Literally nobody sent me a happy birthday message at midnight. I didn't expect them to, but I held out hope. And now that it's here it's even more devastating. I guess I shouldn't hold people to the same standard I hold myself, because I always stay up until midnight to try to be the first happy birthday.
Nobody.
Nobody says happy birthday.
It's worse than usual because I'm completely alone. I have nobody here.
I just went to the bathroom to open the card my mom got me because I thought it might make me feel better and it has Alexis written in it and then "AKA Leo (sorry :( )" written in it and it made me break down into a harder sob than before.
Ryland yelled at me because I told him I was upset he said he was going to bed 7 minutes before midnight.
I don't know why it feels like everyone hates me recently even my friends have been meaner to me. I just want to feel appreciated. I don't want presents. I don't want everything. I just want to be told happy birthday.
I don't know if I should wake Ryland up or not just for him to be angry at me. Maybe getting yelled at would be worth it just because someone would finally be talking to me on my birthday.
