SANDOVAL'S DESIRE

Chapter 69 [Mistaken]

Saji Argelia's Point of View.

I was staring at him, he stopped talking a while ago. He looks calmer now, "I'm leaving." He said and just left me alone in this room.

He did sessions too huh? That's why he learned how to handle every anxiety attack?

After that day, We got into each other's home. I stayed in my penthouse and lighted a candle, I never visit my mom's grave. It turns out my attacks happened when everything flashbacks.

I lose everything, my dad can't talk. He needs someone to feed him, he started being like that when we lose my mom. If it's so painful to me what about my dad? They've been together for a very long time. Since high school days, I heard it from mom.

Nakatulala lang ako at tinititigan ang kandila na sinindi ko inabot ko ang cellphone ko at binuksan ang app na IG kinuhanan ko ng litrato ang kandila. I posted it with the caption If only I could come to you, I will.

I'm talking about my mom, matagal na ng muli akong humawak ng baril, kutsilyo lalo na pag nag-iisa ako. Natatakot ako sa sariling takbo ng isip, hindi na bago ngunit mas nakakatakot.

It already affect my attitude, I am not the happy Saji before. Tumayo ako at inihipan ang kandila, I didn't change clothes I just wear my large size hoodie and a leggins. I tied my hair into bun before going out.

I opened the elevator but then I was stopped when it opens. Leona and Kent Axel were standing, I swallowed hard and enter the elevator. I clicked the ground floor. "It's been a long time, Saji Argelia." Nang marinig ko si Leona ay nilingon ko siya.

"You know me?" I asked pointing at myself. Of course I know her but I left her before accusing her.

"Huh? W-What are you talking about?" Nagigitla siya kaya naman tumikhim ako.

"Leona Ballesteros, you can't remember me?" My lips parted, Oh my god I didn't know I'm good at acting and I made her believe.

"I do, I just forgot." Mahinahon na sabi ko at inilabas ko ang kamay ko sa bulsa ng hoodie.

Hindi ko alam kung papaano magkapera yung sa online kaya nababadtrip ako at balik sa ATM at cash ang way of payment. "Where are you heading to?" Mahinahon na sabi ni Leona kaya naman tumikhim ako.

"Just there," matipid kong sagot hindi na sila nilingon.

When the elevator opens I immediately walk outside to leave the hotel. Nang makalabas ay nakahinga ako ng maluwag at tinitigan ang kalangitan. "The sun shines so bright, masakit sa mata." Bulong ko sa sarili at tsaka yumuko na lang.

Ngunit ganoon na lang ang pagtigil ko ng marecieve ang tawag ng kaibigan kong doctor sa ER kaya naman sinagot ko ito. "What happened?"

"I-I think i'm pregnant Saji!" My eyes totally widened when I heard her.

"B-Bakit? Papaaano? Wala kang boyfriend."

"I slept with someone.. Natatakot ako, panigurado magagalit sila mama sa akin Saji. Hindi pwedeng malaman ng iba 'to." Napalunok ako at nakagat ang ibabang labi ko.

"We should confirm it first okay? Calm down!" I said calm down pero ako ang natataranta.

"Buy me some pregnancy test please? I'll wait you here. You know my room 'di ba? Please Saji hindi pwedeng malaman ng iba hindi ako lumalabas ng kwarto natatakot ako." Naiiyak niyang pakiusap.

"S-Sige."

Nang mamatay ang tawag ay para akong inasthma sa kaba, naglapat ang labi ko at hindi alam ang gagawin. Naglakad ako pabalik balik sa harap ng pharmacy malapit sa Law Firm ni Kent Axel ngunit nakikita ko ang mga nagtatrabaho sa hospital.