'm leaving. Let's go" he said again as he walked off. I was torn because I felt bad for his father but Jason was my husband my loyalty was to him first.
"I'm sorry for my husbands behavior. Here" I pulled out a couple 100 dollar bills handing it to him. "Get yourself something to eat and clean yourself up. I'll get him to come around. God bless you" I said giving him a quick smile before I walked away finding my irate husband.
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We got home and it was quite as a mouse. Haley was sleeping and Harley was playing with Jason. We had to talk to her about today.
"Angel mommy and daddy wanna talk to you" I said as Jason rolled his eyes. He was no longer interested in this topic at all. "Today you got very scared and mommy was so nervous for you. Tell me and daddy what made you scared baby" I said as Jason held her on his lap.
"Monster ma ma" she simply said
"Did the monster touch or hurt you princess" Jason said kissing her forehead
"No da da monster look scary" she said covering her face.
"And where do you see the monster angel" I said hoping her story matched his.
"Store ma ma monster at store" she said as I was relieved. I hated that she scared but I knew it was his appearance that scared her not his actions. That took a burden off my chest. It wasn't out the norm for kids to be scared of something because of the way the looked. It was like watching a horror movie and having nightmares seeing it over and over.
"Daddy won't let the monster get you okay. Imma always protect you from anything Harley. I promise you. Don't ever be scared of anything. Daddy will always be here princess" he said hugging her tight. His daughters were his life.
"Go upstairs and play angel. Mommy gonna make you some cookies okay" she smiled at me as I kissed her letting her go upstairs. She was such a good child and I wanted her to be happy all the time. I went to sit next to Jason as he got up. He must've read my mind.
"Hue whatever you about to say forget it okay. I'm not talking about it. So don't start" he said shutting me down before I even said a word.
"Jason don't shut me up okay" I said as he sucked his teeth going into the refrigerator
"Hue I'm not going to argue with you. You can have this conversation with your damn self" he said turning the TV on totally blocking me out.
"Turn the TV off Jason" I said standing in front of him. Whether he liked it or not I wasn't going to let him dismiss me.
"Hue come on man. Drop that shit" he said as I snatched the remote from him turning the TV off. I was not going to be ignored. "Fine you wanna talk then talk" he said looking at me
"Don't act like I'm what's bothering you J. You can't pretend like you didn't see your father after all these years. I know it hurts you baby" I sat down next to him as he shook his head
"Whatever that shit don't hurt me. I'm a grown ass man. I didn't need him back then and I sure as hell don't need him now" I knew he was hurt. His father left him to be his own man. He needed his father growing up and he up and left him. That would hurt anybody
"Stop lying to me out of all people. I know you better than you know yourself. Im your wife and I know how you feel. Be real with me" I said as he locked his jaw. He was so angry
"I don't wanna talk about this. I'm dead ass serious Hue." I wasn't going to pressure him but he needed to know that I had his back and I was there for him. He could cry or scream or get mad around me letting his feelings out. That was my job to be that person he could confide in. Me.
"Okay I'll drop it." I said as he got up and went upstairs slamming our bedroom door. His pain went deep and he never liked showing me that side.
I let him calm down as I made dinner and got the girls ready for bed. Jason didn't leave that room since. He didn't even wanna eat. I cleaned up and went upstairs opening our door as he laid there in silence. I looked at him not saying anything. I brushed my teeth and washed my face as heard there awake staring at the wall. I got in bed turning the lights on as he said nothing. He was in pain and I could feel it strong. When I went thru hardships with my parents Jason was the only one who held me at night and told me it was gonna okay. He was the one who stayed up in the phone with me until I fell asleep when I had nightmares. He protected me like no other and all I wanted to do was be that for him. He couldn't pretend like he didn't need my love cause I could he needed me a mile away. I laid close to him holding his hands as he looked at me.
"Jason you don't have to talk but I'm here for you whenever you need me baby. I love you" I caress his face as he looked me in my eyes. We stared at each in the dark as he put him head in my chest. I rubbed his head as I felt his tears on my chest. My Jason was crying which was super rare.
"Your human baby and I know your hurt. You needed him and he left. You couldn't change that." I kissed his head as he cried in my chest softly. "I'm right here baby. Let it out" I rubbed his back gently letting him be as vulnerable as he wanted. I was his rock like he was mines. It was nothing that we couldn't get pass or fix.
"I can't believe it was him" he said sitting up. I wiped his face listening to him. "All my life I use to think he would come back and get me. I use to dream about playing basketball and going to the park with him. Time after time he never showed up. He said he was coming back but nope. I missed him all the time. I got so use to not having a father I ain't think I could even be one. But seeing them little girls make me wanna be by them every second of the day. I can't live without them. They so special to me and I'm never goin leave them. Nothing can keep me away from them" he poured his heart out to me. He needed me to listen to him and just be there for him right now.
"Your a great father baby. But he didn't know how to be like you. He had problems and he couldn't be there for you cause he had to get hisself together. " I said to him
"Nah I just wasn't good enough for him. He didn't love me so he bounced." He was Breaking my heart.
"Don't say that Jason. Your the best man I ever met in my life. I'm not just saying that cause I'm married to you. I'm being honest. Your respectful smart driven kind protective and you love your daughters endlessly. I never met a man who measures up to you" I made him look at me cause I was telling the truth he was one of a kind and I was lucky he was all mines. "I love you so much J" I wanted to take all his pain away like he did for me.
"I love you more. I'm lucky to have you" he said making me smile.
"No I'm lucky to have you. Can I have a kiss baby" I said as he leaned in close
"Mmmmmuuuahhh. Your my best friend and the best father and husband in the world" he was beaming at this point.
"Thank you" he said smiling at me. I loved making him happy. I kissed him over and over telling him how much I loved him. I wanted him to know that he was just as important to me as I was to him. I know it would take some time for him to actually talk to his father but I wanted to take it one step at a time it had to be done.
"Come on and go to sleep baby. I'll rub your back for you" I said pulling him on top of me.
"You could rub something else" he said making me laugh
"Ummm no. Nice try. I'm tired and so are you. Good night J" I rubbed his back as he held on to me.
"Your my angel Hue. I mean that. Good night baby. I love you more than anything in the world" I was blushing as he got comfortable falling asleep.
"I love you too" I dosed off right along with him. It was nothing I wouldn't do for him. He acted tough but I knew what he needed most. Love. Just like any other person.