Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 58: Stay With Me

Flashback......
"Jason your cheating!" I said as we played uno on the living room floor. We had just moved in together and I enjoyed having him around all day and night. I loved me some Jason.
"I swear I'm not cheating beautiful. You always say I'm cheating when you lose." He said laughing as I shook my head.
"That's cause you always are. Stand up" I said knowing he had slashed away somewhere under him.
"Why I gotta stand up. You don't believe me. Look at this face would I lie to you" he said as I laughed.
"Umm yeah whatever. Up Mr. Thomas" I said as he slowly got up. Card after card fell to the ground as he stood all the way up.
"My point exactly" I said grabbing the cards smiling as I put them back in the box. Jason was so much fun to be around and I loved the fact that I had a best friend and a boyfriend all in one.
"Aight aight aight. So I did cheat. But that's cause you beat me like 20 times." He said as I laughed.
"Fair and square" I said kissing his lips quickly as I got up.
"Nah you probably cheated too. What's in your shirt" he said cracking me up.
"Nothing baby. I don't cheat" I said to him as he rubbed his hands together
"No let me check" he said coming towards me putting his hands up my shirt. He felt around finding nothing.
"Find what you looking for J" I said as he reached inside my bra squeezing my breast.
"Oh yeah" he said as I smacked his hand
"See those have nothing to do with with you trying to find" I said grinning at him as I walked upstairs to my room. I pulled my bun out my hair and changed my clothes.
"Beautiful throw me my brush" he said as I threw it to him across the room. Having Jason permanently living with me made me so happy. He relaxed me and eased my mind all the time. He was filling so many voids in my life. I got in bed as he finished in the bathroom. I turned the TV on flipping threw channels.
"No TV tonight" he said turning it off completely as he came out the bathroom.
"Jason are you crazy" I said looking at him. I always watched TV before I went to sleep.
"Only about you" he said making me blush. I was sucker for his compliments and romantic words. He got in bed sitting behind me as he pulled me into his chest rubbing my thighs. "I'm so crazy about you beautiful" he said in my ear as I smiled.
"Jason stop that's enough" I said not use to all this attention
"Why you always tell me that. I love saying sweet stuff to you cause I mean it. I can't help it" he said kissing my neck.
"Mmm idk just never had it before" I said holding his hands. Our relationship meant the world to me. I never met someone who was so interested and loving towards me. Never.
"Hue you know I'll never leave you right" he said as I nodded my head.
"Yes but can I ask you something J" I said curiously
"Anything baby" he said kissing my knuckles
"All my life it seem that I do things to make people just up and leave me or not wanna love me anymore. Idk what I do but that's just what it is. But can I ever do anything to make you wanna leave me" I asked seriously. I loved me so much and the thought of him not wanting me anymore was terrible
"I'm not just anybody baby. I'm in love with you. You can never do anything that make me wanna leave you. I can't live without you" he said easing my mind. Every time I got close to people they would just disappear or hurt me.
"I know I'm not perfect but I try Jason to make you happy. Well I hope your happy" I said laughing it off
"I'm happy baby. Always with you" he said hugging me tight. I believed him but I always had this feeling that something would run him off. I loved him more than anything but my paranoia was clouding my mind.
"You promise to tell me if you ever get unhealthy with me or don't want us anymore" I asked playing with his hands. I would rather him tell me to my face than let everything blow up in my face.
"That's not happening. I'm not your past baby. Imma love you thru anything. I promise you that" he said in my ear. I knew he was sincere
"Okay just remember that when you get mad at me for something" I said laughing with him.
"Nah you good baby. That's never goin happen" he assured me as he kissed my lips gently. Being in love made a lot of fears fade away. I didn't have to worry about him doing things behind my back or getting so mad at me he left me. I wanted to make him happy for the rest of his life. Nothing was gonna break our bond.
"Now can I ask you a question" he said to me
"Shoot" I replied to him.
"Can I look again for them cards. I don't think I looked good enough" he whispered in my ear as I bit my lip.
"Better to be safe than sorry" I said taking my shirt off with just my bra on.
"Imma find something" he said unhooking my bra as snatched it off throwing it on the floor
"Search everywhere" I said laying on top of him as he laughed.
"Don't worry I won't forget an inch" he said palming my ass. I was so glad to know that nothing could break us up. Nothing.
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"Ma you need some help in here" I said to Jason's mother as she cooked dinner at our house for me. I told her about the miscarriage but she had no idea about Jason not speaking to me.
"You pose to be in bed getting your rest baby. No down here trying to help." She said closing the oven.
"You I can't just stay in bed and let you do all this. That don't even feel right Ma" I said as she came over to me kissing my forehead.
"It don't have to. That's a mothers job honey." She said making me smile. She was hurt about us losing a baby but she understood and wanted nothing to do but help me around the house.
"That's why I love you ma" I said hearing Jason come in from work. It's been 3 days and he still didn't have nothing to say.
