Roommates

part 45

what? how is it gone?

it was right here i didn't even touch it....

fuck

i run out my room and notice all the trashbags are gone as well, i run to the front yard and open the trash bin, empty.

i run back inside and start looking through the cabinets, the drawers, my dads room, the living room, everywhere.

it was gone.

i sit down on the couch and take a deep breath.
i am such an idiot fuck kels why are you so stupid. why did i throw it away?

i never even got to finish it. what is wrong with me

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i woke up this morning a bit more mad then i was last night, i took a shower around 1 in the morning and my hair is still damp

i go back tonight and i don't know if i'm ready. staying here was suppose to be great but instead i got my heart broken

my dad walks into the room and i sit up on my bed, "we need to talk"

"what's wrong?" i ask, does he know about last nigh? gosh that would be so embarrassing

"i know you're a 19 year old and you make your own decisions now but you're still my little daughter kels" he shows a weak smile

"is everything okay?" i start to worry

"yes" he chuckles, "it's just hard sometimes to not see you for 7 months and not know what you're doing"

"i know" i frown

he stays quiet for a little, my eyes go to the journal he pulls out. joeys journal

oh no

i look up at him and he sighs, "before you ask me, yes, i did read it"

i don't say anything, my dad just read joeys journal. he. just. read. joeys. journal.

my life is over, my dad knows everything now

"did you finish reading it" he ask

i shake my head, "no"

he gives me the journal and looks at me, giving me a slight smile before saying "finish it"

i look at the journal, "are you sure?"

"yes"

i look back at my dad, my dad has always been honest with me since the day my mom left. he would never lie to me

"okay" i let in and he kisses my forehead before leaving my room

i look at the journal and think about it for a little. either way this book will make me a stronger person or hurt me even more.

and there's only one way of finding out.

i open the journal and continue to where i left off, before i do i lay back on my bed and take a deep breath

kelsey was the most innocent person i knew. never drank, never had sex, and probably never held hands with a guy but she told me she's had a boyfriend before but only wanted her for sex, i don't blame him.

i notice she drank something out a red cup, her nosed scrunched up when she took a sip from it. i couldn't help but laugh a little.

my sister whispered something in her ear and they both walked out the kitchen

i remember hearing people say stuff about kelsey, how hot she was. it pissed me off, a lot.