Roommates

part 89

This was rushed! Im sorry

it's christmas day

the day i've been waiting for. maybe he'll text me back today? good things happen on christmas day right?

maybe the good thing will be a text back from joey?

it's all ive been thinking about. why hasn't he texted me? did i do something wrong? does he regret it?

i'll never know unless i ask him and i won't ask him. even though it's killing me, it's best if i try and give him some more time to... think

i sit down on the couch waiting for my dad to call me like he said he would. it sucks that i won't be with him. it's my first holiday without him

i just know how happy he is with cynthia in texas. no wonder he hasn't called me yet

it's 11 in the morning and got 3 text so far, jacob, lily, and ellie. ellie was so nice to me the day she came over and helped with decorations

the day jacob and lily brought their friends over to help decorate

thinking of when joey and that girl did it in my fucking garage. anger rises inside of me

every time i think about it, it just makes me even more mad. makes me hate joey even more

but what he did last night... it made me feel, special. i don't know what it is but whenever i'm with him i feel so much more free

like i'm not being locked down by all the pressure of feeling like i did something wrong

he makes me feel so happy

every 2 minutes i check my phone and hope to see a response from him but it's my wallpaper that i'm officially getting sick of

i turn the tv on to hope keep me distracted

"fuck" he tilts my head and starts kissing my neck

i bite my bottom lip as he bites down on my neck, pushing my arms against the wall to keep my steady

i missed this, i missed him

why did i ever think it was okay for him to leave. what was wrong with me

he's the ones i always wanted. he always comes back after everything

i love him

he pulls away from my neck and smiles, "you won't push me away again will you?"

"no" i breathe

he presses his lips against mine and i hold his face in my hands. enjoying this moment as long as i can

he deepens the kiss and pulls me by the waist closer to him. his hands roam around my body like it's his last time touching me

my phone rings and i immediately pick it up

dad

i sigh, sliding the call and seeing his face pop up with a santa hat, "merry christmas!"

i laugh, "merry christmas dad"

"are you alone? go do something loser" my dad smiles

i press my lips together and turn the tv off, "i want to stay home today"

my dads eyes widen, "are you crazy kels! it's christmas, go to jacobs house! i'm sure they're doing something"

"it's not same without you" i tell him and my dad frowns