"What's up ma" he said coming in giving her a hug and kiss. He walked right pass me as I pretended to not care. He headed upstairs.
"Vince I know you see your wife sitting right here." She said totally lost. She never saw Jason not be affectionate with me. She knew him to be all over me all the time.
"Ma just let it go" I said to her as he shook his head going upstairs. She was damn near puzzled.
"Hue what the hell is going on" she said throwing her spoon down. This was not her son and daughter in law she knew.
"Ma it's nothing. He just upset with me right now" I said as I sighed. I missed my Jason so much but I didn't know what else to do
"Why sweetheart" she said as I broke down. I couldn't take it anymore. "Hue it's okay. I'm here for you" she said laying my head in her chest. I loved our relationship and that she say not only her son point of view but mines as well.
"Ma I'm the reason why we lost the baby. He is so mad at me. I can't even get him to talk to me. It's been 3 days. What do I do ma" I cried trying to talk. I was all out of answers. He never got this mad at me.
"Awwwww baby stop blaming yourself" she said as I wiped my eyes.
"But It was my fault. If I would've listened to him and went to the dr sooner. I would still be pregnant. I'm so mad at myself" I said trying to keep it all together but it was hard for me.
"Hue it's not your fault. Things happen and we don't understand it but we have to accept it. My son should understand that." She was right and I had to not see why it happened but try to understand that's what God planned for us.
"I miss him so much. He won't tell me he loves me. He won't touch me. He won't kiss me. I'm lonely dealing with this alone. I try and just give him his time but what about me. I always have to be strong for everybody all the time but I think I deserve it every now and than. Ma I'm lost and I don't want my marriage to crumble because of this. Jason is my everything and I'm sorry" I said so drained. From when I was alittle girl I always was saying sorry and blaming myself for things I had control over. I was tired of carrying all the blame in my life for everything. I was only one person and out of all people I thought Jason would give me a break and understand. This was not easy for me.
"Over my dead body will this house be torn apart. Not on my watch baby." She said going to the stairs. "Jason Vince Thomas come here" she yelled to him with so much seriousness in her tone. He came downstairs as she shook her head. "Sit down" she said as he sat away from me on the opposite side of the room.
"Ma before you eve" he said as she stopped him
"Vince you listen to me first. That woman over there is your wife" she said as he didn't look at me "she has had your back no matter what. She gave you 2 sweet babies and she takes care of you day after day. I won't ever tolerant you coming into a room and not acknowledging her presence period! I hope that's very clear" she said as he sucked his teeth.
"It's okay if he doesn't wanna speak to me than he doesn't have to. I'm done with trying to beg him ma" I said fed up. I was always in Jason's corner. Every bad time hard time emotional time. Name it.
"Begging me. Man whatever. Don't act like you the victim" he said as his mother slapped him across his face.
"Vince don't ever disrespect your wife like that. I raised you better than that. She just lost a baby and no matter how it happened she has to sit and deal with the pain and suffering. Not you. That happened to her body not yours. It's nobody's fault you hear me" she said to him. "Tell her you love her" she demanded him.
"I love you" he mumbled as if he was being forced. There my feelings go again getting stomped on.
"I can't take it. I can't take it" his mother said crying going upstairs. She never saw us like this and it was breaking her heart. We sat in silence just looking at the wall. I had to say something.
"Jason you really don't love me anymore" I said looking at him. He didn't say anything to me. My heart broke.
"Okay well here's your ring" I said taking it off my finger throwing it at him. I was sick I being treated like I killed my baby on purpose. I had feelings just like him.
"Put it back on" he said putting it on the coffee table.
"You can't even say you love me so why should I. You been ignoring me for days. I always said if you fall out of love with me just say something. I know is losing this baby was hard but they way you acting is just crazy. I said sorry a million times Jason. I asked you to forgive me and you say nothing. If you don't want me anymore because of this then just say it. Okay. I'm sick of you making me feel like criminal. I MISCARRIED OUR BABY OKAY!! Are you happy now Jason" I yelled at him storming outside slamming the front door. I was done with the cold shoulder. I sat on the stairs and cried my eyes out. I had to forgive myself first. I knew that I had to pray and understand why this happened for my understanding not his. It had to be for Hue.
"Can I join you" Jason said coming outside.
"Jason do whatever you want" I said to him.
"I'm sorry for blaming you Hue" he said shocking me.
"Don't say your sorry if you not. I don't need no pity Jason" I said wanting his apology to be sincere.
"I'm serious. I was dead ass wrong. I shouldn't have did you like that. I was just made that you didn't listen to me and that you hid all that stuff from me. We pose to be best friends and you just left me in the dark. That hurt me Hue." He said slowly grabbing my hand.
