SANDOVAL'S DESIRE

Chapter 67 [Flaws]

Saji Argelia's Point of View.

"It happens randomly." Bulong ko at pumikit habang nakayuko.

"I hated it you know, I hate it so much. I wanted to curse it but it reminds me of the days I don't want to remember." Binasa ko ang labi dahil nanunuyo ito, mahina akong tumawa.

"What do you do when that happens?" His voice were so calm, it's comforting.

"I call someone, I talk to them. But they're not available at the moment. I can't tell them my worries." Hindi ko siya nagawang tignan, hinayaan ko ang sariling tulungan ang sarili.

"What are your worries?" He added that made me think.

"I don't understand, I actually don't know, the feeling of emptiness. I don't know," bulong ko at napaisip, nagtaka ako sa sarili.

"What do you have in mind?" Nalingon ko siya sa sinabi.

"Am I doing a session right now—" natigilan ako sa sariling sinabi dahilan para ng magtama ang mata namin ay naitikom ko ang bibig at mariin na kinagat 'yon.

"Do you take sessions?" Tanong niya kaya napatayo ako.

"No." Mabilis kong sagot, lying about it.

I just started my session to my psychiatrist. I hated it, but I need to help myself. "Who knows it?" Tanong niya, not buying my answer.

"Hindi ako nagsesession, I just heard about it." I lied.

"When did you start?" Tanong niya seryoso.

"Look you're taking it wrong Kent Axel." Mariing sabi ko.

"I am not taking sessions." I cleared.

"You're guilty." He pointed my face that made my brows furrowed.

"Y-You know nothing, I am not—"

"Enough with the blabberings, I hate liars." Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi at tsaka nag-iwas tingin.

"Can you just buy it?" I questioned.

Natigilan siya at seryoso ako lalong tinignan. "Are you selling something?" He questioned.

"Just take my answer, even if you know it's a lie. It's so hard lying." Pagsasabi ko na ng totoo.

"I'm okay, nothing to be worried about. This happened a lot of times that I can't even count anymore, a flashback. I hate it, the fear of losing someone again is making me sick. It's killing me," mariing sabi ko.

"I held it in, staring at Juniflo's face without hurting her is making me mad as hell. She lived while my mother didn't, they killed a lot yet they're still breathing." I closed my fist.

"My mother deserves to live, and they don't." Mahina akong tumawa.

"Lunatic? They're all jokes!" I laughed.

"Freaking justice? Oh c'mon. It's all fake," mariing sabi ko.

"Tangina rin ng mga luna na 'yan eh." Gigil na sabi ko.

"Pag ako ba yung pumatay mananatili pa akong buhay? Kingina." Sa sobrang gigil ko ay inis kong binato yung cellphone ko sa kung saan.

"I didn't know they let Juniflo live," wika ni Kent Axel.

"Basta masamang damo mahirap patayin, may kapit sa demonyo eh." Gitil ko.

"How do you feel?" Tanong ni Kent Axel.

"I feel mad, ikaw ba naman mamatay yung nanay mo sa harap mo tapos doctor ka pero wala kang nagawa kingina. Sana ako na lang mawawala rin naman lahat sa akin." Mabilis kong sabi at sumandal sa sofa tapos pumikit ng mariin.