53 Every You Every Me - Placebo

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Carve your name into my arm

Instead of stressed I lie here charmed'

Cause there's nothing else to do

Every me and every you

I was wrecked. I was completely wrecked, but at least it was over. And I was also 100% sure that I had absolutely failed with flying colours. I was surprised when I wasn't out after the first two rounds of the Provisional Licensing Exam, because they were tough as hell and everyone just jumped us, since we were from U.A. They all knew our Quirks, thanks to the Sports Festival.

It was horrible. Sure, we had been warned of that tradition, but... I hadn't expected it to be this bad. What we all had been through was plain and simple torture. But the four of us had somehow made it through that round, even though I had no idea how we managed to survive.

The second round was just as brutal, but we could clear it easily if we worked as a team and if there was one thing the four of us were good at, it was teamwork. And since we had been spending so much time together just hanging out and also training, we all knew each other's Quirks like the backs of our hands. And that was definitely our advantage in that second round.

And the third round was all about rescue, so it was super easy. We had Shouta who was good at getting people organized and prioritizing and we had Hizashi who had an easy time getting messages through to people. Oboro was good with transporting injured people with his Cloud Quirk and I... well, I could make them feel better by making them see pleasant things.

But still... there were so many people there who were doing so much better than us and it was gnawing on my nerves that we had to wait so long to see whether we had made it. Only the top 50 would actually get the license, so if we just placed one rank below 50 it was over for us.

So we were just sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall and looking up at the ceiling, all four of us (except Shouta who had his head on my lap and was fast asleep). We were all probably thinking the same thing - just how terribly we had failed. After all the suspense with how tough the exams would get, we didn't really know what to expect anymore or how to feel about how we did.

"You think they'll let us redo the exam?" Hizashi wanted to know. I shrugged. I couldn't even be bothered right now, because... well, I was just way too tired to actually care much at this point.

"They'll have to." Oboro replied.

"They're U.A., they don't have to do shit." I heard Shouta mumbling against my legs. I looked down. He still had his eyes closed and looked like he was completely asleep, but apparently he wasn't.

"If I didn't know you as well as I do, you'd have given me a heart attack just there." I said and ran my hand through his hair. I felt him smiling against me, as I did that, and it was the cutest little smile I had ever seen.

"Good. I live to strike fear in the hearts of my enemies." he mumbled, before yawning sleepily.

"Wow. You sure have a way with words, Shouta." Oboro commented and chuckled, before looking at me questioningly. I knew exactly what he was planning and nodded quickly, a smirk forming on my face.

It was already difficult not to laugh, but when Oboro raked his hands through Shouta's hair and massaged his scalp and Shouta let out a satisfied little hum, I just couldn't help it anymore. I burst out laughing which made Oboro and Hizashi laugh out loud as well and of course it woke Shouta up fully, who finally opened his eyes and looked around just to found Oboro's hand in his hair.

"You're idiots, all of you." he muttered and sat up. He stretched his arms above his head and yawned, before leaning back against the wall and staring up at the ceiling as well. And there we were again - waiting.

"How long does it take them to tell us who failed and who didn't? You'd think it would be a pretty easy decision." Shouta said, as his eyes wandered over to the billboard that was still empty.

"I don't know, maybe they want to make it extra painful or something." Hizashi replied, pushing his glasses on his forehead and rubbing his eyes. I had never seen him this dejected before.

"They probably do wanna make it extra painful." I said, before checking my phone. I had a text from my mum.

>>And? Did you pass yet? Let us know!!!<<

I sighed. Both my parents being so excited about this made it even worse. Because I'd have to tell them that I didn't pass. That I failed. That they wasted all the money they invested in my education. I mean, come on. How likely was it really that I'd become a hero? With a weird Quirk like mine?

I felt kind of ridiculous even going to U.A. now. Wasting my time like this. It just seemed like all of that was so far out of reach for people like me or Shouta. Sure, Hizashi would have an easy time as a hero and Oboro's Quirk was well-suited for hero work, too. But Shouta and I? Forget it.

Maybe everyone was right after all and the two of us didn't belong in a hero school. Or in a hero course at least. Maybe they had been right to try and get us out, so we wouldn't waste our time chasing after some empty dream that was completely unachievable for either of us anyway.

"You look depressed." Shouta suddenly commented, snapping me out of my thoughts and back into reality.

"I dunno, I was just thinking. Do you think we can really make it?" I wanted to know. I don't know why I felt so gloomy all of a sudden, but I just started to doubt all my life choices up until this point.

"The licensing exam? I'd say we did alright. And even if we fail, I think they'll probably let us do it again, as far as I know they do them twice a year..." Shouta explained and glanced at the billboard. Nothing.

"No, that's not really what I meant. I meant more like... do you think we can make it as... as heroes? In life? The two of us together? I dunno, it's probably stupid I'm worrying about this now..." I muttered.

"It's not stupid. Not at all. I... I'm not really sure about that either. I often think that... maybe... maybe I'm just not cut out for this. Maybe I'd be better off doing something else. I don't know." Shouta replied.

"Yeah, I know what you mean. It all just seems so scary and unsure and... maybe it's just scary being an adult, I don't know..." I mumbled and laughed a little. Not that I thought it was funny, just... I didn't really know what else to do. I couldn't well cry, could I? Not yet, at least. The billboard was still empty.

But then, suddenly it started moving. There was a lot of murmuring and whispering going through the crowd of hero students, as everyone's eyes were fixated on the billboard that was still turning. This felt like slow torture. My heart was beating a mile a minute and I felt like I couldn't breathe.

The only thing around me that wasn't dizzy or sounding like it was far away or feeling surreal was Shouta's hand grabbing my own hand, as we both kept our eyes on the billboard that was slowly coming to a halt. My eyes frantically searched for my name and it wasn't there... it wasn't in the next column either... it wasn't... wait a second. There it was! And the number next to it was... 43! I had made it!

But... what about everyone else... I checked the board again... There was Shouta's name! Number 41! And Oboro was there as well... on 47. And... holy shit, Hizashi was on 25! We had made it, all of us! We had all gotten our provisional licenses! We had passed the stupid exam and would never have to do it again!

"We've done it..." I muttered, as tears began streaming down my face, tears of pure and utter relief.

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