Sometime around 11:30 am, 2/18/19
I'm having a really, really good day today. I woke up super tired and when I finally sat up in bed I think I looked somewhat deranged because Alayna looked at me and burst out in laughter. I'm wearing my binder today and it doesn't hurt that much. I was late to class but nothing substantial had happened yet. I just really enjoy existing. Looking at things and hearing sounds is delectable to me. I've never been so joyous to hear the sloshing of people's feet in dirty snow crossing the street or the gurgling of some machine behind this wall. Every sight and every sound is beautiful for the mere fact it exists. I know that's a privileged perspective, but fuck it, I'm going to enjoy today anyways.
After class I went to Brownstones to work on homework and other stuff I have to do and I ran into Molly. Not the Molly you all know and love, but a Molly I knew last quarter. She asked to sit by me and I'm loving her company. She keeps showing me these horrible memes that someone from her class won't stop sending her and is yelling at her for roasting. I decided to tell her that whenever I see her around it makes me really happy, especially when she smiles or waves, because she's one of the only people from last quarter who doesn't hate me. And just knowing her in general is nice and she warms my heart. She was so happy to hear this that she started actually crying real tears and her face got super red and said that I made her day because this week has been so rough for her.
4:39 pm 2/18/19
Confusion permeates me
A being that beings lack the framework to grasp
Confusion is the essence of my thought
Merely a type of what is understanding
To what tune does action ring?
My heart burns brighter today
