"I still see your shadows in my room, can't take back the love that I gave you, it's to the point where I love and I hate you and I can not change yo so I must replace you.
Easier said then done, I thought you were the one, listening to my heart instead of my head, you found another one but I am the better one.
I won't let you forget me."
---Mike
Love is a hateful thing to feel. It makes you feel like you have to be there and stay sane when your with that person, like it's a weight on you to look after and take care of that person. It's pointless, a waste of time and just over rated.
But why do I want it...
Why do I want to feel loved by that special someone in my life? why can't I just enjoy being single? WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?!
--I groaned throwing my covers from over my body as I stormed to the bathroom. My head hurt from all the things I've thought of in the last 24 hours. Making Derek feel how I feel is fun and all but I just can't do that to him but I will because he needs to know how I felt.
Me:" UHHHH"
My life is complete shit bruh. I wish I can just go back to when I was 16 and my mom was still here with me.Sighing I wiped a tear that slid down my face.
Me:" What would she do"
I thought of things my mom would do if she was in this situation.I just thought of calling him over so we can talk.
(Skip)
Me and Derek were sitting In the kitchen when I started talking.
Me:" Well, I called you over so we could talk"
Derek:" About"
Me:" Us, I want you to get to know me"
Derek:" I'm listening"Me:" My name is Micheal Chong, I'm 18 years old, I'm Dominican and Chinese. I lost my mom when I was 16 also the day I found out I was gay. My father abandoned me after I told him I was gay and left me with nothing. After high school I got a job and eventually got my own place and I soon hope to go to college"
I looked back at Derek and he looked very interested in what I said.
Derek:" Wow, I never knew you went threw all of that you seem so happy"
Me:" Derek your the one who's making me happy"
He looked down blushing.
Me:" Tell me about you"Derek:" I'm Derek Trendz and I'm 16 years old and a Junior in highschool, my parents are big business people and are homophobic. I'm confused about my feelings for a certain someone that I can't seem to control and my body count is 2"
Me:" Cool, but who's the special someone your confused about"
Derek:" Doesn't it already show"
Me:" Huh"
He just rolled his eyes playfully before coming and standing Infront of me.
Derek:" It's you that I'm confused for"Me:" Well let me make you less Confused"
I cuffed his face in my hand as his light brown eyes looked into my chocolate ones. This time he didn't hold back he actually let me do what I was about to do.
Derek:" Do it"
He wispered in my ear making me bite my lip. I gripped his waist making him whimper from it still being sore.I lifted his shirt rubbing my thumbs over the bruises. He took my face into his hand and pecked my lips then kissed me after. I parted my lips kissing him back.
My tounge slid into his mouth as our tongues slipped and slidded against each other. Once again our lips connected but this time I picked him up.
Derek:" I want you"
He wispered in my ear.
Me:" Wait on that"
I pecked his lips one more time before pulling away.Derek:" Can I sleep over"
Me:" Sure, you already know where the stuff is"
He nodded and walked to the bathroom.(Skip)
After Derek took a shower he came and layed on my lap
Me:" Cmere"
He sat up and looked up at me.
Me:" Come"
I held my arms out as he sat on my lap.
Derek:" I'm tired"
Me:" Go to sleep bub"
I rubbed on his butt as he drifted off to sleep.Me:" I hope I can make you mines one day"
I sighed and threw the blanket over us laying my head on his and going to sleep.
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