I had a good time with Ryland. I liked being with him for so long. We watched a lot of Criminal Minds. I think maybe he doesn't like it, but he never complains about it like he does with other shows, and I really like it, so that's what I usually go with. Things felt different during the episode with the kidnapped attorney. He held onto me differently, more like I was protection. When it struck me why, I think I probably held onto him differently too, more like I was protection.
He started talking with no context around it and asked me if I would ever let his dad hurt him. Like it was even an option. I said no, because I wouldn't.
I think it's kind of spectacularly odd that I'm viewed as any form of protection. I can't think of a person who ever trusted me so much with their safety. Not that I'm the end all be all of security, but, just. Yeah.
I remember being in and out of sleep after the last Criminal Minds episode. And when I finally was awake-awake it was kind of ridiculous how much he liked having his back rubbed. It was really cute. Though, I have been told I'm really good at giving them.
I don't like the date. It's tomorrow. I'm, it's. Bad.
I don't know how much I like myself either. I'm not able to write it justice.
I wish he was here, so I could have someone to be sad with.
I can't really muster any more. Done.
