All I Have Is All You Gave To Me [Young!Aizawa x Reader]

89 Zero - The Smashing Pumpkins

Throw out your cares and fly

Wanna go for a ride?

Shouta almost never left my side while I was in the hospital and I was really glad about it, because I would have been really damn lonely if he had. He was usually just gone for classes and then came back as soon as they finished. He wasn't even training as much anymore, which was weird, but I really appreciated all the time he was spending with me while I recuperated.

As soon as I got out of the hospital he was literally doting on me 24/7. I would have thought it was annoying, but I was very much attention-starved when it came to Shouta, so I didn't mind at all. And after all, I could have almost lost him back then with the kidnapping, so it was good to have him around me so much. And he probably felt the same, at least he always said so.

As soon as I was allowed to train again he'd ask me to train with him any time I could make it. He was back to his rigorous training schedule, but at least he wasn't always training on his own anymore and he was taking much better precautions. Things really seemed to be looking up.

We were definitely back together and everyone was very much aware of it. And it almost seemed like everyone was relieved to see it, because it meant that Shouta was doing better. Even though he wasn't really doing that much better, but of course most people who only superficially knew him didn't care that much. Even Hizashi seemed to be a little more cheerful.

And so our third and last year was quickly coming to an end. Soon we'd have talks with our homeroom teacher about what our future plans were in terms of work and everything. I honestly had no idea what to tell him and neither did Hizashi. I hadn't really brought up the topic with Shouta yet, because I was just scared that it would bring up memories of Oboro. Since our plans had always included him in a way. But we all also had kind of abandoned those plans.

Hizashi had been focussing on his webcast a lot lately and he said he was probably going to try and build that up as a side project while working. He wasn't even sure if he was going to go independent yet or stay with his agency. And I was definitely going to stay with the agency right after school. Our plans of going independent straight out of school had been abandoned.

But I wasn't sure what Shouta was really planning. I could see him pull through and try to go independent right away. He was stubborn like that. I was just wondering how he was planning to deal with all the media stuff. Advertising himself really wasn't his strong suit and he hated it with a passion. He also hated the media with a passion and usually preferred to stay out of the limelight.

"Whatcha thinking about?" he asked me, as we were sitting down, taking a break from our training. Shouta had gotten really damn good at what he was doing. All that extra solo training was showing and I had trouble trying to keep up with him now. After all, he was able to show up Sensoji easily in joint battle training and he was starting to become our teachers' favourite.

"Just the future I guess." I muttered. I really didn't want to ask him about any of that, because... it just had so much to do with Oboro and the one thing we hadn't talked about at all was Oboro.

"What about it?" he wanted to know.

"I don't know, I was just wondering what... what our plan was after school." I said, trying to avoid the topic.

"You mean with Oboro gone, are we still planning to go through with everything or not?" he asked.

"I... uh... yeah. Yeah, I guess." I said. I felt really bad about this, because... Hizashi and I had definitely abandoned the plan as soon as Oboro was dead, but the way Shouta had phrased it... it sounded like we were abandoning Oboro almost. And maybe we were doing that.

"I still plan to go independent. But I get if you and Hizashi don't want to start out like that right away." he answered.

"Really? Because... well, I did sign my contract with Alley Cat and all, because I didn't really know what was going on and it seemed to be a pretty safe spot to be in, at least when coming straight from UA, you know? We can... I can still change my mind, if you want." I replied.

Shouta turned around to me and gave me a small smile, running his hand through my hair. I wasn't even sure how to feel right now, because I was just so afraid of him blaming me of giving up on that one dream we all had. The one dream we had when Oboro was still alive. But maybe that was just me, telling myself I was making a mistake. Oboro couldn't tell me it was fine, could he?

"Y/N, do what you think is right. Honestly, I don't know if I'm going to make it on my own. It might all just fail, but I want to try. But I know I'm barely going to be able to afford anything as soon as I move out. And it'll be hard work with very little pay. You know I'm not good with the whole media thing and all. If you don't want to go through all that, it's fine." he answered. I nodded slowly.

"I know, it's just... it's just..." I started.

"Is it about him?"

"Yes."

"Look, F/N, Oboro would have wanted you to do whatever you think is right for you. Whatever makes you happy. Do you really think he'd mind?" Shouta asked me. When he put it like that, it really did sound stupid. After all, Oboro was the nicest person in the entire world and he was our mom friend and he just... he wouldn't have cared for even a second. I was so stupid.

"Oh God, I'm so sorry, Shou. Of course he wouldn't. I just... I don't know. I just wish he was still here. All this time he's been pulling us through whatever kind of bullshit we were going through, but now... it's like I'm only realizing now how difficult it is to pull myself through. I didn't wanna bring him up, Shou. I'm sorry." I replied. Why was I always being so damn stupid?

"It's fine. It needed to be said. But now that that's out of the way, let's not talk about him anymore, okay? I just... I can't." Shouta answered quietly. I quickly nodded. Getting Shouta to talk about Oboro like this was already a lot. He hadn't even mentioned him much the last few months.

If I remembered correctly he hadn't mentioned Oboro's name at all. Knowing Shouta, it would probably take years before he'd be able to normally talk about him. But that was okay. He wasn't ready to do that yet and he needed more time than the rest of us, but as long as he was doing better every day... we would get through this somehow, right? We always did after all.

"Okay. So you're still planning to go independent, huh?" I asked him. Shouta smiled a little again and nodded.

"Yup."

"Any plans on what you're specializing in?" I wanted to know. He shrugged and leaned back on the mat we were sitting on.

"I was thinking I'll specialize in battle, but I'll probably be doing whatever I can get, to be honest. Not like I'm going to be able to get a whole lot of work right off the bat." he replied with a grin.

"So how are you going to support yourself? How are you going to pay rent? It's pretty expensive, you know."

"I mean, I've got a sleeping bag. And who knows, maybe by the time you move out of your parents' house, we can maybe move in together and that would already half my rent, so..." he said.

"You're silly. I'm planning to move out as soon as possible. And of course you can move in with me then."