Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 71: It's Not What They Call You

It was a cool spring day as Jason and I drove to the baby store. This was our first boy so we had to buy everything new. I was super excited to buy anything I laid my eyes on and it was a bonus spending time with my best friend and baby.
"Daddy I'm so excited" I said stepping out the car as he grabbed my hand. I had on a short tight navy blue dress that stuck to my body's curves and accented my growing round belly. It got bigger every hour of the day.
"I bet you are. But beautiful I get to do the picking. I don't want my son dressing like he soft" he said as I laughed.
"Let's compromise babe" I said as we walked hand in hand into the urban baby store. Jen got a lot of Los's clothes from here and she told me I would love it.
"Welcome to Swag Born! How can I help you" the friendly young gentleman said behind the register.
"Were just looking for some clothes for our son." Jason said to him as he came around to greet us.
"Oh no problem. This your first baby" he asked politely
"Nah this our 3rd" he said proudly
"Oh you guys must stay busy" he said leading us to the boy section. I had my eye on everything
"Yeah somethin like that" Jason said seeing the shoe section. That's all he needed before he dropped my hand leaving me.
"If you guys need anything just give me a holla. My name is Chris" he said smiling walking back to the front. I payed Jason no mind as I looked through the rack of pants they had. It was all different types and styles. I picked up pair after pair as my hands got full.
"Hue?" Was all I heard as I turned around. The voice kinda sounded familiar. When I saw their face I couldn't help but mumble oh lawd to myself.
"Hey Andre. Long time no see" I said as he reached out for a hug. I gave him a half hug as he looked me up down.
"I know. You don't know a nigga number no more but it's all good" he said eyeing me making me uncomfortable.
"Andre you know I got married and have kids now. Things change" I said honestly to him. Andre and I use to mess around before I met Jason but I was tired I being "sex buddies" with him. I wanted more for myself and he had a girlfriend so I had all right to stop all contact when I got with Jason. I had to show myself more respect and Jason was the man I wanted.
"When you was wit o'boy back then it ain't never stop what we had" he said leaning on the clothes rack.
"Okay that was back then. It's different now. He was my past and things ain't work out" I said as he grabbed my hand
"You still look sexy like I remember. I miss fuckin wit you" he said trying to get closer to me as I stepped back. It kinda irritated me that he gave 2 fucks about me being pregnant or married.
"Andre don't even go there. What happen with you and your girlfriend anyway." I said trying to get his sexual stares from off me.
"She still in the picture. But I'm not talkin bout her right now. Wassup wit us" he said invading my personal space. I was not one bit attracted to him nor did I wanna have anything to do with him. Not in any form shape or model. Not today not never.
"Okay seriously let's not do this" I said as he ran his hand up and down my ass. I was pissed. He was still the same. Disrespectful ass nigga with no type of sense. At Least he could've respected the fact that I was pregnant.
"Get the fuck off me. I told you I don't want anything to do with you so move" I said pushing him off me. He was unphased like I was some kind of joke.
"Still tryin play hard to get. I bet you won't say shit if I fuck you" he said pulling at my dress. He was being super aggressive and out of line. I need Jason and now.
"Don't touch me" I said as I rubbed my stomach. Jae kicked over and over not liking how I was feeling at all. "Calm down baby. Mommy's okay" I whispered as Andre laughed
"I could've been the father of your kids if you would've let me hit that raw" he said as I stepped back. Did he loose his whole mind.
"Excuse me. Boy please. That wouldn't never happen. Don't speak of my kids okay" I said getting angry. He was crossing the line.
"Oh you can't take a joke no more. Ma you use to be cool as shit. You fallin off" he said like I was supposed to be the same way as a mother and a wife.
"No I grew up. Now move for the last time" he had me in a corner so I couldn't move.
"Who you think you fooling. You that same bitch who let me fuck whenever I wanted to with no excuses. You got on your knees when I said so. Don't act brand new. Ain't shit change slut." He said as I slapped him right across his face. I was young and stupid when I did that but I had to learn from my own mistakes and I didn't need nobody throwing it in my face.
