Trigger warning suicide
5-7-19 sometime between 12 and 4 am
I want to kiss you so badly I can feel it in the back of my throat. I can feel it in my arms. I want us to be wrapped around one another and to breathe in your neck. I want my hands in your hair and your mouth on my mouth on my mouth on my mouth. I want our fingers together. I've never felt so far from you.
5-8-19 12:57 am
I am tired and suicidal. I'm too needy. I need to take a step back and focus on myself
My eyes are so heavy, I am so heavy all over. I just want it to end. I just want it to be over. I took my hands off the steering wheel tonight and I don't know what brought them back. I chose not to drive the wrong way on the interstate again.
I am so mad. Mad at existence. Mad at being. All I can think is how badly I want it to end.
12-23-21 1:22 am
How things fly by.
