I've been wanting to post a good poem lately or something more than superficial on here but lately it seems that I haven't been able to tap into anything worthwhile and meaningful in myself. I don't know if it's just that I'm clogged with anxiety or the fact I've always struggled with half-decent metaphors but nothing is happening and I feel stuck in myself.
In honor of me being unoriginal and reliant on prompts, here are all the questions Ryland has posted that I haven't answered in return:
1.) Do you ever doubt the existence of people other than you?
- Sometimes I have the delusion that other people are part of an elaborate simulation being put on that I'm being forcefully subjected to. Other than that, no.
2.) On a scale from 1-5 how afraid of the dark are you?
- I'm not scared of the dark on it's own, but my hallucinations amplify at night and the dark makes me anxious of their arrival. Sometimes I also feel that the darkness is only thinly veiling whatever hallucination is already there. 2.
3.) Who would you never want to meet?
- A reanimated corpse
4.) What is your favorite word?
- Hoopla
5.) If you were a type of tree, what kind would you be?
- Geometry
6.) When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought of?
- I didn't look in the mirror this morning because I woke up at 3:50 pm. This afternoon when I looked in the mirror the first thing I thought was probably that I was a mess and need a haircut.
7.) What shirt are you wearing?
- An oversized blue Cubs shirt that I use as pajamas
8.) What do you label yourself as?
- I WASN'T wrong when I gave my analysis of the quote "Labels are the opposite of understanding," Ryland. I gave a deep and meaningful analysis that Mrs. Himmell would have been proud of and I resent your implication, nay, outright scorn of my perspective.
But that didn't answer the question-- We all label ourselves in potentially infinite ways. It feels rudimentary to list generic terms for the things I feel I am. I label myself as someone who enjoys the glass tapping sounds being played on Youtube right now.
9.) What were you doing last night at midnight?
- Presumably what it is I'm doing right now. Laying in my bed videochatting with Ryland and watching ASMR on Youtube. I found this new chiropractor channel named Dr. Rahim Gonstead and I really like his content.
10.) Favorite age you've been so far?
- None.
11.) Who told you they loved you last?
- Ryland
12.) Your worst enemy?
- This is a sentence fragment, but OK. I assume it's asking who my worst enemy is. The answer to that bad boy is Ryland's Entire Family.
13.) What's your current desktop picture?
- My computer is broken so I've been using my dad's and it's the Macbook generic mountain photo.
14.) Do you like someone?
- Romantically? I like my boyfriend, Ryland.
15.) The last song you listened to?
- Haze by Tessa Violet
16.) You press a button to make one person explode. Who is it?
- Mother Nature. Just kidding, the GOP has that one covered for me already.
Counter question: Your worst enemy is going to explode unless you press the button. Do you press it?
17.) Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
- Talon
18.) If anyone could be your butler for a day, who would it be and what would you have them do?
- I want to say Alfred from Batman just because he's so iconic, but I think he'd be terribly bored with my life. I'd pick Billie Joe Armstrong and have him play me music.
