Roommates

part 56

4 days later

"wake up" i hear a knock on my door

i slowly open my eyes and see my dad standing by my door with his arms crossed, "you are 21 years old and i still have to wake you up"

"thanks for reminding me dad"

"of course" he nods, "we have guest over till 12am. it's christmas" he reminds me

"merry christmas dad" i sit up on my bed

"merry christmas kels" my dad says before walking away

i already know how busy we are going to be tonight so i go straight into my closet and change into something cute but also comfy

black jeans and as always another blue sweater, i straighten my hair and curl the bottoms. it's 12pm and i'm already exhausted

jacobs coming over tonight, along with the rest of his family and my family. i just hope lily doesn't come tonight

my dad comes into my room and looks at me, i furrow my brows at him and he just nods he then walks away after

when i walk out of my room my dad has the entire house covered in mini trees, lights, presents, chocolate, candy canes, and santa clause hats

i put the gifts i bought for my dad and cynthia under the tree and make my way into the kitchen

cynthia was already making food, "merry christmas" she smiles

"you too" i smile back at her

"i made you some bacon and eggs" she points to the table, i thank her before sitting down

i eat it slowly and feel her eyes on me. they know about joeys engagement, jacob told them about it

my dad went out and bought me ice cream to cheer me up but it didn't help. but i love my dad for thinking about me

i still don't know how to feel about his engagement, we went through all of that just to not even end up together?

i really did have hope for us. even after those years when i thought i was over him, something inside me deep down was telling me he is the one for me

but i'm not the one for him

emily is. and gosh she was so beautiful and kind, no wonder he engaged her.

it'll take me a long time to get back on my feet and let someone like him be that close to me.

joey and i had the strangest relationship and it was never awkward between us because everything was real

the nights where he would be on my bed and talk to me, begging for my forgiveness, our showers, his kisses, hugs, him in general, just everything about him

i am still in love with him

and the fact that he thinks that after 2 years he can just come back and see me and not tell me he's engaged?

hes so confusing and i'm just drained

you always say that

i do, i do always say that but when he's around me it's like i'm fully energized. he makes me want to be around him and talk to him
he makes me happy

"doing alright hun?" cynthia ask me

i look up at her, "yup"

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the table is filled with food, half our family is here and i'm not excited

i'm not excited for christmas, who am i?