Just Be Patient (Urban Story)

Chapter 112:Hard Times & Honesty

Flashback......
"Ugh I can't...." I flushed the toilet trying to stand up straight. This was my third time waking up out my sleep and I was becoming miserable.
"Beautiful" I heard Jason say half asleep looking for me.
"I'm coming baby" I rinsed my mouth and shut the lights off. Jason was sitting up holding the covers back for me.
"You still getting sick?" He said as I laid down letting my hair spread all over the pillow.
"J idk how much of this I can take. I'm having morning and night sickness constantly. I'm miserable" I expressed as I started to get frustrated. I was in my second trimester with our first baby and I should've been past this phase already. I was having a extremely hard time adjusting my body to pregnancy.
"What can I do to help baby. Tell me" his plea was going in one ear and out the other. Tonight was not my night.
"Jason I don't know! I don't know okay. I'm so fucking exhausted Jason. I can't eat, I can't sleep. I can't do shit" I said exploding on him. I reached my breaking point tonight. He moved closer to me rubbing my growing stomach calmly.
"Shhhhh baby" he said in my ear as I cried.
"Jason I prayed for God to allow me to have a baby so bad. It was all I wanted and I don't wanna complain but it's hard Jason. So hard. I never thought it would be like this" I was so grateful and blessed to be having this baby and I knew I was gonna love her endlessly but sometimes I had bad days which wrecked my happiness. It was so up and down and I hated it.
"Beautiful we both wanted this baby and even though it's a lot on your body but I know you can handle it baby. I'm right here wit you" I was so glad that I wasn't going through this all on my own. Jason was my support system and without him I would just crumble.
"I know baby. I didn't mean to get mad at you. Im just tired J" I apologized for being so emotional. He was use to my mood swings by now.
"You ain't gotta explain shit to me. It's all good. My baby girl just like giving you a hard time. Ain't that right princess" Jason said kissing my belly as I smiled. Having a baby was so life changing for both me and Jason. This baby brought us closer than I thought we could ever be. Our baby was a complete blessing from God.
"Mmmm J every time you kiss my stomach she calms down. I wish you can do that all day" I said rubbing his head as he planted sweet kisses all over me. Me and his daughter loved his kisses.
"All you gotta do is ask. I'll do anything so you and her straight" I knew he was speaking nothing but the truth.
"That's why I love you so much" I said blushing
"And I love you more" he said reaching up kissing my lips softly over and over again. I felt no pain or discomfort whenever his presence was near me. I yawned just wanting to rest. It was almost light outside and I still didn't get any sleep. My eyes were so heavy.
"Come here so my baby can chill" he was so concerned about every little move I made that dealt with his daughter.
"She said she wants you to rub her Mommy's back" I said laying in his strong arms. I need some relaxation.
"Tell her I got her" he said laughing at me. Soon as his manly hands started to caress my back going up and down I was in bliss. I shut my eyes and before I went to sleep I said a quick prayer to God thanking him for giving us this bundle of joy to call our baby. I was so excited to be a mommy and no matter how bad my pain was I wasn't gonna let it get in the middle of my biggest blessing. I was already in love with her and I knew the first time I lay eyes on her I was gonna be head over hills for my angel. It was nothing that could keep us apart and even though I didn't know how to be a mother because I didn't have any good examples in my life, but once I found out I was carrying another human life my life was forever changed. This little girl changed me forever.
End of flashback......
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I was cleaning up the kitchen waiting for Jason to come home from work. The bake sale went great and with no surprise all Harley's sweets went first. I had so much fun spending that extra time with my baby.
"Sexy where you at" I heard Jason say as I shut the dishwasher.
"I'm in here handsome" me and him sent each other seductive text messages all day and I know he couldn't wait to lay his eyes and some other things on me but there was something I was kinda nervous to tell him.
"Hey" I said softly as we locked eyes not moving.
"Oh so now you wanna act shy when you was talkin all that shit earlier" he said to me as I stood there. My mind was somewhere else but I wanted to give him my affection. No matter what he deserved it.
"I'm not being shy baby. Come here I missed you" I said opening my arms. He came over and picked me up hugging me tight. I loved Jason's hug. They were so warm and firm.
"I missed you too. The kids sleep" he said putting me down as his hands found their way up my shirt feeling on me.
"Mmhmm." I said closing my eyes as he caressed my breast. Whenever me and him preplanned having sex when the other got home it made Jason super horny when he laid his eyes on me.
