Hello I am FREAKING THE FUCK OUT. I'm ovERThinking but aLSO added to my #cripplinglow self esteem not GOOD no t g oood. I FEE l like he's going to dislike me now because my kissing was badand that's okay I'd just rather he not lie about how badd it was because I don't want to be Peyton don't want ot be Peyton. if i was gross I'd rather he tell me . Also it's late and my dad is mad and I haven't studied for any of my three finals tomorrow and oh my god. He started acting weird afterwards and I don't know what I did besides just look at him but I couldn't stop looking at him it made me happy and he is so cute.
And THEN my car died and it was the worst oh god I had a bad feeling that was going to happen. My stereo is too powerful to run it with the engine off, my dad said. THank god for Syd coming to rescue me and save the day. I called them on my way home scREAMING about everything but thanking them too.
My phone keeps fucking dying even though it has literally 100% and is plugged in and it's the most fucking frustrating thing in the world.
I'm still overthinking every single aspect of everything I did and oh my fucking god this is the worst thing ever.
I mean, on the bright side, even if he does hate me now because I'm such a shitty kisser, at least I enjoyed hanging out with him. He's ridiculous. I love his hair. I GOT TO TOUCH IT. The first time I touched it he seemed weirded out though, which sucks.
Front Porch Step's 2017 album is too churchy. Dislike.
Hey, since I happened to change it to the old album beforehand though, Poison was on while we were kissing and when I was kissing his neck the line "But I still feel your breath across my neck, driving me insane" came on and I thought it was the funniest coincidence.
Anyways, yes, I feel like he hates me. I mean, most likely he doesn't and I'm just projecting. But I'm still aaAAaAAAAAaAAa.
