Sam and max stories

Feelization

(art by me) 

Something strange had been happening.

Max had been feeling, different around sam. A lot different. Every time he saw him, he got a fuzzy feeling in his stomach...(well apart from the overly sugary junk food he consumed on a regular basis)

He had the urge to hold his hand whenever they were walking, nuzzle his side when they were watching trashy tv on the couch, kiss him on the cheek when he least expected...

But he never did any of those things, because he knew it'd just be gross and mushy.

Or at least he thought he knew....

What on earth was this weird feeling? He kept feeling the desire to hold Sam, nuzzle him softly, and make him feel loved.

Wait.

No, no, he couldn't be in love! That went against his whole image! He was a manly badass detective! Not some lovesick sap who fell for his sidekick!

At first he tried denying it, saying to himself that Sam was just his best friend. They were closer than brothers! Nothing romantic involved whatsoever!

But eventually he realized that if that were true, he wouldn't wanna kiss him on the lips, and neck, and- dang it, sidetracked.

So then he tried reasoning that it was just a temporary crush, it'd probably go away in a few days!

It did not.

Eventually, after denial that he was in love, feeling angry that he was in love with someone who would be impossible for him to date, bargaining to try and find something different, and mild depression that he was in unrequited love, he finally accepted the fact.

He was in love with sam.

Honestly, accepting it made him feel better, now that he wouldn't be so stressed about his feelings and could just crush on Sam normally.

Now was the hard part.

What should he do about his feelings?

Sure, he could just tell Sam, but that would probably result in him getting rejected and then things being awkward, and Max HATED awkward.

Maybe he could try a more subtle way, like putting his feelings in a letter that he'd leave on Sam's desk and then pack his bags and move up to Albuquerque. Buuut of course, Sam being a detective, wouldn't take very long to find out where Max was...

After going through a few options in his head, he came to a conclusion.

Max had only one logical choice. Hide his feelings and make sure Sam never ever found out about them.

That's the only way to make sure things wouldn't change for the worse, and to make sure their lives stayed perfect.

But then again... if Sam found out, things might be even better..

Sam might like him back... maybe they'd even start dating and eventually get married...?

Max shakes his head, poofing the thought away. There's no chance that'd happen.

...right?