That evening I got a rope.
Similar rope that's used for execution and I headed off to the old palace, where Safiye Sultan was living since she was let out of her cell.
In the meantime I also realized why Angie wanted me to do this...
Because Safiye Sultan trusts me for some weird reasons and she even called me over to just talk.
Same goes for Hümasah Sultan.
The last one caused Zülfikar to nearly kill me once out of jealousy, but his wife made him calm down once when I left them alone.
Anyway this is not the point...
The point is the fact that I have to kill a Sultana now and I can't turn back anymore.
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Arriving to the palace the guards opened the doors without any questions.
Sneaking in pretty much everybody were sleeping, aside from some guards like at the gate.
But at this time of the night nobody was standing in front of Safiye Sultan's room...
- So it's time, huh... - I muttered to myself as I quietly walked in to the room and closed the door carefully behind me.
Safiye was sleeping peacefully, not hearing anything at all from me coming in.
This makes me feel so bad...
But this was the order...
I took the rope out and wrapped it tightly around both my hands so I can hold it firmly when I have to do my job.
As I walked closer and closer to her bed I could feel my heart pounding faster and faster.
Once when I stood right beside her it was time...
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- Killing a Valide Sultan can cause me to be executed - I told Angie that night.
I honestly didn't feel like dying because of this, doesn't matter how much I love her.
- Don't worry about that! - she replied - You won't have any issues from this! I'll make sure of that!
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Hope she keeps this, otherwise...
But as I slowly leaned closer to finally choke Safiye Sultan my hands and my whole body froze.
I couldn't move any closer.
I was trying my hardest, but I couldn't.
- Goddamnit... - I hissed quietly as I stood back up properly again.
I can't do it...
- I just can't... I have to leave...
But...
- Of course you can't do how Kösem told you to...
I completely froze again when I heard Safiye Sultan speaking up behind me.
- After all... You're better than that... You can't possibly kill your own mother...
