Roommates

part 41

the journal

kelsey davis was her name....
i remember her walking into my dorm and shutting my music off. i didn't like her at all to be honest. who did she think she was? you never turn off passionfruit by drake

she was smoking hot though and i liked it. my old roommate was a girl as well. she was heaven. i used her for sex when i was drunk or sober. she changed dorms when i told her i was only getting in her pants when i was bored

i'll admit she was boring, she didn't excite me or make me want to know more about her. she let me do her whenever i wanted

kelsey was never like that though. she never had sex which was surprising to me. she was a hot girl and i almost couldn't believe it when she said she's waiting for the right person

i really thought i could change her mind. make her want me. she excited me. everyday with her was a new opportunity. i knew calling her nicknames would make her heart flutter

i was good at getting girls. i got lily so fast i couldn't help but laugh about it. she was down the first night i asked her to blow me off

the first time i kissed kels was when lily kept humiliating her. i'll admit lily was annoying for that but i had to do what i had too and i kissed kels right in front of everyone.

her lips were soft and she didn't pull away which made me know that she has a little devil somewhere down inside

i knew if i tried hard enough i could get her. after the bonfire i went back and told her to
play a game with me, 10 minutes

it was cute how she didn't know what it was but when i had her pushed up against the wall with her moaning in my ear. all the possibilities rushed through my head

i can fuck her. i know she'll let me.

she told me not to stop so i pushed her against the bed. her lips soft and tasted like strawberries. i was enjoying this too much

i would've gone farther if my phone didn't go off and ruin the moment. i'll admit i was mad but the look in her eyes told me that she'll be thinking about this.

the more time i spent with her the more i felt different, i don't know if it was because i was getting closer to her to get in my bed or because i was starting to actually like her.

she told me stuff about her, how she dyed her hair black once for the guy she liked. how she broke her pinky and that her mother left her when she was a kid.

her eyes sparkled even in the dark. her brown eyes were beautiful. all the girls i've dated all had blue or green eyes. i never looked at a girl with brown eyes except her

looking in her eyes was different and i liked it.

i shut the book and felt a tear run down my cheek. i shut my laptop and shove everything in my bag

this notebook gets worse and worse. just to think that he actually liked me when he only wanted to get in my pants. that was his goal the entire time.

i walk out the class and start walking to the cafe to get myself coffee. i'm glad i'm over with finals but that means it's time for me to go home and see my dad for a little