c • r • u • s • h // ryland storms

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24th July 2021

"I don't want you to ruin my party tonigh." I said to Ryland while straightining my hair.

"I guess you mean your party makeup, huh?" he hugged me behind. "Don't worry I won't be that hard."

I rolled my eyes and ignored him. "I will celebrate my album, please don't fight with boys."

"Boys, huh?" he said.

"Ryland they are my friends." I said.

"They are your exes, Lana. Do you really want me to party with the boys who fucked my main girl?" Ryland kissed my shoulder.

"Kio is my friend. We broke up but we just ended our relationship, not the friendship. I don't want to see him sad. Bryce is just... You know what, fuck him. But not in my party. Some paparazzi will be there too, I don't wanna ruin Addison's career. She will be the unproblematic queen, it wouldn't be nice that her sisters ex boyfriends are fighting. I'm already problematic enough."

"Why do you care about Addison that much? She doesn't love as much as you do."

"I know." I said. "But you should've learned that. I never give up on someone just because they don't love me back."

  "You're still talking about that times." said Ryland. "Look Lana I'm sorry. I'm really sorry."
I interrupted him. "Sorry can't save us now."

"You're right but I don't know what can I do but saying sorry." he sounded like he is really sorry.

  "There is only one thing you can do Ryland. I'm begging you, please don't cheat on me again. Don't make me sad, don't make me cry. Never made me feel suicidal again." I wiped the tears on my face. "Anyways, let's go down there, we have a party."

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  "So thank y'all for coming to my party." I said. "It's been seven months since I released my first album. It feels good to be here again. First of all, thanks for all the boys broke my heart, Kio, Ryland and Bryce. You were my inspiration but my biggest inspiration is my sister Addison and my brother Jaden. I'm happy I have you. Love you guys.Enjoy the party." I said.

  Then my interview started while the others were partying.

  Interviewer: Lana let's start with album name. How did you decide that?
Lana:Well, the last seven months I was lost. Literally I was lost. This album is about all this times. But I have another album, which is coming soon. It will be about my healing process.

  Interviewer: Okay it would be good if you can explain the lyrics.
Lana: Sure, let's start with one of my favorites, Afraid.
(The Neighborhood-Afraid)
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place

  I usually use names to humiliate the ones who hurt me but this time I won't. There is someone trying to be me, trying to take my place.

Make that money, fake that bunny, ache my tummy
On the fence, all the time
Paint young honey, face so sunny, ain't that funny
All my friends always lie to me
I know they're thinking
You're too mean, I don't like you, fuck you anyway
You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs
It hurts but I won't fight you
You suck anyway
You make me wanna die, right when I

   There was a time I felt completely alone.I felt like none of my friends were real.

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place
When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me