All I Have Is All You Gave To Me [Young!Aizawa x Reader]

80 Lithium - Nirvana

And I'm not sad and just maybe

I'm to blame for all I've heard

It was pretty pointless trying to talk to Shouta, ever since he had brought his sleeping bag to school. He didn't want to talk during class and he always went straight to sleep as soon as break started. I hadn't been able to properly talk to him ever since we had been fighting and at this point I was getting really fed up with his antics. If he didn't want to talk to me, then fine.

It wasn't like I didn't try. And it wasn't like I was the only person he didn't talk to. Hizashi was just as unlucky as I was when it came to trying to talk to Shouta. He just wasn't there anymore. He wouldn't reply to texts at all or if he did, he'd reply very curtly. It was starting to annoy me.

Especially since I had no idea whether we were still a couple or not or what was going on with us. It was getting really, really frustrating, especially since I was hearing all the rumours that were going around about our situation. Literally everyone was talking about it. Even Nemuri had texted me last night to ask if it was true that we had broken up. And I didn't even know what to tell her.

I wasn't sure whether Shouta had actually broken up with me that afternoon. If he had, then I refused to believe it. But I also wasn't sure if he knew whether we were still a thing or not. And at this stage we were probably both just too afraid to ask. Unfortunately, everyone else wasn't afraid to ask me about it. And they weren't afraid to spread the wildest stories about us, either.

But I wasn't alone in my suffering, because Hizashi wasn't any better off than I was. And the two of us were still friends. We were probably hanging out way more than before, since Shouta refused to talk to either of us. I was honestly glad that he was still there for me as a friend.

I honestly had no idea how I would have survived those days without Hizashi, because I was despairing a little more every single day. I had no idea how to make myself feel better about things, because everything I usually would have tried didn't work anymore. I couldn't talk to Oboro anymore, Hizashi was just as smart as I was and Shouta didn't want to talk to me. Nemuri was gone and Maiko and Hideko... well, the two of them didn't really want to get involved.

And I could understand why, the situation was super messy after all and no one knew what was going on and no one really wanted to get involved with Shouta, because he had gotten so stand-offish that he was scaring people. But even though Hizashi wasn't a massive help in getting anything sorted out, at least he was around and we could talk to each other all the time.

That already made a huge difference. Especially when Shouta had abandoned the rooftop lunches in favour of napping in an empty classroom until class started up again, I was glad that I still had Hizashi with me. It would have been pretty lonely, just on my own up there. Especially because it always reminded me so much of Oboro to have lunch up on the rooftop.

"So did you manage to get anything today?" Hizashi asked me, his mouth full of rice. I sighed and shook my head.

"Nothing at all. He's getting very good at ignoring me right now. I don't know why he's doing any of this, it's like he's trying to make a point or some shit. I just want to know if we're still together or not, because I'd like to know whether I should try moving on or not, you know?" I answered.

"Yeah, I know what you mean. Unfortunately, I have absolutely no answers for you." he sighed.

"Yeah, figured. You think he'll come around again?" I wanted to know. Hizashi shrugged and continued eating.

"No idea. I guess we can just give it some time. I mean, it's not that much longer until this year's over and then we gotta see what we'll do with our lives anyway. I mean... I don't think the plan of starting our own agency is still on the table..." he replied and sighed. I nodded slowly.

Of course the agency wouldn't happen. Not without Oboro there. He was usually the one motivating us all and right now, we were all kind of functioning, trying to make it through until we could get a fresh start. Maybe it was a good idea to just... let things go the way they were going right now.

Maybe things would be very different when I started working anyway. I knew I was going to work with Alley Cat after finishing high school. She had already told me she'd make me an offer as a sidekick. And I wasn't going to say no to that. Not when I didn't even know what the story was between Shouta and me. I couldn't just throw a chance away like that, if I wasn't sure that he'd actually be there for me. And he really hadn't been there for me at all lately.

"True. Why are you so smart, Hizashi?" I wanted to know. He just shrugged and pushed his glasses further up on his nose.

"I'm not that smart." he just replied.

"Of course you are. Stop saying that."

"No, I mean, I might be smart in theory, but when it comes to being practical, Shou has all the brain cells." Hizashi protested. He was probably right. Shouta was always very rational and practical. That was one of the things I really liked about him, after all. But now I wasn't really sure whether he was going to rationalize me out of his life. It would be a very Shouta thing to do.

"Whatever you say, chief. Topic change: Did you manage to do Maths? The homework we got? I tried to do it last night, but I fell asleep at my desk and I couldn't finish the last two problems."

"Yeah, I got them. Not sure if they're right, though. But if you wanna take that risk, you can copy them."

"Thanks, I'll do that then. During English or something, when we've got loads of time and I don't need to focus." I replied with a chuckle. Hizashi nodded and finished up his lunch quickly.

"Say, I know she's not your friend anymore, but what's up with Yuki being in a good mood lately?" Hizashi wanted to know. I rolled my eyes. Yuki was always in a good mood when there was gossip and especially when there was gossip about people she didn't like whatsoever.

"She's just happy that she can spread rumours about Shou and me. And she's happy that we might be breaking up or something. She's been telling me how he's no good all the time, if we break up she'd rub it in my face forever." I explained to him. Hizashi frowned and shook his head.

"God, she really is a bitch, isn't she?"

"Yup. 100%. And the more I think back, the more I'm realizing she's always been one, honestly."

"How were you friends with her for that long? I just don't understand how that worked... like ever."

"I mean, I guess I just didn't really realize how much of a bitch she was while we were still hanging out? Probably because she was one of the only people I actually spent any time with. I don't even know. I really should have noticed something, but I didn't. She seemed nice when she was my friend. But I'm honestly so done with her right now. Not going back to her."

"Yeah, I'd say you're better off." Hizashi agreed and leaned back against the glass wall of the building. It wasn't really a nice day and it was almost too cold to sit outside during lunch, but we still went here. It felt wrong not to do it, because we both agreed that Oboro would have wanted us to carry on the tradition of breaking the rules. So we just kept coming back here, in honour of Oboro. Even though it really made us pretty sad and even if we were freezing our asses off.

"You think it'll rain before break is over?" Hizashi wanted to know and turned around to me. I shrugged.

"I sure hope not. Would suck to sit out here in the rain." I replied. Hizashi chuckled and shook his head.

"He'd been crazy enough to stay out here, wouldn't he?"

"Absolutely."