"Fuck you Andre." I said pushing him to the ground.
"Call me like you always do bitch. I can use some pussy" he said as I walked out the store embarrassed. My past was my past and I knew I was better than that now. I didn't want Jason to hear that about me. He knew I wasn't perfect but I was still ashamed of the person I use to be. I never wanted to revisit that cause I didn't love myself at that time. This was kinda humiliating for me. I sat in the car waiting for Jason. I didn't even wanna go back in. I was so mad. I had to relax before he came out and detected anything. I wiped my eyes as I took a deep breath. My shopping trip was completely ruined. I sat there thinking as the car door opened.
"Beautiful why you in the car. I was looking for you in the store" he said getting in empty handed.
"I don't feel like shopping anymore J" I said laying back in my chair.
"What? You was excited like an hour ago. What changed?" He said confused. He was actually enjoying shopping for his son but I wasn't in the mood.
"Jason I just wanna go home okay" I said calmly. I felt so violated and dirty.
"Hue look at me. What happened?" He said as I looked at the window. Clearly he didn't see or hear the altercation. I got quiet as he turned my head towards him.
"Baby talk to me" he said stroking my cheek. I couldn't help but cry a little
"Nothing. Let's go" I said throwing my shades on. I felt low. It made me sick to even think about how I allowed myself to be so degraded and weak years ago. It just didn't sit right with me.
"Beautiful don't shut down on me. Did someone hurt you. Tell me and I'll handle it. Just say something baby" he said asking over and over as I lost it.
"Damn it Jason I wanna go HOME!!" I said as he looked shocked. I was so wrong for taking that out on him.
"Aight" he said simply pulling out the parking space. The whole ride was quiet on the way home. I couldn't even think. I had to relax and think straight. I didn't need this and Jason didn't deserve it either. My old demons was fighting for a spot back in my life and I was just not having it.
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I got out the shower as Jason watched TV in bed. We haven't said a word to each other since we left the store. I felt so bad for yelling at him and I needed to apologize. I lotioned my body pulling over a fitted t-shirt on my naked body. I crawled in bed cuddling close to him as he opened his arms for me to lay on him. This man loved me no matter what.
"You goin talk to me now instead of yelling baby" he said rubbing my back. I sighed heavily looking up at him.
"I'm sorry for that J. I was upset and I should've handles it better. Forgive me" I said looking into his eyes.
"You can do no wrong in my eyes beautiful. It's all good" he said kissing my forehead. I wished he was the only man I ever slept with in my life. If I would've known I was gonna have him I would've definitely waited. "Now tell me why you got mad" he said as I sat up.
"J promise you won't get mad or wanna do anything crazy" I said holding his hands tight.
"Hue what the fuck happened" he said growing concerned
"Jason promise me" I said again as he sucked his teeth.
"Nah I ain't promising shit until you tell me. Who hurt you Hue?" He said so serious. He never took anything lightly when it came to me.
"Baby...I ummm saw an old friend of mines while we were shopping" I said looking down
"Old friend like who. You gotta be more specific baby" he said making me look at him.
"Andre" I said in a low voice.
"Andre. Who the fuck is he?" He said clueless
"Remember a couple years ago when we got into that argument cause you looked through my phone and saw this guy texting me"I said hoping to jog his memory. He sat there saying his mane over and over until it finally hit him.
"I member. Keep going" he said staring at me hard.
"Well J he asked why I didn't call him anymore and he touched me when I told him to leave me alone. Than he had me backed in a corner and called me a slut saying I got my knees for him anytime in front of everybody watching. I left cause I was embarrassed" Jason was dead quiet as he nodded his head.
"How he touch you" he said grabbing his phone.
"On my ass when I told him no" I said quietly. I was so scared of what he was gonna do. He got up as he threw his clothes on calmly.
"Baby where are you going" I said so nervous
"Nowhere. Go rest" he said waving me off. I knew I should've just kept my mouth shut.
