Roommates

part 86

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3 more days till christmas, 2 more till christmas eve. i don't know how to feel

i've been in my house all day trying something new every hour to entertain myself and eating something every minute to help my boredom

i even started reading the nutrition facts behind my takis chips

there is 150 calories. which is good in my opinion but i think i'm officially sick on them

my dad wasn't kidding when he said i should do something fun with my life. i should really look for that mistletoe

i make my way to my dads room and open his closet. i grab a chair and try to look through the christmas boxes he has on his top self

i wonder what some of these boxes even have in them. some are even covered in dust

i find a box in the corner and reach for it. this one probably has the most dust on it and i'm curious to know why it hasn't been opened in so long

it is a bit far from where i'm standing from. i extend my arm and try reaching for it, hoping i won't fall off the chair

come on kels just a little more. when i finally reach it i try and pull it towards me. the box was heavy, causing me to fall off the chair from the unexpected weight

i hit my knee on the chair making it bleed. the dust from the box is now covering the air in the closet making me cough. i cover my knee so the dust won't go on it

i pick the box up and leave my dads closet and sit on his bed

i open the box slowly and see that it's a album. a photo album. i love looking through photos of when i was a kid

i take the photo album out and open it. my heart stopping when i see that it's my mom

i bite my bottom lip to hold back my tears. i run my fingers on the photo, she was so beautiful

her blue eyes were absolutely breathtaking, and her blonde hair always smelled so good and was so soft. i was so mad that i never got her blonde hair and blue eyes

i was lowkey always jealous of how beautiful my mom was. i wanted to be just like her

i flip the page over and see a picture of her and my dad, cake on both of their faces. my dad had the biggest smile on his face too

my parents were unstoppable. the love they had for each other was something i always wanted

i wish she was here right now. i wish i could hug her and tell her how badly i fucked up

i close the photo album when i feel a tear fall down my cheek. i shouldn't have looked through this

no wonder my dad had it hidden and never opened. i put it back in the corner where i found out

i leave my dads room trying to clear my mind. should i do some yoga or eat some food?

food.

i walk into the kitchen and open the fridge. i stare at the empty fridge for what feels like the 10th time today

should i just order some pizza... ew no! i had way too much pizza yesterday, i feel gross

pasta or some tacos?

i am really craving some tacos... why not just order both? i grab my phone and scroll through post mates till i find a good taco place with some pasta

my order turned out to be 34 dollars, but it's worth it. i'm hungry and so is my empty fridge

i turn my phone off and sit down on the floor by the table, keeping my eyes on the front door. even though they said it'll take 30 minutes to get here, i'm going to still wait here till i see a shadow because i have nothing better to do