Today is the day of the funeral.
The whole palace and the village is bewail now.
Our... Or shall I rather say their beloved Valide Sultan died.
Herman was left without a supporting mother.
Our children are left without a grandmother.
And the harem was left without a ruler Valide Sultan.
By now I'm also sure that Hümasah Sultan sees me as an enemy to this place as well... But right now we're all silent as we're listening to the prayers of the priest while Herman is probably burrying his mother right now.
I can't even imagine how painful could that be.
Well, I mean...
I kinda know since my father also died, in my arms, but as a sultan Herman needs to stay strong, in front of the thousands of soldiers, pashas and others that are surrounding him.
I wish I could be there for him right now.
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Herman's POV:
This whole day is just depressing.
They told me to rest, but if I'm "resting" all I can think about it my mother and that I let her die in my arms.
How could I let that happen?!
How?!
- My Lord - I hear Zülfikar entering my room.
- What is it? - I muttered, sitting at my desk.
- Hümasah Sultan wants to see you.
I sighed deeply.
- Let her in...
A few seconds after he left my aunt walked in, bowing slightly before stepping closer to my desk...
- How're you doing, Herman? - she asked.
- Awful... - I sighed.
She sighed too.
- Herman, don't blame yourself... It wasn't your fault that she...
- It was my fault - I cut her off - I killed Dervish...
- Maybe, but you didn't know what was going on between them.
- But I should have!
I began to rub my head as from my own anger it began to hurt as well.
- I should have known about something so important like this... But I didn't know... And this is what happened...
Hümasah walked behind me and gently hugged me from behind...
- Maybe you should take a break from all your duties.
- I can't just rest when...
- No - she interrupted - I meant... Leave the palace for a while... Go to Edirne... Go out to hunt, or whatever to relax... And forget about everything for a while.
I looked up at her and she just smiled at me.
- Do something that makes you happy - she added - I hate to see you like this...
She then stepped away, bowed again then walked out silently.
Hmm... Maybe she's right and I should really leave for a while...
I don't know for sure yet...
But that might could help...
