Bed of Nails

Chapter 187

Grace POV

I hugged him tightly while he kept shedding his tears on my shoulders. I could feel the pain in his voice. I could feel the pain in his every word. My tears never stopped. We kept crying in each other's arms. I don't know how long we stayed like that. His body kept shuddering in my hold. I could feel he wanted to tell me so many things. I can't even imagine how lonely he must have felt without me. I still had Lilly and Sabrina on my side, but he had no one. How hard it would have been for him to cope with everything alone. How difficult it would have been for him to fight the guilt my father stabbed in his heart. How devastating it would have been to fight his demons when he was already suffering so much. Even thinking about his difficult times was making my whole body shiver. I would have given up on my life a long time ago, but he kept fighting till this last point. The amount of pain he was hiding in his head would have succumbed to my worst a long time ago, but he kept fighting all his demons alone. I'm so glad he didn't give up and kept fighting for him, for us, until this point. I slowly broke the hug and cupped his face. Tears kept running down from his blue eyes. I slowly swiped my thumb on his cheeks, wiping away the tears. He closed his eyes, and more tears rolled down his cheeks. My heart was crying with him. I took a deep breath and decided to ask the question that has been eating me up. 

“If I had not heard everything tonight, would you have done what my father asked you to do?” I asked in my shaky voice. I couldn't even bring the word abortion to my lips. My heart was cut into thousands of pieces when I heard my father say it. It felt like he was talking about some garbage that he wanted to get rid of before it started to rot. I can't even express the disgust and hate I was feeling for my father after hearing the way he talked about my baby. I don't know if Erick, too, felt the same thing about our baby when he came to know about my pregnancy. If he does, my heart will be shattered, and I don't think I will ever recover from it. He opened his eyes when I questioned him. 

“I would never do that,” he said immediately while looking into my eyes, and I knew he was not lying. 

“Really?” I still asked to confirm it again. He nodded his head with the same seriousness in his eyes. I took a deep breath of relief, and I didn't realise until this point that I was holding it. 

“You both mean so much to me. Growing up, I have always dreamed of having a family of my own. Which would be mine, and no one can snatch it from me. But when your father came with a proposal, he put the demand that I can only marry you on one condition, and that would be that you can't get pregnant. He told me a baby can be a threat to your life, and at that point, I wanted you more than anything. I'm not saying my intentions were pure when I agreed to marry you, but only for you. I was ready to let go of the dream of having my own family. I realised in the end it was you whom I wanted most, and you were enough for me because you would be my family,” he told me the truth while looking into my eyes. Now I know the reason why he always used protection. I had not expected to get pregnant on the day he didn't use protection. 

Why not? 

He kept fucking you bare till the next afternoon. My inner voice mocked. I bit on my lower lip. Now that I am pregnant, I don't know if I should feel lucky or not. After my first abortion, the doctor told me it would be hard for me to get pregnant again. When she told me that, I was too disheartened to ask her why I couldn't. I was too young to think like that. Instead of questioning her, why can't I? I drown myself in my miseries. I don't blame my younger self because I was too young and a motherless child. No one was there to tell me things or explain them to me because I had shut myself off at that point. Sometimes I wish my mother were here with me. She would have supported me, unlike my selfish father. I took a deep breath to make the heaviness in my chest go away. 

“Now that I know the truth, what should we do?” I asked him with the same seriousness in my eyes. Now I have understood that my pregnancy is not going to be an easy one. It will be filled with complications, or maybe not, but I want to know what stand he has in this. I don't want to lose my baby. I knew that for sure. He took a deep, jagged breath. 

“We will find a way together. I will consult the best doctor in the world,” he said with a reassuring smile on his face, and it gave relief. His words gave me confidence that he would be standing with me till the end. I was not alone. A smile formed on my lips, and my eyes glinted with happy tears. I bit on my lower lip, stopping myself from bursting out. As if he knew what I was feeling, he moved forward and engulfed me in a tight hug. 

“I love both of you more than anything in this world, doll,” he said in his heavy voice while burying his face in my neck. I was doing my best not to cry again. I couldn't hold back my tears when he said that. 

“I will never let even a scratch come on you both.” 

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