"You wanna give my mans some attention" he said anxious. He never beat around the bush.
"You didn't even kiss me first but you wanna ask me for some head" I said laughing wrapping my arms around him. I loved our friendship and relationship.
"I mean I want what I what but give me my kiss" he grabbed my face kissing my lips as I held him tighter. He rubbed on my ass enjoying this kiss just as much as I did. We kissed passionately as I moaned out. His lips felt amazing but I couldn't keep this secret in anymore.
"J wait" I said breaking our kiss putting my hands on his chest.
"What you doing beautiful. I want you" he said kissing my neck. I shut my eyes getting distracted.
"Mmmmm babyyyy.... I want you too but I have to tell you something" I had to stop him now cause if he got his way I wouldn't get a word out for an hour or 2.
"Come on beautiful" he said frustrated. Jason didn't like not getting his way sexually. "Aight. What's up" he said as I played with his shirt getting nervous.
"Promise you won't get mad and that you won't fight me on this" I said making sure he would just let me speak. He just gave this confused look.
"What you do" he said lifting my chin making me look at him. I was so scared.
"You didn't promise you wouldn't get mad" I said innocently.
"Talk" he said looking me square in the eye.
"Well ummm Melissa is spending the night with us" I said letting out a sigh
"That's why you scared." He said getting a bottle of water. "I'm just surprised you got her mother to let you take her" he said as I fumbled with the dish towel.
"Ummmm Jason remember I said don't get mad at me. This would be the part I'm talking about" I said as he shut his eyes.
"Hue .....Lyn .....Thomas" he said calmly not opening his eyes. The way he paused after saying each of my names scared me.
"Yes" I said quietly
"Tell me her mother said it was okay for her to stay here" I knew he was gonna be angry at me.
"Baby I went to pick up Harley and she was just waiting out there and when I went to drop her home she said she didn't wanna go so I just brought her here." I said ranting and raving. I wanted to get everything out so he could understand what I did.
"Hue that little girl is 4 years old! How the hell you goin let her tell you that she don't wanna go home. You the adult!"He said sitting at he table. I knew he wouldn't get it.
"Jason you don't understand. You didn't see the way Melissa's mother treated her. It's like she's a burden on her" I said pleading my case.
"Hue do you hear yourself?! That don't give you no right to take someone's child. You kidnapped that little girl!" He said yelling at me.
"Can you stop yelling. I don't want any of them to hear you" I said as the situation just spiraled out of control. I wasn't gonna take Melissa forever, I just wanted to give her a break from all the dysfunction. She didn't deserve to endure being treated like trash on an everyday basis. It wasn't fair and I couldn't allow myself to just sit back and watch it happen.
"Hue you do some crazy shit but this is by far the craziest shit you ever did. What if she call the police? What the hell we goin do" he said beyond upset.
"Jason I'm sorry. I just wanted to help okay" he was making me feel bad for doing something I thought was the right thing.
"Helping how? Tell me" he said as I looked down not saying a word.
"Exactly what I thought. Hue you can't go around taking people's kids. That shit ain't cool. You would be fallin apart if someone did that to you." He lectured me as I nodded my head trying not to cry. Jason was the only one who could have that effect on me.
"When will you realize everybody don't need saving like you did" my head shot up as my heart broke a tiny bit.
"Jason I said sorry ok and you know what I'll take her home right now. Thanks for having my back" I walked off over this conversation. He knew my heart so I don't know why he would think I had any other motive. There goes my good deed for the day.
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I pulled up to Melissa's neighborhood and parked. It was 10 at night and people were outside like it was a block party going on.
"Okay sweetie. Let's go" I said picking her up. Poor thing was half asleep and had no idea what was happening. I carried her and her bag to the front door as I knocked. I stood there and got no answer.
"You lookin for her mother Lisa" a man said to me. He was standing with a group of guys by the porch.
"Yes. Do you know where she is?" I said knockin on the door again. No answer.
"I don't know where she at but I know she ain't in there. Earlier I saw her and her little boyfriend leave with bags. She said she was going out of town" my eyes grew wide as I held on to Melissa tighter.
"Are you sure? Cause her daughter is still here" I said in disbelief
"Yes ma'am. But she do that all the time. Ain't nothing new. She usually just leave Melissa wit one of the neighbors" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. This was crazy.
