best of me | woosan (✓)

- seventy nine -

"mingi?"

"yes, my love?"

"w-would you be upset with me if i wanted to ask sangie if he wanted to room with me and have you room with jongho?"

mingi stayed silent, letting his thoughts take over his head in the darkness of the room. yunho bit down on his lip, worried that the silence was his answer.

"n-nevermind..."

"why?" mingi blurted out, trying to control his emotions and not break down as he pulled yunho closer.

yunho kept his back pressed against mingi's chest, scared that if he looked at the latter he would break down as he began to speak.

"i-i just... ever since wooyoungie brought up how i basically abandoned my best friend for my boyfriend... i've felt so guilty. i know sangie... he may say he's going to be okay but nine times out of ten he's just lying to keep others from worrying."

"yuyu..." mingi sighed, squeezing his eyes shut for a moment before continuing. "this is that one time out of ten. i promise. jongho told me they're starting over completely, yeosang was the one who suggested it. he's okay. and when he's not okay, we're right down the hall for him, yeah?"

"s-so you would be upset..." yunho mumbled with a frown.

"n-no! i-i just don't want you to worry about sangie or feel guilty when you have no reason to."

yunho nodded slightly, still frowning a bit.

mingi felt the anxiety begin to set in at yunho's silence, leaving him torn between staying or going to the bathroom to handle himself. he felt like he was suffocating, his heart racing and his palms getting sweaty. yunho had yet to notice, which was mostly comforting to mingi, but he also feared for the moment he did.

"y-yuyu? i-it's not me, is it? i-i'm not the reason you want to switch?" mingi asked impulsively.

yunho turned over in mingi's arms, now facing the younger and cupping his cheeks. the two let their eyes adjust as they stared at each other in silence, then yunho pressed a soft kiss to mingi's lips.

"it's not you, mingi, i promise. i'm just being eaten alive by the guilt."

mingi took a shaky breath, nodding a bit and pressing his forehead to yunho's.

"mingi... hey, follow my breathing, babe. follow me..." yunho encouraged, beginning to take deep breaths so that mingi could follow.

mingi nodded a bit and began to follow the older, clinging to him a bit out of habit.

"i'm sorry, bub..." yunho whispered, beginning to feel bad for even asking.

"yuyu... hey, baby, it's okay. i-it's not your fault."

"you were having an anxiety attack! and it was my fault!"

"no. no, it wasn't. and i wasn't having one yet, i was just starting to get really anxious. yunho, my love, i let my thoughts get to me and thought you were getting sick of me. it wasn't your fault."

yunho pouted a bit, not convinced that he wasn't at fault, then nodded slightly and curled into mingi's arms. mingi smiled small, kissing the boy's forehead and rubbing his back.

"i love you, yunho."

"i'll never understand how i got so lucky... i love you too, mingi."

"i'm the lucky one, yuyu. you gave me a chance, and i will forever be grateful for it."

"you are everything i've always wanted and more... please don't ever leave," yunho asked in a whisper.

"never. i'm yours forever, angel."