Bed of Nails

Chapter 176

He is here.

I kept looking at him. Tears were running from my eyes and rolling down my cheeks. They pulled at my chin. His blue eyes kept looking into my teary ones. I blinked at my blurry vision, and he was still there. He turned me around and made me rest my face on his warm chest. I buried my face in his chest, and he wrapped both of his arms around me. I was still finding it so hard to believe he was here holding me in his warm embrace. He didn't utter a word, and I didn't dare to break the silence. The fear inside me was stopping me. 

“Dad's words still echoed in my ears. He was happy to sign those abortion papers. He was happy to be free from both of you.” My heart beat even faster in fear. I closed my eyes, and more tears rolled down my cheeks. To this day, I still find it hard to believe my dad's words. Even though Erick never showed his face to me after that. My stupid heart refused to believe that he never loved me. He never loved our unborn child. But like a harsh reality, his signature on the abortion paper was slapped on my face, pulling me back to my senses. I still remember how happy he was when he found out I was pregnant. 

We were young and stupid but not naive enough to not take responsibility. We both craved love, which we found in each other. We both had a bright future ahead of us, and we still chose to keep the baby. Dad had refused to support me. He wanted me to choose myself and no one else. I left his house for good because it was never mine. I always felt alone there. Erick welcomed me with open arms. Things were not easy for either of us. Teen pregnancy is never praised in society. We faced so many clashes, but we stood with each other. Erick made sure I got everything. He started to work even harder. Erick has asked me to continue my high school when I did not want to. He encouraged me to complete my studies and never give up on my dreams. He told me to dream big every time I felt hurt after hearing people's harsh words. He stood up with me like my pillar. He had decided to take a year's break so he could take care of the baby once it was born. He was going to apply for college once the baby was one. We had planned everything. We had figured it all out, but one single night changed everything. In the blink of an eye, all my dreams and all my plans crashed in front of my eyes. Erick, who loved me more than himself, was nowhere. I waited and waited, but he never came back. After that day, life was never the same for me again. I had stopped believing in love and empty dreams. It took me so long to come out of it, and I was just recovering from my painful past when he entered my life again. Turning it upside down, and now my life is messed up again. 

I'm once again standing at the same point. I don't know what I should do anymore, but I am sure about one thing. I'm not going to lose my baby once again. I will not let anyone harm it again. I wrapped my arm around my flat stomach protectively. My head felt so heavy. My heart felt so heavy. I didn't know what to think anymore. Tears never stopped falling from my eyes. I don't know when I ended up falling asleep. The next day, I woke up feeling a nuisance, hitting me. I ran out of bed with my hand on my mouth. My morning sickness is getting worse. It felt like my baby was upset, too, after feeling my pain. I did not eat much yesterday, but I still ended up emptying my guts. My hair was pulled away from my face while I puked. His firm hand rubbed my back. My eyes stung, and my nose burned. He kept making soothing circles on my back as if telling me he was there even though he refused to say it verbally. My whole body slumped in exhaustion on the floor. He immediately held me and supported my whole body on his chest. He helped me wash my face and brush my teeth. He took me back to the room and made me sit on the bed. He wiped my face. He made me drink some water, and I felt slightly better after it. I kept my eyes closed while resting my head on the headrest of the bed. 

“Fergus, bring the breakfast,” I heard him saying on the intercom. I didn't open my eyes and kept resting for a few minutes. Fergus came after a few minutes with breakfast. I still kept my eyes closed because I felt so exhausted. 

“Eat your breakfast,” Erick's not-so-firm voice made me open my eyes. I was not hungry, but I had to eat for my baby. I exhaled deeply and moved my hand to take the spoon, but he stopped me. Instead, he started to feed me. My eyes moved all over his face. His face was still hard to read. I just don't know what's going on in his mind. 

“Open your mouth,” he said in the same tone, and I did what he said. He fed me silently while my eyes were busy trying to read him. I did my best to read his face, but his face refused to let go of that stoic expression. It was becoming so difficult with every passing second. He brought the juice from the glass to my mouth, but I refused to drink it. His brows furrowed slightly, cracking his stoic expression. 

“Drink it,” he said, but I moved my head no. I can't take his silence anymore. I want to know what he thinks. I want his answer because his silence is killing me. My tongue shakes, and my whole body fears. I asked him the question that I had been dreading asking him since last night. 

“You don't want it, right?”

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