"Oh...well thanks for the information." I put Melissa back in the car because it was no way in hell I was leaving her there alone. "Here's my number. When you see her mother tell her to give me a call" I said giving it to the gentleman who told me everything I needed to know.
"Aight. I will" he looked at me licking his lips. "You mind if I use it too" he said as I laughed.
"I mean go head boo. It's my husbands phone" I got back in the car as they all laughed. It made me feel better that I could keep a good eye on her for a couple days. Melissa was my responsibility for now.
"I'm sleepy" she said rubbing her eyes as I drove off.
"Miss Hue know baby. Just close your eyes and you'll be back in bed with your friend. Everything is gonna be okay" I said meaning it. I didn't wanna steal her for myself. I just wanted to make sure she was safe.
"Everything is gonna be okay precious" I rubbed her leg as I drove back home. Something had to change.
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I laid Melissa back in Harley's bed as she slept peacefully. I text Jason before I got home and told him what happened.
"Good night my angel" I said kissing a sleeping Harley. "And good night sweetie" I said kissing Melissa's forehead. She just looked so relaxed.
I hit the night lamp before shutting the door. I tipped toed back to our bedroom as Jason was in bed watching TV waiting up for me.
"She aight" he said as I changed my sweatpants.
"Yep" I didn't really have too much to say to him. I was still mad at him.
"That's good. I can't believe her mother just left her" he said concerned. I just rolled my eyes.
"Yeah" I brushed my hair in a bun getting in on my side. I hit my lamp as I laid down with my back to him.
"You going to sleep beautiful" he said sitting up against the headboard in just his boxers. I guess he figured everything was okay with us since we got Melissa situated.
"Yeah Jason" I said not moving out my position. I was irritated with him because of his comment to me during our conversation.
"We ain't even have sex like we planned" he said laying close behind me gripping my hips. I just wanted to go to sleep at this point.
"Maybe tomorrow" I unwrapped his arms wanting to left alone.
"Come on baby" he said kissing my neck. I could feel him pushing his hard erection on my backside. That was not phasing me tonight.
"Jason no. Just let me get some sleep" I said with an attitude. I wasn't in the mood.
"Aight what's the problem" he said backing off of me.
"Since I need to be saved so badly I would rather just be left alone" I said not holding my tongue.
"So you mad at me now" he said rubbing his face.
"Hell yeah I'm mad. How could you tell at me like that and then say everyone don't need to be saved like you. You make me sound like a charity case or something. And I just wanted to help her not steal her. I thought I was doing something good" I was sitting up at this point getting what I needed off my chest.
"Beautiful you know damn well what you did was wrong" he said as I cut him off.
"Whatever Jason. Leave me alone" I wasn't feeling him right now. He moved closer rubbing my thigh looking in my eyes.
"Don't touch me" I said pushing his hands. He started pecking my lips as I pushed his face.
"I can't kiss you" he said taking me for a joke.
"No you can't" I said sternly.
"Baby I'm sorry but I'm never goin lie to you and tell you shit that I know ain't true. Do you know how crazy you would go if someone did that to the 3 of them? Beautiful you got a heart of Gold and I don't want you to think I don't see that cause you know that's why I love you but Imma always be 100 wit you. If the police would've showed up guess who would be going to jail" he said as I sighed.
"Me" I said seeing his point.
"No me." I looked at him hard "I would've took that shit for you. I never want you to suffer anymore than you already did. And I meant no disrespect when I said you needed to be saved baby. I know you had it hard before me and you needed to be saved. Ain't nothing wrong wit that because look how you turned out. You're amazing beautiful. I never wanna make you feel bad for what you went through so forgave me of you took it the wrong way" I was crying at this point.
"I just didn't want her to suffer J. That's why I did it. That doesn't make me a bad person. You made me feel bad for trying to help. " I said expressing my thoughts to him.
"Baby I apologize. You always helping other people I just want you to do it in the right way. I always got your back so don't think I don't. You know me beautiful" he said pulling me close to his chest as I cried.
"I love you so much baby" he said in my ear rubbing my back. I was twisting the image of me and Melissa me as one person.
"I feel so bad cause I know what's it's like to feel like that. Worthless. Unimportant. Ignored. It's a lot and I was a child. No one Jason no one should ever feel like that and when I saw her mother it was like I saw Brenda in the flesh. Baby it was so scary" I cried more in his arms feeling like a child. Melissa brought back so many memories to me and my past.
