The Alpha's Eden

What do you want me to say?

Blake PoV

I sat on the edge of the bed and watched as Eden paced in front of me looking deep in thoughts about how exactly she was going to kill me I could only assume. As she gave me the silent treatment in the build up to what might be our first official argument as mates, I took her in. She looked as beautiful as ever but there was something different about her that I couldn't put my finger on. The Eden that was wearing the carpet out before me was more secretive, constantly seeming deep in thought and just ... different.

But she wasn't the only one who was pissed off. Sadie has vanished from the dungeon and I'd been on my way to find Eden and Jace when I stumbled upon a surprise family reunion. I was mad about that too. That was not part of the plan at all and seeing my mum again after all this time was not exactly high on my how to make Blake happy list. I'd only kept in touch with my sisters Indy and Hayley but couldn't give two fucks about Freya. Having her here was going to annoy me big time and if she thought she could waltz in and be one big happy family again she had another thing coming.

"Are you going to say anything?" Eden sneered at me stopping abruptly in front of me as if it was me that had wanted to have a discussion.

"What do you want me to say?" I retorted taking a deep breathe out of my nose trying to keep myself from losing my shit. Yes I'd tricked her but I had good reasons. She was lying to us and doing some sneaky shit on the daily lately and didn't seem to give a crap.

"You. Compelled.me" she said punctuating each word again like I was a stupid little kid.

"Yeh I did and of I had the chance to go back and do it again... I would" there it was out there. I admitted it.

"Are you crazy Blake? You knew why I wanted to leave and you acted like you supported my decision" Eden seemed to not see things from my viewpoint at all. It was back to being about her and Jace like the whole universe revolved around them. I wasn't in her thoughts, this wasn't the first time either. That's why she's left me before.

"Am I crazy? You are a fine one to talk right now Eden"

"Don't turn things into me. I left to get away from Jace remember? I needed space"

"Don't you get it? It's always been about you and him. But I am your mate too. I was your mate before you ever met him but you didn't even notice. Then the minute he came along you forgot I existed. You were going to leave because of him, yet I was the one that had always been by your side and you were leaving me too. So I did what I had to do to know you were safe" now that this can of worms had opened it seemed to be overflowing fast and there was no holding back. Every emotion flowed through me. Love. Pain. Betrayal. Despair. Fear. Hurt. Disappointment.

"Blake..." Eden went to say something else  then closed her mouth like she didn't know what to say. She sighed loudly and gazed at me but I was too full of so many feelings I looked away.

"I wanted you to fall in love with me for me, not because I was your mate. That's why I didn't tell you" that was the truth. The real reason I didn't tell her was because I didn't want her to be with me through obligation because we were mates. I wanted more. I always wanted so much more from our relationship. From us.

"I told you I loved you" Eden reminded me cautiously sending my emotions going haywire.

"Yeh you did... then you still left" Jesus, my voice sounded laced with disappointment and hurt but it was how I'd felt that day she'd walked away. The truth was I never expected her to actually leave me. I thought she'd have a last minute change of heart and run back  into my arms. But she didn't, she never even looked back. I guess I never got over that.

"I left because-"

"Of Jace Yeh I know. It's always him Eden. The alpha and his Luna. But what are me and you huh?"  A part of me felt like my heart was breaking when I pointed out how much more they had in common, how much more bonded they were than me and her.

"Blake stop... don't say that stuff. I love you so much- you know I do. I'll be whatever you want me to be. We can be whatever you want us to be, together"

"I'm not sure what we are anymore. I don't think I know you lately. You keep secrets. You lie to me, to Jace. First Sawyer broke out of the dungeon, now Sadies gone too. Fuck it, you used our mating ceremony, the most important night of our lives to break him out of the territory. My brothers lied to me to the direct you, they helped you knowing how much Sawyer had put you through. He left you bleeding out in the dirt Eden, that's how I found you barely fucking alive and a few secret chats late at night and you two are best buds again?! What the hell is going on with you?" My voice was raised at this point and my anger was bubbling over but she had to finally realise how much of a mess she was making of things right now.

"You don't understand...I trust my brother" Eden's voice was firm, unwavering. She truly meant what she was saying.

"Why?" I demanded just as firmly getting fed up with her keeping things to herself.

"I can't explain it... not yet" she answered staring at the floor like she was finding it harder to keep things from me by the minute.

"So when?"

"Soon" very helpful answer. Great avoidance Eden. Well played.

"What about Sadie?" I thought maybe changing the subject to a less personal one might get me more answers. For now at least.

"Why do you care so much about that bitch anyway? Were you sleeping with her?" Eden snapped and stared at me harshly, jealousy swarming around her irises like pools of bright green envy.

"I don't care about her at all I just want to know where she's gone. Nobody will say a thing. The guards were compelled to not recall details and my brothers won't answer a damn thing" the idea of having sex with Sadie made me want to throw up and I'd only ever tolerated her for Natalias sake.

"Sadie won't be bothering us again. Or anyone" Eden pointed out with a wide grin like she was proud of that statement.

"You killed her"I realised studying the unwavering smile that Eden's words had brought to her face. She wasn't just proud of that fact, she was happy too.

"Yes I did and if I had the chance I'd do it again" she echoed my words from earlier with a cocky smirk on her face like she'd won a victory over me.

I was about to ask her for more details when someone knocked on the door. I knew who it was before Eden even opened it and I had a sad suspicion what would happen next.

"Hi" Eden said opening the door just enough for her to talk through.

"We need to go if we are going to get there on time" Calebs voice spoke in a hushed tone but I could hear every word anyway.

"Okay give me a minute. I'll meet you and the others downstairs" Eden advised him then shut the door again.

"Where are you going?" I asked curiously. She spent more time with my brothers than me and Jace combined. I wondered if he'd noticed that too.

"I have to go out for abit but I'll be back later" that was all of an answer I was getting apparently

"Don't go. Stay with me" I was testing her now. I knew her answer already but I had to be sure.

"I can't. I'll see you later okay" with that she was booting out of the door just as I'd expected.

Something was going on. I had no clue what but Eden was acting strangely. She was distant, secretive, lying to her mates, even killing people now apparently. There was something wrong and I just hoped that it didn't hurt us or put people in danger.

The packs, the clan we were all as one now and yet our Luna was acting like a entirely different person.

I had a feeling Eden was on her own mission of some sort and I just prayed my brothers could feel protect her because apparently she didn't want me to do it.

That stung like a bitch but as long as she was okay I could deal with it later.