All I Have Is All You Gave To Me [Young!Aizawa x Reader]

92 Alive Alone - The Chemical Brothers

And I'm alive, and I'm alone

And I've never wanted to be either of those

We were rudely interrupted by the door opening and our teacher clearing his throat. I was blushing a little, but Shouta didn't seem fazed at all. He just gave our teacher a smug grin and leaned back. Hizashi looked like he was completely done with life and like he had lost his nerves.

Poor Hizashi. I bet he faltered and told him every little thing. I knew Hizashi couldn't keep a secret for the life of him, especially not if he was being put on the spot like this. I felt kind of sorry for him, but also... I mean, he kinda did need to learn to deal with all of this, especially if he was planning to go out into the real world. But I still felt pretty sorry for him, to be honest.

Anyway, it was my time to go and have the talk, even though I really didn't want to. I gave Hizashi an apologetic smile and got up, looking at our homeroom teacher not sure whether he'd ask me to come inside or whether we'd just awkwardly stand there and stare or what the story was. I hadn't been nervous all day, but now I was actually getting nervous, especially since he just had this really disappointed look on his face as he cleared his throat. I rubbed the back of my neck.

"Uh... my turn?" I asked.

"What do you think, L/N? You get three guesses." he answered. Oh boy. He was annoyed as fuck.

"Right. Sorry." I said and went into the office. Man, I was about to get my ass handed to me if I didn't manage to keep up a poker face while lying to this man. And - knowing him - he would figure it out.

So I went into the office and sat down on the couch opposite him and waited for him to start his thing. Honestly, I was getting really worried that he would get angry with me and give me detention again or something, because of some stupid future questionnaire bullshit. Which was ridiculous, because why on earth would he be giving me detention for something stupid like that?

But I was nervous and I knew that Shouta and Hizashi had already annoyed him, before I even got the chance, so yeah. This was... this was fucking terrifying for me to be honest and I just wanted to leave and never ever come back to school or go out into the real world ever again.

"So. L/N. You put down that you wanted to work with Alley Cat after school. You're happy there?" he wanted to know. My eyes darted around the room nervously and I just nodded quickly.

"Y-yeah, Sir. I already signed the contract for the year after school and hopefully she'll take me on for longer than that. It would be nice to be working somewhere where I already know the people I'm working with and where I'm familiar with my surroundings." I explained quickly.

"Okay. That sounds good. I didn't really expect you to make any dumb decisions about your future, if I'm being honest." he replied with a smile. I looked at him surprised. Was I... was I off the hook?

"Although I am kind of surprised you're not joining Aizawa in his endeavours to go independent right after school. I know you two are dating-"

"We're not dating."

I didn't even know why I said that, but it was just... it was just such a reflex thing when a teacher was going on about that, I couldn't stop myself. And it was stupid, because literally everyone knew that we were a thing. My teacher just looked at me with raised eyebrows. We both knew that this was a big fat lie. I sighed and rubbed the back of my neck nervously again.

"Sorry, Sir. I don't know why I just said that." I muttered.

"I know you two are dating and I was kind of afraid that you'd go down the same path because of that." he finished his sentence. The same path? What the fuck did he mean by that?

"Well, I mean, I plan to move out pretty soon and move in with Shouta, so while I'm working that one year I can save up some money and we'll see how things go..." I replied. My teacher smiled and I realized that I had fucked up. I had completely fucked up. He wasn't supposed to know that. I was supposed to stay quiet about that and not spill that I didn't plan to stay with the agency for long...

"So you aren't going to stay there? You were making up some story to get me off your back?" he asked.

"Uhm... maybe?" I replied. This wasn't good, this wasn't good at all and I wished I had just told him the truth straight up. Like Shouta had done. Honestly, it was probably smarter to do it that way.

"Why don't you just tell me what your plan is?" my teacher sighed and looked at me in disappointment.

"Alright, uhm... so the plan was to work with Alley Cat for now. Get my first pay and try to find a small place to live with that. Shouta can move in and we'll share the rent. He'll try his luck as an independent hero and I'll work with Alley Cat, so we've got a bit of a safety net." I said.

"And then once that year was up, what was your plan then?" he wanted to know. I shrugged. How would we be able to plan that far ahead anyway? Anything could happen, really. We might all be dead by next year, so why did he think I had made a plan about that now already?

"I don't know. I was going to see how everything was going on. Maybe Shouta would be doing well and I could join him in going independent. Maybe Alley Cat wouldn't offer me another year and I'd have to look for something else. Maybe Shouta needs more time and then I'd be working for Alley Cat longer. Maybe one of us dies, how the fuck should I know?" I replied.

"Language, L/N."

"Sorry."

"See, I know you've had a rough time, just like your friends. And I know it's probably difficult for you to think of anything in the far future, but you need to make more plans about this. It's the same thing I have told Aizawa and Yamada already and you need to hear it, too. People don't graduate and become independent straight away. That's not how it works." he said, obviously tired of having to tell us. But to be honest, I didn't get it. I didn't get it at all. Why wasn't it how it worked?

"Sorry, Sir, but why not?" I wanted to know. Didn't they always tell us that we could do anything? Be anything we wanted if we had the willpower to do it? Shouta was training every single day for this. If anyone had the willpower to go independent right out of high school, it was him.

"Because it's not easy to go independent. There are a lot of costs to cover, there are a lot of things to consider. Unless you're willing to be homeless for a few months or unless you have someone supporting you or some sort of savings it'll be tough." he said to me. I raised my eyebrows.

"But... I mean, you know Shouta. He'd be willing to live on the streets just to prove a point, I mean he's incredibly stubborn. And if I work and we share a place then we'll also have savings. I don't know why you keep insisting it won't work. I think there's a good chance that it'll work." I told him. I don't know why I was getting like this with him, maybe I was just annoyed.

"All I'm trying to tell you is that you need to think clearly about these things and realize how much work it is and not just do it, because you're fed up with the world and angry with everyone. Do you know what I mean?" he asked. I raised my eyebrow at him. Did I know what he meant? Of course I did! Did he think I was stupid or something? This was getting ridiculous.

"Of course, I know what you mean and I can assure we have thought about this a lot. We're not just doing it out of a mood. Why else do you think we'd even try doing that? It would be much easier to work at an agency, but that's not what we want." I replied, getting worked up. I was ready for getting told off about this, for being disrespectful or whatever, but he just smiled at me.

"Good." he said.

"Good?"

"You're on the right way with that attitude. Keep it up, L/N."