"Aye stop cryin beautiful. I hate seeing you like this. Shhhhh" he said in my ear as I tried to calm down. He consoled me as I got it all out. Even though I was out of the situation seeing this little girl live it out made me sick. It had to be a reason why. As soon as that thought ran past my mind I instantly had an idea.
"Babe" I said as he wiped my eyes.
"Yes" I had his undivided attention right now.
"What if I talk to her" he gave me this crazy look as if I said something wrong.
"Huh"
"Just let me finish J. I think if I spoke to her maybe I can help. I always ask myself if someone talked to Brenda and showed her the right way would we be on a different path. Look at my grandmother. She didn't know any better and she passed it on to Brenda but look at me. I did what they couldn't. It wasn't too late for me and maybe I can have a talk with her to try my luck" Yes I know I couldn't stand her mother but it was worth a shot. Maybe she lived the same life I use and never had a chance to see the other side of a better life. Maybe Melissa was brought into my life so I could help not only her but her mother as well. It was far fetched but who knows.
"If that's what you wanna do beautiful I got you. Whatever you need" Jason said as all was forgiven between us.
"Promise" I asked interlocking our fingers.
"I promise. And I'm sorry I made you mad earlier. I hate when you mad at me baby" he said as I cuddled under him as we laid face to face.
"Awwww if you didn't work my nerves I wouldn't" I said laughing as we held each other.
"You tryin make have make up sex" he said cracking me up.
"Good night Jason" I said laying my head against his strong chest. I had a long day.
"You can't shut me down" he said squeezing my ass.
"I just did. I want you to hold me J" I repositioned my body on top of his as he got comfortable too.
"Jason I love you" I said doing off holding him for fear dear life. He was the one person who kept me together. Whenever life threw curve balls at me Jason had it all figured out. I couldn't ask for a better man.
"And I love you. Goodnight beautiful" he caresses my back softly as I shut my eyes. I hope I could do everything I thought I could.........
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"I can't believe your ass pregnant again. I thought the day would never come" I said laughing as Jen and I sat comfortably on the sofa. Jason, Jae, Frank and Los were in the basement doing God knows what.
"Girl I know. Frank did this to me." She said rubbing her stomach she was just as excited as Frank. They loved Los and it was only right to expand their family more. I was super excited.
"Bitch you had something to do with this. Let's not forget what I heard on my voicemail" I said as she gasped pushing me. A couple days ago her phone dialed my number and when it went to my voicemail her and Frank were getting it in and I mean in. She didn't even know until I texted her the next morning.
"You know I hate you right." We laughed hard as Haley came up to me.
"Ma ma me tummy hurt" she said looking so sad.
"Awwww what's wrong with Mommy's pretty girl huh" she climbed on my lap as I held on to her tight. I kissed her lips smoothing out her frizzy soft curls.
"Haley you spoiled" Jen said tickling her little feet.
"Auntie den" she laughed holding on to me. I heard Jae's faint cries as I got concerned. Whenever my babies cried I nearly panicked but I know if he was with his father he was fine.
"Go to your auntie baby. Mommy has to check on your brother" I stood up as she had a grip on my shirt.
"Haley I'll be right back" I said as she whined. She thought I could never leave her. Haley had her days.
"Ma ma nooooo" she cried trying to climb on me.
"Ok ok ok my pretty girl. Come with mommy" I said walking down to the basement as Jae's cries got louder.
"Man that shit was crazy. I ain't even see his ass coming" Jason said to Frank
"Jason I lost all my damn money fucking wit them. Never again" I heard Frank said as I laughed. I knew it had to be about sports.
"Excuse me Mr. Thomas why is my baby crying" I said handing Haley to J.
"He aight. Don't come down here ruining our man time" I shot him a look as I took my baby.
"Daddy and uncle frank ignoring my baby. It's okay big boy mommy right here. I know" he made noises as we looked each other in the eye. They were my life.
"Da da me tummy hurt" Haley said to her daddy as he rubbed her stomach.
"Let daddy kiss it." She lifted her shirt as Jason kissed it over and over.
"Does it feel better baby" I said sitting on Jason's other leg holding Jae.
"Yes no hurt" Jason could take any pain from not only me but his daughters. They adored him and it was nothing that he couldn't do for any of his ladies.
"Imma go change him and check on my boo. I be back man" Frank said going upstairs. This was like their second home. They even had a room incase they ever needed it. Haley ran behide him trying to hold Los leaving us alone with Jae.
