The Great Gatsby is Kai's favorite book. I think she read it in Johnson's class. I'm sure I would like it more too if it was taught by him. But I'm being taught it by Ms. Leake and even with that... I still really like it.
Kai and I always seem to be on the same page. I've never met someone that understands me so wholly. I never have to explain anything to her, she knows every underlying meaning to what I say.
She went back to Florida today and I am sad about the distance, but I feel replenished after getting to spend time with her.
Anyways, The Great Gatsby is one of my new favorite books and even though we aren't supposed to write in our class given copies I started annotating mine. I think when I'm done I'll go back through and read it a second time. Maybe a third. Maybe not a third. Who knows.
Yeah, so, I'm considering making a whole chapter of lines from TGG I love. It would probably be a long chapter. I love the way F. Scott Fitzgerald writes. His adjectives and perspective and diction and syntax are all so entrancing.
Today in class I said that I wasn't rooting for Gatsby necessarily and some guy got all obstinate and was like, "Well WHO are you rooting for then????" I said that even though Daisy has her flaws I am rooting for her and her happiness, but predominantly I root for Fitzgerald. I know that he's the author and not a character in the book but he clearly finds a lot of himself in Gatsby and his wife Zelda in Daisy. So I suppose that I am rooting for Gatsby, just not in a direct sense. I am rooting for Fitzgerald, because he is the one that manages and exceeds in weaving these extensive and breathtaking sentences.
The way that he writes Gatsby's smile is the way I view Fitzgerald's writing.
I wish Kai were here. She'd like that I said that. She'd have smiled.
I really like making her smile. I reassess the worth of every aspect of me based on her reaction, like Gatsby when Daisy tours his home. So when I make her smile, and especially when I make her laugh, I feel like the second most important thing in the world, after her.
I'm in love with her in every sense. Of course, I don't want to date her and I don't foresee any future relationship between us besides friends, nor do I want a romance with her. I just think we are soulmates.
I feel like there's an ominous presence in my room and it's pretty late so I'm going to go to bed now.
Also, Ryland, it's possible to love more than one person simultaneously. I don't want you to feel threatened or jealous by this. You are the person I love romantically. You're my Ludus, she'll be my Pragma.
Side Note: Mallory was my Mania
