Unexpected [FR/EN]

Chapitre 35

Tom's point of vue ;

Three days.
It's been three days since this fucking bastard hang up the phone. I could'nt sleep after that. She hasn't answered since that night. And I'm in a fucking panic you can't even imagine ! I have two days off and I'm on my way to her. I spend twelve fucking hours on the plane, and I'm totaly exhausted. I'm not even sure I've slept more than five hours in a row during the last three days. I can't get her out of my head. She said she was pregnant. How she can be pregnant ? And why she didn't tell me earlier ? What the fuck happened ? How did we get here ?
This is all my fucking fault.
Why I said I wanted to stay friends ? Fuck ! I'm such a dick !
She was crying, because of me. And I hate when she's crying. It fucking breaks my heart. Why it hurts if I don't love her ? Because maybe I do. Fuck... I'm so stupid. Even Harry told my that I've been a real asshole with her. A fucking asshole. And when Harry says it, it's true. I don't even know why I'm like this with her. She's so sweet, and so incredible. And I'm hurting her. Because I don't want to have to deal with this. Another love story that will end badly.
My last story ended up in scream and tears, and I don't want that for her. I don't want that for us. My last girlfriend was really tired of all that shit. The paps wouldn't let her breath. Evetyime I was with her she was anxious, thinking that everyone knew what we were doing. Insults came from the beginning, and then rumors have appeared. Pregnancy, deception, everything became a pretext for jealousy. All that shit really pushed her to the limit. When I left her it destroyed her. But I coudln't handle it anymore. I was exhausted of fighting, screams, and cries. It really breaks my heart to let her go. But it was the best thing to do to get her out of there. She hated me for a while, but now she's good. She's finally happy, without me.
I don't fucking want this shit to happen again. Elena deserves better. Better than me. But she don't want to understand it. She don't understand that I love her too much to let this happen to her. And then, even if we stay together, what's gonna happened ? She will live her life in France, and I would live mine somewhere else. Still too far from her. Too far to protect her. Too far to love her as she deserves.
I'm such a dick with her. God ! Why I let this happen to us ? I ruined it the night I kissed her. That should never have happened. Now I'm a fucking dick who's in love with a girl who deserves a million times better, and I can't stop this. Fuck ! I'm fucking in love with this girl ! I am ! I feel it in each of my veins. She's totally driving me crazy !
I traveled twelve hours just to see her five minutes and make sure she's okay. Oh fuck... I'm so stupid.
- On est arrivé M'sieur !
The taxi stopped. I pay as fast as I can to get out of it. I run into the cinema without paying attention to the people around who stare at me like they didn't expect to see me here. I stop in front of the counter and call a guy who's flirting with two girls like he doesn't have anything else to do.
- Hey ! Excuse me sir !
The guy turns to me and stops like he just got hit by a wall. The way he looks at me, I know he recognized me.
- I'm looking for Elena. I know she works here, I absolutely have to see her.
He comes to me taking a look around him, like he was looking for help.
- Heu... salut mec. Désolé mais je parle pas Anglais.
What the fuck ? Does anyone here can speack English please !
- Please, I'm looking for Elena. Elena, you know her right ?
- Ouais, Elena, ça j'ai compris.
- I need to see her !
The guy takes a look aroud, and I understand he can't help me.
- Man, what's your name ?
He looks at me without even understanding this fucking question.
- I'm Tom, and you ? What's your name ?
- Ah tu veux savoir mon nom ? C'est Miguel. Je m'appelle Miguel.
Miguel ? Wait a fucking minute !
- Miguel ? Like the fucking asshole who drugged Elena ?
I'm sure he didn't understand, but given the look on his face, he must have realized I wasn't here to laugh.
- Heu... mec, je comprends rien de ce que tu dis.
- You're the fucking son of bitch who drugged Elena ?
I punch my fist on the counter, and he moves back at least a meter. The security guy shows up in two seconds, and despite his two heads more than me I turn to him without fear.
- Qu'est-ce qu'il se passe monsieur ?
- I just fucking want to see Elena ! Does anybody here can please tell me where she is !
The security guy takes a look at Miguel as this asshole had the answer.
- Calm down sir, I can't help you if you keep yelling like that.
What the fuck !
- I just want to see Elena ! Elena ! Holy shit !
I grab my hair trying to calm down when a third guy shows up.
- Jeff, il se passe quoi là ?
The security guy turns to him, and I don't fucking understand what they're saying.
- Il dit qu'il cherche Elena, mais je ne suis pas sûr de pouvoir lui dire où elle est.
The third guy turns to me, and he looks nicer than the other two.
- I'm Simon, the boyfriend of Emily. You know Emily, right ?
Oh God ! Finally someone who can help me.
- Yes ! Emily, the bestfriend of Elena.
- Yes, her bestfriend.
He takes a look at the security guy.
- C'est bon, je m'en occupe.
The giant moves away and the nice guy, Simon, turns to me.
- You're looking for Elena ?
- Yes ! She hasn't answered my calls once in the last three days. I need to see her, please...
- I'm sorry but she's not here.
My heart stops and I feel like I've lost three centimeters.
- What ? But... where is she ?
- She's home. She didn't come to work this last three days.
- What ? Wh... why ?
- She's sick.
I feel like I'm getting slapped in the face. What does it mean by sick ? Is it the pregnancy that makes her sick ? Fucking god ! She's really pregnant ?
- Sick ? But... is she okay ? Please tell me she's okay.
- Yes, she's okay. She's okay.
- I need to see her. Please, give me her address.
- Ok, Ok ! I give it to you.
He goes around the counter to write down what I asked him, and my eyes fall on fucking Miguel. I join the counter in two steps only and threatens him with a fucking finger.
- And you son of a bitch ! If you touch Elena one more time I'll have you shot within the hour ! I'm not fucking kidding !
Simon gives me Elena's address and I don't wait another second to leave.
When the taxi stops, I run to the door of the building already open. I take a look at the paper where the apartment number is written, and I climb the steps two by two until I arrive at the door that I'm looking for.
I hesitate for a second. And if she didn't want to see me ? Maybe she decided not to answer me because she doesn't want to see me anymore. Maybe she even went back to her fucking ex-boyfriend. But what if she's pregnant ? What if he hurt her ? Maybe she didn't go to work because he hurt her.
Fuck ! I need to see her right now !
I knock on the door, my heart beating at an irregular pace. My hands are shaking. The door opens, and my eyes fall on the most perfect face in the world. She's here. In front of me. And I don't know what to say.
She looks so surprised that it looks like she'll collapse in the second. Her hair is raised into a messy bun. She looks so beautiful. She has no makeup, and I know it because his left eye is surrounded by blue. What the fuck happened to her ? Why his eye is so messed up ?
My eyes look at every inch of his face, looking for the slightest trace of violence on her skin. Her lips are untouched, thank God !
I was about to finally speak when my eyes fell on his neck. There are brown marks. Are these fingerprints ?
My heart stops immediatly.
- What are you doing here, Tom ?
His voice brings me out of this nightmare. I cross her eyes and she looks a lot more nervous than two minutes ago.
Shit... what am I supposed to say ? I've been so worried, and now she's here, in front of me, I don't fucking know what to say. Fuck... she look so damaged.
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO HER ?