Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 68: Step Up (part 2)

My baby: Beautiful I love you (2:23am)
My baby: Baby I miss you already. (2:56am)
My baby: I swear on my kids I ain't do anything with that woman. Baby please believe me. I would never cheat on you baby. (3:18am)
My baby: Tell me you still love me. I can't live without you. Please beautiful your my baby. I don't ever wanna hurt you. I hope you understand that I'm telling you the truth. (3:56am)
My baby: Goodnight beautiful. I love you so much. I'm at my mothers with the girls. Tell my son I love him. Get some rest. (4:21am)
Jason was blowing my phone up. Text after text and calling me non stop. I didn't wanna hear anything he had to say. I know he said he wasn't cheating but everything that happened pointed to that. I was damn sure of it. My heart was beyond broke. I never saw this coming in a million years. I thought he had more respect for me. We didn't rush into dating cause we were friends first and we when got married it felt so right. I knew Jason was the one for me along time ago but was I wrong? My mind couldn't even process this.
"Mommy's sorry for getting so upset" I said tossing and turning in bed. I couldn't sleep and neither could Jae. Jason finally got his wish when Dr. Adams said we were having a boy. He loved that name cause he wanted his first son and him to have names that match. His girls all had H names and my boys had J names. This was all we wanted.
"Jae go to sleep okay" I rubbed my stomach as he started to kick. Every time I got pregnant my babies would always kick early in the mornings for Jason's attention and he would kiss and talk to them until we all feel asleep. He was no different "Daddy's not here baby so please just relax for mommy" I tired my best to calm him down but I was not what he wanted. My mind was a mess and I needed to get some sleep but I was everywhere. I knew how big of a part Jason played in my life but sitting in this bed right now I realized the small things he did for me. I was so torn. A part of me wanted to call him and just say come back and let's talk cause I missed him terribly but the other part of me was hurt angry and scared. Just when I got comfortable with love and a good life it seemed to all be gone just that fast. I had no idea what to do. I turned my phone off getting a comfortable position in bed. I broke down with my face in my hands as I cried myself to sleep. Here I go again I thought to myself.
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I was in the kitchen making myself something to eat when I saw Haley and Harley run through the door. I missed my babies so much and they were just what I needed.
"My angels" I said bending down kissing them all over. I saw Jason come after them as he closed the door sitting in the kitchen quietly. I paid him no mind. I was still fuming.
"We're you good for gammy" I said giving them all my attention
"Yes me help gammy ma ma" Harley said making me laugh
"You did! Mommy's so proud of you. You deserve a prize angel" I said as she got excited. She knew that word very well.
"Ma ma me want cookies" she said jumping up and down. I knew that was coming
"Okay angel. Mommy will make you some cookies" I kissed them again as Jason spoke.
"Princess daddy goin put a movie on for yall. Mommy and daddy need to talk" I rolled my eyes standing up as he carried them upstairs. I sat on the sofa eating my breakfast and tea. I didn't wanna fight with him anymore. I was tired and all cried out.
"You need me to get you anything" he said walking back downstairs. He had some nerve.
"Nope" I said turning on the TV. As much as I loved him it hurt me more to act this way towards him. But I couldn't feel bad cause he brought this on hisself.
"Aight. How you sleep last night" he said nervously. I shook my head turning the TV up louder. I just wanted him to go away. The more I saw him the angrier I got. It was like all I could see was last night.
"Jason you brought the girls home and now you can leave. Thanks" I said coldly. We had nothing to discuss
"This is still my house too. I'm just trying to talk okay" he said frustrated. He was right this was he house too but he needed to just find somewhere away from me.
"Oh so Jasmine dumped you and now you wanna talk to me" I said smartly. I wanted him to hurt just like me.
"Hue you foul man." He sat across from me rubbing his face.
"I'm foul? Jason I never fucked another nigga while I was dating you or married to you so don't turn this on me" I said back
"And I can say the same. I never cheated on you. Never. You know me better than that" I couldn't help but laugh
"Jason think about this. If I was turning you down and didn't wanna have sex anymore and talking in private at all hours of the night and on top of that having a nigga call my phone all night. What would you think?" I asked as he got quiet. He knew he was wrong.
"My point exactly so don't give me that I never did shit story. I'm not stupid. All you had to say is you don't wanna be together anymore instead of planning it behind my back" I said as all my insecurities started resurfacing.
"I will never say that cause I love being with you. I love you and only you. I'm sorry okay. I'm sorry but you have to believe me" he pleaded with me.
"No I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I trusted you with my heart and thought I finally had a man who loves me. I'm sorry that I gave you so much of me that you played on my heart. I'm sorry that my kids will have a broken home cause I was too busy being so in love I didn't see that I wasn't wanted anymore. So it's all good Jason. I been thru enough shit to know that I can do this on my own" I said hurting him to the core. I meant every word. He hurt me and clearly he didn't understand what that did to me
"That's how you feel. So I was a mistake or something?" He said hurt. I knew it.