"J please just come back to bed with me. Please" I begged as he walked down the stairs
"Hue go back upstairs" he said looking for his keys.
"Baby" I said grabbing his hands. I needed him to stay in this house.
"What?" He said stepping into his shoes
"No please don't do this. It was my fault. I swear Jason. Don't do anything to get yourself in trouble. I love you please stay with me" I said pleading with him. He looked focused.
"It's your fault that he disrespected you and called you out your name. Explain to that. Then I'll stay" he said by the door.
"Jason I....I" I said as he cut me off.
"Exactly" he said opening the door. I shut it standing in front of it. I locked every lock as he stood there.
"I'm begging you baby. Come upstairs. We can talk about this. Don't leave me" I said breaking down. "Don't leave me please" I was an emotional wreck
"Aight fuck it." He said throwing his keys sitting on the couch. "I tired to help but you don't want it so I'm over it" he said at me.
"But Jas.." I said to him
"Nah if I can't help I don't wanna hear anything about it" he said as I got frustrated.
"Jason what do you want me to do. Let you leave and go to jail. Cause that's what's going to happen. Leave me and your kids for something stupid" I said looking at him. "Baby I know you mean well but that's not how I want you to handle it. I love you so much and I would die if you leave me." I was kneeling in front of him pouring my heart out. "I'm sorry I caused this. Iam but I should know better than to act like I'm innocent here. Yes I use to be wreck less and he called me a slut cause I use to act like one to keep it real wit you. I'm ashamed of that. I don't want my daughters to feel how I felt cause I did some stupid shit cause I was lost. My parents ain't love me and I ain't even love me so I did anything to be accepted but Jason I promise you that I learned my lesson. Harley looks up to me so much and it hurts me cause I don't want her to ever be like me. I'm nothing that she needs to be. I never want her to know that side of me. I want her to love herself so she won't screw up her life like I did. I love her so much cause I begged and searched for it. I pray everyday that both of our daughters be more than me. I'm not the best example for them no matter how much I try to run away from my past" tears ran down my eyes as my hearted broke for my babies and myself. Jason looked at me placing me on his lap. His anger and rage faded when he saw how much pain I was in.
"I just wanted to be loved. That's it Jason" I said crying in his chest. I went thru hell before and it was not easy to just erase it all.
"Shhhhh baby I know." He said cradling me. "I don't see none of that when I look at you. I love you cause your strong, beautiful and smart. Whatever you did before me is your business baby. I can't judge you" he told me as I held on to him tight.
"Everyone wants to make me look like a terrible person but I'm not. I'm just hurt. Your the only one who gets that" I said crying on his shirt.
"Baby your an amazing woman. And I want my daughters to be like you. Strong and ambitious. You never back down for anything and I love that about you. They adore their mother and all they know is that you will walk they hell for them and back. Those little girls watch your every move and say they wanna be mommy one day. I'm damn proud of that. Fuck what titles people try and label you. Cause you and me know what the real is. I married the best woman in the world and Id chose you over anybody walking this earth. I promise you that" he said wiping my eyes.
"You would baby" I said sitting up.
"I swear on my son I would. I love me some Hue" he said causing me to smile.
"I love you too. Thank you" I said relaxing.
"Let me show you something" he said taking my hand. He lead me to his office as he clicked the light on. He kept the door close so the girls wouldn't get in there by accident. "Who is this on my desk" he said as I saw 3 pictures of just me in small frames. I felt so loved.
"Me" I said softly blushing
"Damn right. I love seeing you while in working. You make my day brighter and life so much fun. I adore you baby" he spoke close to me. "I know you better than anyone think they do. Including yourself. You ain't no fucking slut or a bitch. Period. And if I ever hear you even think that You in trouble" he said sitting me in his desk.
"You don't wanna be in trouble with daddy right" he said standing in between my legs
"Sometimes" I said making us laugh. I was with the best man ever. I couldn't wish up a better man.
"Now you might be a super freak but I know it's just for me" he said rubbing my thigh grinning.