"Jason I know I should've told you. I know how bad you want more babies but I honestly didn't think I was pregnant so that's why I didn't go check but your my husband and even if I thought I wasn't I could've check. That was wrong on my part but J you was foul. No I love yous no kisses no nothing. You k ow you the only person who make me feel loved and you too that all away from me for a mistake I made. That crushed my heart so bad. My own husband didn't wanna even touch me" I said as he held his head down in shame.
"I fucked up big time and that's inexcusable. Baby I'm so sorry and I need you to know that I never stopped loving you. I can't stop loving you. I let me anger get the best of me. I just wanna be a good father to prove to my own father that I can do it. I took it too far and I'm deeply sorry for hurting your feelings. You don't ever deserve that. Your a great mother and the best wife any man can have. I'll do anything to fix us" he spoke as I listened. "I love you so much I love you Hue baby I'm so sorry" he said kneeling down in front of me as he cried. He knew he messed up big time.
"Jason come here" I said caressing his face. My heart never allowed me to be mad at him. I kissed his tears away as he looked in my eyes.
"I forgive you baby. I forgive you without question. Don't ever make me feel like that again. My heart can't handle it okay." I said to seriously
"I promise I won't. I beat myself up that I was too damn stubborn to love you instead of hurt you when you was in pain. Imma make it up to you beautiful I promise" he kissed me all over my face. I missed him so much.
"J you don't have to do anything but love me. That's all I need. I don't hold grudges with you. Your the love of my life and I love you for everything that you are. Your mistakes are minor to me" I said to him. I didn't want him to feel like he had to live the rest of his life saying sorry for something I know that wasn't even him.
"I will baby. Always" he said on my lips.
"Always" I said as we kissed passionately. I missed kissing my baby. He was all I needed. We weren't perfect but we had a lot of love to give each other. I held him close as he said I love you in my mouth over and over.
"We going to have another baby. If you want too beautiful. We can work on that real soon" he said breaking out kiss.
"I'm okay with that babe. I love working on them with you" I said as he smiled. This was the Jason I fell in love with.
"Oh and before I forget. Here" he said taking my hand sliding my wedding ring back in my finger. I didn't even feel right taking it off. "I'm sorry I let us get to this point but that can never happen again. This ring symbolizes how deep my love is for you. I'm proud to be yours and don't ever take it off again" he said kissing it as I blushed.
"I won't baby" I said getting up. I was so glad this storm was over.
"Tonight Imma do anything you need me to do. Anything. Ran you a bath, massage you, hold you, make love to you, feed you. Just say it." He said opening the front door for me.
"I want all that Jason." I said as he wrapped his arms around me.
"I got you Mrs. Thomas" he said as we kissed again. Our kiss got super messy as he shoved his tongue in my mouth and I sucked on his bottom lip. We were moaning and feeling all over each other bodies like we haven't seen each other in months. You would've thought he was away fighting the war the way we were going at it.
"J....J babyyy I can't make it upstairs. I need you right now." I said as he kissed down my neck ripping my clothes off. I couldn't wait another minute to have him inside me. I pulled him inside the laundry room as I slammed to door locking it.
"You need me baby" he said in my ear as I pulled his pants off roughly licking all over him.
"You have no idea daddy" I said as he placed me on top of the washer machine. He wasted no time entering me as I moaned out. I felt like 2 days was long over due.
"Kiss me again" I said as he pushed inside me over and over. We kissed aggressively as I held his face. I loved this moment for us.
"Mmmmm baby this just what I need" I screamed out as he went faster. I didn't care how loud I was. I missed this. I craved this. I desired this. From nobody but Jason. We were going at it and I was in heaven.
"I'm so lucky to have a wife like you" he said looking into my eyes going in and out. "You put up with me even when I'm wrong" he said as I bit his lip.
"Cause I love you daddy" I said as he sped up. I threw my head back as I held on to the shaking machine.
"How much you love me. Say it" he said as I arched my back closing my eyes.
"More mmmmmm more than anything in this world baby ahhh yessss" I said feeling my orgasm approaching. This was the best feeling ever.
"I love you till I die" he said releasing himself inside me as I screamed out for him hitting my peak. I sat there catching breath as he massaged my breast slowly as I arched my back more. This was far from over.
"I'm sorry beautiful" he said to me as I grabbed his face.
"No more sorrys okay baby" I said as he smiles at me pecking my lips.
"Aight. I'm so in love with you Hue Lyn Thomas. I'm always be here for you and I'm sorry to you too" he said kissing my stomach over and over referring to the baby. I rubbed his head feeling so blessed. God had timing for everything in my life and another baby wasn't it right now. Maybe not today but maybe tomorrow or next month or next year. Only time will tell. Jason and I were the foundation to our children and we had to become stronger to add more things to our growing family. I loved being married because it showed that yes we all make mistakes but when you have someone who truly loves you and you truly loved them. Your love can withstand anything. Not perfect but strong. Me and Jason were strong and took each tragedy as I lesson. Baby number 3 was here for a brief moment with us to make us stronger. Not everything stays forever........

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