"No I was your mistake. You should've just left me broken and alone like I was before I met you. Instead you build me up so high to knock me down. So good job Jason. Good job. You broke my heart and hurt my feelings. Happy Now" I held my tears getting up off the couch. I felt like I was a little girl again. Helpless and having no one. Jason sat on the sofa with his head down as I went upstairs. I spoke my piece and I was done. I wasn't going to beg for anyone to love me. He made his choice and now I know.
I walked to my room as I saw my angels sleeping. I couldn't help but cry. I made them out of love and was that all a lie. As hurt as I was I had to be strong for them. They were my responsibility and when I felt like I couldn't do anything they gave me strength. It was no excuse when it came to them. I got in bed covering my face crying. I know I shouldn't have said what I said to Jason but when your hurt you say whatever you feel. As I laid there I felt him come in the room sitting next to me.
"Beautiful I love you" he said wrapping his arms around me. His touch felt so good but I couldn't just fall back into his arms.
"Don't say that! You don't love me anymore." I sobbed not moving his hands. He kissed my neck over and over whispering I love you as I cried.
"When I would leave you late at night it wasn't to cheat baby." He said rubbing my back
"Then what was it for Jason. You killing me okay. Tell me the truth cause I won't ask anymore after this. If you truly love me just say it" I said looking into his eyes. I wanted to know. He sighed as he started to talk.
"Jasmine is someone I use to talk to before I met you. We messed around for like a year nothing serious. I ain't talk to her in years after and she called me out the blue a week ago saying I had a son and he needs this and that" my mouth dropped as I thought I heard wrong.
"Jason" I said rubbing my temples. This was not what I wanted to hear.
"Baby I swear I ain't know nothing about this till last week. I haven't seen her in 7 years and here she come saying I got a child. I ain't know what to do. She brought this little boy to my office and I couldn't just say get out. I know how it is growing up without a father so I couldn't do that to him. Every time I left it was to see him." He explained as my head spinned.
"Why didn't you tell me? I'm your wife and that's something I needed to know" I asked
"I couldn't tell you cause I knew it would stress you out. I'm not losing my son with you over no bullshit. Especially if I don't know if it's true. I got a DNA test so it won't be long till I found out but baby Im telling you the truth. You and my family come before anything and I had to keep that to myself. I'm handling it beautiful" he said to me. I felt better knowing he wasn't having an affair but a child. That was crazy.
"Jason you can tell me anything. I tell you that every day. I won't get mad or judge you baby. I have your back through anything. Your my husband. Am I happy about this. Not at all. But you could have told me." I said back.
"Hue I couldn't. I kinda felt like if you did know you might leave me. This a lot to handle and I don't ever wanna make you deal with anything that I caused. It's not fair to you" all my anger and hurt instantly disappeared. I heard what he said and I believed every word. I loved this man so much and I was a fool to believe he would do me dirty. I had to let him know how that he could tell me anything.
"Baby I could never leave you. As mad as I was last night. Soon as I laid my head down all I could think about was you. I was convinced you cheated on me and still I wanted you. I know I said some hurtful things but baby I love you and I was angry. Forgive me for not listening to you and not trusting in you enough. I was wrong" I took his hand meaning that. I attacked his character and made him into something he wasn't. No matter what I should've took a deep breath and talk it out. Yelling and screaming got nothing solved cause I couldn't hear him and he couldn't hear me. We all make mistakes and both us were wrong. Period.
"Beautiful you have nothing to be sorry for. I should've been a man and told you. I let that situation stress me out to the point that I took it out on you. You ain't deserve that and I want you to forgive me. I was dead ass wrong and I hurt your feelings. That was never my intention cause I wanted to protect your heart but I broke it instead. I'm so sorry beautiful" he was so genuine and sincere.
"Baby I forgive you but don't ever hide anything from me again. I can handle whatever it is that comes against us. Trust me when I tell you that I got your back. Your my best friend and can't nobody get between that. Always keep it 100 with me Jason." He smiled as I spoke. He flipped me on my back as he hovered over me.
"Can I make this up to you beautiful" he said in my ear as I melted. He missed my lips with so much passion as I held his face. I needed this. "I missed my baby so much. I want you and no one else. I promise beautiful" he kissed my neck as he spoke "I promise to always love you" he kissed me again as I closed my eyes "I'm sorry baby. I'm sorry. Your my everything"
"No more sorry J. I know the truth and Imma have a nice talk with ms Jasmine but for now let's just make love. I love you" I said to him as he went to work on my body. I was so grateful that this was just a huge misunderstanding. My Jason was still all mines. Now as far as this little boy and this woman I was gonna take care of this personally. No human on this earth was gonna just pop up and fuck wit my husbands mind. No one. So I was gonna step in and do what he couldn't. Hue Lyn Thomas was not the one to be played especially when it affected my entire family. I was goin make that real clear.