All I Have Is All You Gave To Me [Young!Aizawa x Reader]

26 Where Is My Mind? - The Pixies

Your head will collapse

But there's nothing in it

Things only started being awkward the next day. I had no idea what had happened, but suddenly it didn't all feel like fun and games anymore. I woke up thinking that I had no idea what that all was about. Were we a thing now? Or were we still only friends? How the hell was I supposed to find out?

There was no way in hell I was going to just ask him. That was completely out of the question, because how embarrassing and awkward would that be? I didn't even know what I wanted us to be, really. I mean, yes, I had the most obvious crush on him, but did I actually want us to be a thing? Now that the option was on the table, my mind suddenly drew a total blank.

And today was the day we would all spend on the bus. For a long time. Maybe I could sit with Oboro or Hizashi instead. I'd honestly prefer Oboro, because as much as I loved Hizashi, he was just so loud. He didn't mean to be, but he was and he had no sense for when someone needed peace and quiet.

"Hey, (F/N)! Are you gonna sit with Shou on the way back?" I suddenly heard Hizashi's voice. I turned around and saw him jogging over to me. Ugh, I honestly wasn't ready for this. At all.

"Uhm... I was actually hoping I could sit with Oboro instead..." I mumbled quietly. Hizashi gave me a shocked look.

"WHAT?!"

"Oh my God, stay quiet! At least try, Hizashi!"

"Right. Sorry. I thought you and Shou... were like a thing? Or was it that bad? I can't imagine it was that bad, like I literally practiced this with him..." Hizashi started babbling. Wait, what? They practiced? Kissing? I burst out laughing.

"You practiced?" I asked. Hizashi shrugged.

"Yeah. He was nervous and I have no shame, so we did. I thought he was a good kisser. Please don't tell me my judgment is that far off." he replied. I laughed and shook my head. I mean, not that I had a lot of experience, but it was... nice. That wasn't the problem at all. No way.

"It's not. I think. It was a perfectly fine kiss. I mean, I don't really have any comparison, but..."

Hizashi gasped and grabbed my hands, looking at me with a big smile and his wide green eyes.

"Shouta was your first kiss? That is so cute!" he exclaimed and proceeded to hug me tightly. Why was I friends with him again?

"Yeah, yeah, he was, whatever. The thing is... I don't know, it's all weird now, Zashi. Like this was never planned and we were just hanging out, as we always were after and everything was fine, but when I woke up this morning... I don't know, it just felt weird. Like what happened in there? Did it mean anything? Are we a thing? Are we not? I'm just so confused." I told him, burying my blushing face in my hands. Hizashi hugged me again and rubbed my back.

"Hey, hey, hey. No problem. I'm not sure how to help you with this, but I'll just grab Shou and sit with him, okay? And you can chill with Oboro and talk to him. Oboro will know what to do. He always does." Hizashi said.

"What do I always know?" I heard Oboro's voice say behind us. I looked up at him. He had his school uniform on and the tie slung around his neck loosely. He was chewing on some food.

"Oboro. We're sitting together on the way back. No discussions. I'm having a crisis and you need to help me." I said to him, dragging him along to the bus. There was still a lot of time left before we had to leave, but we were allowed on the bus already. Oboro stumbled along behind me.

"Woah, woah, woah. What's up? Is everything okay?" he wanted to know, once we sat down inside the bus.

"What is the story with me and Shouta?" I wanted to know. Oboro gave me the most confused look.

"What... (F/N), you tell me! How am I supposed to know?" he replied with raised eyebrows. I shrugged.

"You guys are friends. Did he... I dunno... say something? I just woke up this morning and I was confused." I said.

"(F/N). Slow down. First off, Shouta didn't tell any of us anything. He literally just fell asleep. So whatever happened in that closet, we don't know about it. Secondly, this is something you should ask him. Do you like him?" Oboro asked. I sighed. Of course, I liked him. I had the biggest, fattest crush on him.

"Of course I do. Oboro, remember how we had that little disagreement? Well, we talked in the closet and apologized and then... I dunno, we just kissed? And then our time was up. The rest of the evening everything was fine, but I woke up and just freaked this morning. Like, are we a thing? Does he like me, too? Is this a thing now? Or was that just a spur of the moment thing? See, I don't want things to be weird and I feel like we just made it really weird."

Oboro gave me a long look and then burst out laughing. He held onto my shoulder, as he was trying to calm down. I had no idea why he was laughing this much. He probably knew something he couldn't tell me.

"My God, you and Shouta are either the best or the worst match. You both have no idea how to deal with emotions, do you?" he said. I just shrugged, blushing a little again. Why did everyone have more of a plan than she did?

"I guess, we don't... What am I supposed to do? He's my best friend, you all are my best friends, but things are weird now, because we kissed and I definitely have feelings for him." I replied.

"Hey, relax. It'll all be fine. I'm not supposed to tell you this, but whatever. Shouta likes you, too. So just... lean back, relax, let this whole thing take its natural course. Shouta probably needs some time for this, but he definitely likes you." Oboro told me with a smile. I felt my cheeks heat up again.

"He... he does?" I wanted to know.

"Yeah, you dumbass." he said and ruffled my hair. I would have smacked his hand away, but I was too dumbfounded at this moment. For some inexplicable reason I had never even considered that Shouta could possibly like me back. I just never honestly considered it, but knowing this...

I still wasn't sure how to proceed. But this was exciting news, at least for me. Oboro looked like he had known for ages and was astonished by the fact I hadn't figured it out yet. But how the hell was anyone supposed to figure out Shouta's emotions? He was the most stoic person I had ever known.

"I... did not know that. I did not even consider that. I think I'm gonna need some sleep, maybe things will be much better after that." I said. I was a little embarrassed making such a fuss, when really there was probably nothing to worry about.

"Yeah. Go and get some sleep. I'm sure Shouta's just as freaked out about this as you are, because he's been awfully off this morning." he replied.

"Sorry for making such a big deal of this, it's kind of dumb." I mumbled and curled up in the seat. There were people slowly filing into the bus at this stage, so it was probably better to just keep it down.

"Don't worry about it. It's not dumb. You and Shouta are dumb." he replied. I was already drifting off into sleep, but I managed to mutter a last defiant "Fuck you." before actually falling asleep.