"He sleepy" I said sitting back on Jason as we watched Jae fall asleep. Doing this never got old.
"When he get that milk he act just like me when I eat. I be ready to sleep" I laughed knowing that was just what he did indeed.
"Don't I know it. But baby Melissa's mother called me earlier. She said she's gonna pick her up today" I was alittle sad to see her go. She was with us for 5 days straight.
"That's good. Now when she get here don't be down her throat beautiful. I know you wanna talk to her but let her talk too" I rolled my eyes because he was always lecturing me but he did it because he knew me so well.
"Jason okay. I don't need you telling me how to act" I said laying Jae on the blanket next to us.
"I ain't telling you how to act. Don't forget I know you better than you know yourself" I hated when he was right.
"Alright. Goodbye. I'm going back upstairs" I said kissing Jae heading up the steps.
"Aye bring your ass over here" he said as I laughed to myself. He was so strong welled
"What" I said walking towards him. We locked eyes as he rubbed on my ass as I blushed.
"What I tell you bout whatin me" he said not backing down.
"I'm sorry baby" I said kissing his cheek playing nice.
"You must want something cause you ain't talking shit" he said as I rubbed his waist.
"I don't want anything baby. Don't insult me" I said as we laughed.
"I'll find out tonight. Let me get my lips" he said as inched my face into his. We kissed softly as our hands roamed each other's body. I sucked on his bottom lips as he played with my tongue.
"Hue someone's here for you" I heard Jen yell as I kissed Jason one more time. I knew who that was.
"Be nice" he said in my ear as I grinned.
"I promise handsome" I walked away as he smacked my ass losing me up. I was so ready to have this long over due conversation. I walked upstairs and saw Melissa's mother there in the flesh. My stomach was actually turning.
"Hey. Melissa's upstairs playing. Do you mind if we talk" I said getting right to the point. She rolled her eyes as if I was annoying her. I didn't even get a thank you or nothing.
"What do we need to talk about. You watched her and now I'm here to pick her up. End of discussion" she said testing my patience. I remembered Jason's words as I calmed down.
"Sweetheart you left your daughter for a man for 5 days and you think I'm your problem. You're lucky someone didn't call CPS on your careless ass" I was gonna be nice but I couldn't help it.
"I'm so sick of your stuck up ass looking down your nose at me. You don't know shit about me or my daughter so please don't pretend to care." I was getting so pissed because she was missing the point.
"Are you serious? If I didn't care I would've left Melissa there instead of bringing her to my home. My husband and I didn't have to do that but we did." I explained.
"You know what I don't understand about you. Every time I've met you you're always telling me what you've done and why? Everybody can't be as perfect as you okay. Look at this house. You have a man helping you with your children and I have no one so I don't need you judging me when you can't relate to me in any way. I been through too much shit to let someone like you look down at me so if that's all I'm gone." She started to walk away as I stopped her
"Perfect?! Sweetheart I came from nothing. I was thrown out like trash by my own mother when I was 14 and my own father couldn't keep his hands off me and I ended up on the streets. I fell in love with a man who used money and shelter over my head. Just like you I put him before everything even myself. It didn't get me anywhere but the bottom. I hit my rock bottom. You think all this was handed to me. No. I worked for everything I have." I said truthfully as she just look at me.
"When I had my kids it changed my life. They are my everything and I never let a day go bye where they don't feel loved or my biggest and important priority. My husband means the entire world to me but he knows that those 3 angels come first and it's the same goes for me with him. If that man truly loves you he wouldn't get in the way of you and Melissa."
"I love my daughter!" She yelled as I saw her eyes water. "I don't know how to be a mother and I do the best I can. She won't remember this time in her life so I have room for improvement" she said so naive.
"Your daughter told me that she didn't think you loved her. The other night she told me that she wished her mommy loved her the way I loved Harley. That broke my heart and she sees everything that you do" as I spoke I saw her start to cry as I went to hug her.
"I just wanna go. Melissa!" She yelled as she ran down. She didn't look happy to go.
"Mommy can I stay" she asked as her mother looked at me and wiped her eyes pretending to be fine.
"No. We're going home. Say bye" she stormed out as I hugged and kissed Melissa. I just hoped she heard something I said. I wasn't trying to tell her how to raise her but she needed to know I been through the same shit and that I could actually help. She didn't have to do it alone. Life was meant to learn and be taught by all types of people and situations. I just prayed I got through for Melissa's sake. Only time will tell.....