Set Fire to the Rain [Completed] [Rated SPG M2M/BxB]

Chapter 83

Chapter 83

Neil's POV

"Do you still love me Lex?"

The moment I asked him about that, I knew there's a doubt that keeping him from saying it. I may know the reasons about it but I don't want to conclude anything yet. I'm not hoping that we could get back those times that we are each other's arm but I want to have a closure. End those what we believe that has long gone, so we could start a new one and maybe with someone.

Yet, I missed up this time with Lyle. I just can't stand him seeing Lex since he done an awful mistake. I got burst in anger and I saw how it ended. It's a total disaster. Hope for me now is like a small gleams of lights that's slowly fading.

"I guess it's a 'No'" pagpapalagay ko dahil sa kanyang pananahimik.

Hinawakan ko ang kanyang pisnge upang mahawi ko ang kanyang tingin sa akin at isang nakakakhabang na mga matang lumuluha ang aking nasilayan. Kahit nakatingala ang kanyang mga mukha sa akin, ang kanyang mga tingin naman ay iniiwasan akong tignan.

"I can't see myself with you anymore Neil... now with this circumstances and conflicts, I feel like everything will never be the same as it was before. Like how Lyle reveal all of this was his doing, it did change everything and this unexpected revelation about his feelings for you was need to be fix for you two. It was like a total disaster now" saad nito na ikinangiti ko.

"Just as what I'm thinking of" sabi ko rito at inayos ang upo ko at napahigpit ng hawak sa manubela dahil mga hindi inaasahang pangyayari. "So, you do know now what's between us since that time we broke up?" nahihiya akong sambit rito dahil wala sa isip ko noon na magiging kami ni Lyle.

Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari na halos hindi ko na mahagilap kung paano nagsimula ang lahat. Ang alam ko lang pinupunan ko ang sakit ng mga bagong sayang binibigay ni Lyle sa akin. Even I did a selfish move towards him too but yet it turns out that I'm really loving his presence since the absence of Lex love. I was slowly building my love for him but now I ruined it, I even get it more worser now.

"Nakita ko kung gaano kahirap kay Lyle na sabihin sa akin ang totoo. Masakit man sa akin pero alam kong mas masakit sa kanya dahil puweding mawala sa kanya ang lahat" sambit ni Lex na ikinatingin ko sa kanyang malungkot na mukha.

Naisip ko na ito pero nagpadala ako sag alit, lalo na nang makita kong harap-harapan pa rin siyang nagpapakita kay Elex pero hindi ko inisip ang mga paliwanag niya. Nagpadaig ako sa galit at natalo ng tuloyan sa imposibling laban at talagang imposible na sa amin ngayon ang lahat.

"And now I miss it this time... I'm so cruel" hindi ko na napigilang maghinagpis.

Kung hindi lang pinagtanto sa akin lahat ni Elexis ang lahat ay baka tuloyan akong nilukob ng galit at baka mas nasaktan ko pa siya.

"Everyone will experience loses in their lives, but the most important thing is how we deal the unexpected happening going on. We may fall down along the way but we need to stand up and pick up the pace. Learn from it because that is this all about in order to accept from your mistake for it will be your way to forgivness" Payo nito na tuloyan kong ipinagtanto sa mga nagawa ko.

Sure that people around me do mistakes, even me can do mistakes. And Lex was right, we lose but the important thing is learning to accept the mistakes for us to forgive.

"Please, remind me again on how I fell in love to you before Lex" sambit ko dito na ikinairap niya sa akin. I was just teasing him coz we know that it was a mistake too.