All I Have Is All You Gave To Me [Young!Aizawa x Reader]

51 Muzzle - The Smashing Pumpkins

I fear that I am ordinary just like everyone

To lie here and die among the sorrows

Adrift among the days

For everything I ever said

I was sitting on Shouta's lap, trying to eat my lunch in peace. We weren't really that couple that was basically all over each other in public - in fact we tried to tone down the PDA, as long as people other than Oboro and Hizashi were around. But right now it was rush hour in the cafeteria and most of the seats were taken, so we kind of had to make do. This seemed like the best option.

Except it wasn't. Shouta was not someone who liked to keep his legs quiet and it was driving me insane, because I kept spilling my lunch everywhere. And it wasn't even my fault, it was Shouta being a nervous wreck. And it was really, really annoying, especially as I spilled yet another bit of my rice.

"Shouta!" I protested, which was acknowledged by Hizashi and Oboro with a low chuckle. Shouta sighed.

"Sorry. I don't mean to." he muttered.

"Well, then stop doing it." I replied, which was again followed by a chuckle from Hizashi and Oboro. I glared at them, somehow a little annoyed at everyone today. Maybe it was that weird talk I had had with Maiko the other day or the way I wasn't sure how to behave around anyone anymore.

"Oh my God, can you two just... shut up or something?" I grumbled, not really in the mood to be putting up with the two of them.

"Sheesh, sorry. You seem tense, you gotta relax." Oboro replied. I sighed. I knew I had to relax and that I seemed tense and maybe, just maybe that had to do with me getting in trouble for forgetting some assignment earlier. Maybe today just really wasn't my day. Like, at all.

"I know, I know. I'm just still hung up on that stupid assignment." I said, as I pinched the bridge of my nose.

"Oh boy, looks like there might be some trouble ahead..." Hizashi suddenly said. I looked up at him and followed the direction he was looking in. I had no idea what he meant and turned back towards him.

"What do you mean?" I wanted to know.

"Your friend. The one that's sitting behind you? Doesn't she have a problem with you or something?" Hizashi muttered.

"What, Yuki?"

"No, the other one."

"Hideko?"

"She's right behind you, (F/N)." Hizashi said with an exasperated sigh. I gulped audibly and turned around to see Hideko standing behind me (and Shouta). She seemed a little taken aback at seeing us like this, so I got up from his lap and raised my eyebrows at her. What did Hideko want?

"Hey. What's up?" I asked her. She looked at me, before glancing at Hizashi, Oboro and Shouta nervously.

"Can we... can we talk?" she wanted to know.

"Yeah, sure."

"Somewhere... somewhere more private maybe?" she wanted to know again. Now it was my turn to raise my eyebrow. Surely this wasn't some trick, was it? Why did she need to get me away from my friends?

"Uhm... I guess so. Hang on." I told her, before turning around to the three boys still sitting at the table and watching us intently. In their mind, they would associate Hideko more with Yuki than me, so this had to look really weird to them.

"We'll just be outside the cafeteria, guys, shouldn't take too long." I said to them and quickly followed Hideko.

I had no idea what she could want from me, since... well, wasn't she going to stick to Yuki's side? And I thought Yuki hated me, so... I had no idea what she could possibly want from me.

Hideko stopped just outside the doors to the cafeteria, which was hopefully a good sign, since it meant that she wouldn't try to fuck me over or anything... right? I sure hoped so. Well, if this was some sort of trap, at least a whole lot of teachers, other students and my friends were closeby.

"So, uhm... what exactly is this about?" I wanted to know, as she turned around and looked at me nervously.

"I... uhm... I know we haven't really been getting along lately..." she started and I huffed. We hadn't gotten along? Hideko was the one who decided to stick to Yuki rather than me. Not that I would even make her pick a side or whatever, but Yuki was the one that was being ridiculous here.

"No shit, Sherlock." I just muttered.

"Anyway, I... I just wanted to apologize, because... I know it was really stupid that I just stopped talking to you and all, I mean... it was really because I was more scared of... of Yuki treating me the same way she was treating you..." Hideko started saying. I raised an eyebrow.

This was really not what I had expected and I had no idea how to react to any of this. I mean, I had basically given up on either of them being my friends ever again and I had certainly not thought that only one of them would come back. I wasn't even sure if this meant we would be friends again or if she just had a bad conscience or whatever. It was pretty confusing.

"Uh... sure... I'm not exactly sure, what your point is right now..." I replied, when she looked up at me, expecting me to react to what she had said. She looked down at her feet and sighed, before facing me again.

"I'm sorry, okay? I was really horrible to you and I shouldn't have been, but I was too fixated on Yuki and I didn't realize until... until a while ago just how stupid that was. I'm really sorry." she said.

"Uh, okay... Thanks...? Sorry, I'm not really sure how to react to this, I never really expected either of you to actually apologize or something..." I muttered, scratching the back of my head nervously.

I was really trying not to sound super arrogant here, but I also didn't want to seem like I was desperate to have them back in my life. Or rather either of them. Because I wasn't. Sure, I had really missed them at the beginning, but... well, I had made new friends. It wasn't as bad anymore.

"Okay. I was wondering, if... can we maybe talk again? I've missed you, (F/N)-chan." Hideko admitted.

"Yeah, sure. I mean... I missed you, too. But won't Yuki get mad or something?" I wanted to know. I was kind of glad that out of the two of them it was Hideko who came back to me and wanted to be friends again, since I had known her so much longer than Yuki and I had missed her much more.

"She's already mad about that one time we were paired up during the exam. Plus, she's hanging out with Sensoji an awful lot lately, so she doesn't even have that much time for me anymore." Hideko muttered quietly and rolled her eyes. I burst out laughing. Of course. Of course Yuki would drop her only friend left for someone like Sensoji. God, I had no idea how I was ever her friend.

"That sounds like her alright. So... we're like friends again or what is this?" I wanted to know. I still wasn't quite sure.

"Yeah, that... that would be nice. And I'm sorry about all the stuff I said about Yamada and Shirakumo and... and Aizawa. They seem like good friends. Much better friends than me, to be honest." she replied, her head hanging low. I felt sorry for her. She seemed to be really sorry about everything that happened between us. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into a tight hug.

"Hey, don't worry. Forgiven and forgotten, okay?" I said to her. It felt like a weight was lifted off my chest. I hadn't even realized how stressed out I had gotten about this whole friendship situation.

"Okay. Thank you, (F/N). I'm really glad we sorted this out." Hideko replied and hugged me back.