All I Have Is All You Gave To Me [Young!Aizawa x Reader]

88 All Apologies - Nirvana

What else should I be?

All apologies

I was probably exaggerating, but waking up all alone in the hospital was probably the worst part of this entire experience. Or maybe it was because I wasn't on a massive cocktail of painkillers anymore, as I had been when I was with my kidnappers. So I woke up in a lot of pain, all alone, in unfamiliar surroundings once more. But this time there were no people around.

No one I could ask about what was going on. I wasn't feeling extremely dehydrated anymore, though. So that was good. I was looking around and everything looked clean and sterile and I realized that I still hadn't been able to shower. At this point I honestly wanted to die.

I sat up with a pained groan. Right, I had to get someone here to give me some damn painkillers and to give me some water or some shit. Sure, I was getting infusions and all, so I wouldn't die, but my throat was hoarse and dry as hell. As I looked around the bright room, I suddenly started feeling very hopeless and sad. Why was there no one here waiting for me to wake up?

Where was Shouta? He had promised to stay with me, hadn't he? Why wasn't he here? As I grasped for the button to call a nurse, I felt some tears falling down my cheeks. I had no idea that waking up alone in hospital would feel this fucking bad. But here I was bawling my eyes out.

That was until I noticed something moving on the floor. I quickly wiped away some tears (which didn't help much) and leaned over to see what the hell that was. That yellow thing looked strangely familiar. And then I saw Shouta's face peeking out of it, his eyes slowly opening, as he sat up.

"You're awake?" he asked.

"S-Shouta?" I mumbled, interrupted by a sob. Shouta's eyes widened quickly and he climbed out of his sleeping bag, turning around to me and giving me another one of his worried looks.

"F/N, why are you crying? What's wrong?" he wanted to know. He sat down next to me on my hospital bed and softly wiped away the tears from my cheeks. Which only made me cry more.

"Hey, hey, hey. I'm here. Come on, what is it? You can tell me." he asked again, taking my hand into his.

"I-I thought I was a-alone... I t-thought you had left..." I sobbed, feeling kind of stupid for bawling like this when there wasn't even a proper reason for it. Shouta just smiled and pulled me into a hug.

"F/N, I told you I wouldn't leave. It's okay, I'm here. I was here this entire time. No need to be upset." he muttered.

"I-I was just r-really overwhelmed b-being in hospital a-all on my o-own..." I tried to explain. Shouta just rubbed my back gently while I sobbed into his shoulder. I couldn't believe that he had actually camped out in the hospital just to be there when I woke up. I don't know why I ever doubted that he still wanted to be with me. He had just risked his life to save me and made sure I wasn't alone the entire time. Why had we even been fighting? It all seemed stupid right now.

"It's okay, F/N. It's okay. How are you feeling?" he wanted to know and let go of me. I wiped away a few more stray tears and tried to smile. How was I feeling? I didn't even know where to start.

"I... I'm in pain... and I'm thirsty... and I really, really want a shower..." I answered quietly. Shouta smiled.

"I'll get you a glass of water, okay? Just stay here, I'll be right back." he said and grabbed a glass from the bedside table, before walking towards the bathroom that was connected to the room.

He even left the door to the bathroom open, so I could see him and see that he was still there. I was wondering when the nurse would get here. Maybe it would take a while, but now that Shouta was here, I wasn't even mad. They could take their time, I enjoyed just being with him.

"Here you go." Shouta said, as he came back with a full glass of cold water in his hands. He handed it to me and I slowly started drinking some of it, choking on the first gulp and almost spitting it out again. I hadn't realized that drinking was so difficult after you hadn't done it in a while.

"Take it slow, alright?" Shoute commented with a chuckle. I shot him a glare, but smiled and tried again.

"Thank you." I mumbled and put the glass down on my bedside table. I looked back at Shouta.

"You... You're actually here. And you stayed here the whole time... I... I didn't think you still... " I started, not really sure where exactly I was going with this. But Shouta nodded, understanding.

"Yeah, I was being stupid. And I only realized how much I cared for you when you were gone all of a sudden. I'm so sorry, F/N. I didn't even realize what I must have put you through the last few months. I'm sorry, I was being selfish." he explained. I was completely dumbstruck. I hadn't really expected anything like this, but I was glad that he was saying it. Even though I still blamed myself.

"Shouta, no... it's fine. You were grieving and you were just grieving differently from me and Hizashi and that's fine... and I'm sorry for trying to push you in any way, I didn't... I didn't mean any of that. Can we... can we go back to the way things were?" I asked him. Shouta smiled and this was the first truly genuine smile I had seen on him in months. It made my heart melt.

"Of course. Of course we can. It's about time we had that talk, huh?" he replied with a chuckle. I weakly punched his upper arm.

"Hey, I've been trying to talk to you for weeks now!" I protested and he laughed, nodding quietly.

"I know, that was one of the other things I only realized once it was potentially too late. I'm so glad I didn't lose you." he said, pulling me closer to him and kissing me gently, making sure I wasn't in pain. I honestly couldn't have cared less. This was worth all the fucking pain in the world.

We only broke apart when we heard someone clearing their throat from the doorway. We quickly moved away from each other and looked to the door where the nurse I had called was standing. Her strict look was turning into a tiny smile, as she came into the room with some papers in her hand.

"I see you're awake. Is there anything I can do for you?" she asked me politely. I quickly nodded.

"Uhm, yeah, I... can I maybe get some painkillers? I'm in a lot of pain." I told her. She nodded.

"I'll have to check that with the doctor, but it shouldn't be a problem. Anything else?" she asked.

"When... when can I get out? And when can I take a shower? Because I honestly stink." I wanted to know.

"We would like to keep you here for another day or two just to make sure your condition isn't going to worsen. You have a concussion and we just need to watch it for a little longer to make sure there's not going to be any swelling. Apart from that you might have a few pulled muscles, but that's all. You were pretty lucky I'd say." she answered. I nodded quickly. I could live with being in hospital for a day or two. That was fine. As long as I could get rid of all this pain.

"What about a shower?" I wanted to know.

"I'll get the doctor for the pain medication and he'll probably ask you a few questions and then we can see if it would be reasonable to let you try and shower. For now you should only shower with assistance however, in case you faint while you shower. We don't want you to hit your head again." she said with a smile.

"Yeah, sure. Thank you, I think... I think that's all I want to know for now." I told her and leaned back.

"That's fine. I'll get the doctor for you immediately. Until then, get some more rest, drink some more water." she said before heading out of the room. I glanced at Shouta with a smirk.

"So, you wanna shower with me?"