"Just for daddy" I said pulling him as close as possible to me. Jason always knew what to say to make me feel better.
"But Hue if I see his bitch ass it's...." He said as I cut him off.
"J forget about him baby. I need you" I said putting my hands up his shirt. I raked my nails up and down his abs.
"Aight. Gimme a kiss" he said grabbing my face. I kissed his lips softly over and over as he kissed me back. I licked his bottom lip as he bit mines.
"I love you just the way you are" he said in my ear as I shoved my tongue in his mouth. We made out on his desk as he ran his fingers thru my hair. I couldn't get enough of his lips.
"Can I kiss somewhere else" he said kissing my neck slowly. All I could do was moan. He unbuttoned my dress throwing it off my shoulders.
"I'm the only man who can see this." He ran his hands all over my chest " only one who can touch this" he yanked off my bra sucking on my nipples roughly. "And make love love to this" he said as I felt him kiss down to my stomach to my inner thigh. I was on fire.
"Mmmm J hurry up" I said growing impatient. He shook his head laughing removing my panties.
"Imma make sure that nigga know exactly what he can't have" he put my legs on each side of the desk bending my knees. I was so wet.
"Muahhhh Muahhhh" he kissed my opening over and over as I arched my back. This was what I needed. He started feasting on my flesh as I closed my eyes tight.
"Let me hear you baby. I wanna know I'm the only one who can make you scream" he said licking all over me as I lost my mind. My screams were all that could be heard. He went faster devouring me as I pushed his head further into me. I couldn't even think.
"Ahhhh daddy." I said throwing my head back. He was worth everything I went thru. To have him to talk to, kiss on, laugh with, make love to and have babies with meant more than anything to me. Jason was my best friend and husband. No one could take his place. Never.
"Tell me it feels good" he said on my clit as I continued screaming his name. He was killing me. I was losing my breath as I started to shake.
"Daddy I'm so close" I said weakly. He massaged my clit fast as I held on to his desk. I just knew I was gonna blow up. I held back as long as I could enjoying this feeling as I threw my legs on his shoulders releasing my self all over his face.
"I still own this" he said rubbing his hands on the front of my throbbing pussy. He was so right.
"Yes baby. You do. Only you" he leaned down kissing me slowly. He pecked my lips as I unzipped his pants.
"That's what you want" he said looking me in my eye. I rolled his boxers down stroking him hard. We never lost eye contact.
"Exactly what I want" I said not letting up.
"Damn. It's yours so do you gotta do beautiful" he said as I pushed him into his office chair. I knelt down kissing between his legs.
"You make me so happy you know that" I said licking all over him. He threw his head back as I took him in my mouth. I loved doing sexual things for Jason cause he was one and only. Forever
"Mmmmm I can tell I do" he said gripping my head. I went to work on him hard as he sat there in another plant. His mouth was open as he grunted out. No matter what time of day it was Jason got anything he asked for. I realized that all those other men who I use to think was the one or loved me really didn't. A real man didn't use sex as a control factor and sex wasn't the only thing that mattered when you had someone who really loves you. It was a big factor with us but our love was real. I knew Jason didn't just want sex from me. He called me in the middle of the day just to say hey baby I'm thinking about you. When I felt unattractive he would tell me I'm beautiful no matter what. When I was sad he kissed my lips making me feel better. Or when I thought the world was against me he would whisper I love you more than I did a minute ago just to see that smile on my face. He was the realist man I ever met and if I had to make those mistakes with little boys to get my man hey it was worth it.
"Let's go start round 2" he said picking me up carrying me upstairs at full speed
"Omg your gonna drop me slow down baby" I said laughing. My joy existed from him.
"No more talking" he said laying me down.
"But" I said as covered my lips with his kissing me.
"Be quiet okay. I know what I'm doing " he said making me blush. I nodded my head obeying him. Jason Vince Thomas was the only man who could take over my mind. Melt my heart and shock my soul. Everyone else was irreverent. It was all about me and him. Forever and Always